Is it so weird???

Tagged by Shareena* State 15 weird things/ habits/ little known facts about yourself.* The 10 people I tag are to then to follow my footsteps and write their own 15 weird things/habits and little known facts.

1. I can sleep up to 18 hours a day...

2. I love to collect weird items...

3. I'm 21 but I have 5 bears...

4. I love stars...

5. Love anything to do with hockey...

6. I hate backstabbers, liars, hipocrits, but most of my friends are....

7. Hate driving in Traffic jams but always use the same way even there are many alternative roads...

8. I'm addicted to Mafia Wars

9. I love reading people.. and their thoughts...

10. I love to play playstation untill 6 in the morning...

11. I love driving late at night...

12. I eat a lot even that I'm thin...

13. I suddently woke up late at night when I'm hungry... and cook what ever is there in the kitchen...

14. Love cooking...

15. Hate that people don't wash up the dishes after eating... but I', lazy as well....



People I tagged:

Miss Fa
Kiki
Cik Aqie
Cik Jenab
Mr CB
Cik Dewi

Letters of disgust over you...

Just because of one misunderstanding... u wasted 3 years of our friendship... what the fuck is wrong with you? If he makes you happy... then I'm glad for you... I'm happy that you've found your happiness... since the beginning of your relationship... when everyone appose even your own sister... I stand up for you and this is what I get??? then thanks for the going away present...

I never hated him... even he was the one that spread bad rumors about me since part 1... But I hate him now because i loose you... one of my best friend... not only loose you.. but he made you turn against me... FUCK him... I wouldn't be so friendly to him and make everything he had done to me just slide away this time....

for awhile I let it slide... out of my respect for you.. but not now... people like him doesn't deserve my respect... no wonder everyone often talk and make fun of him... since part 1 until now.. tell me how many friends he had made... not even a full fingers on one hand... more enemies then America i would say...

I had enough of this... I can't tolerate his fucking attitude no more... his putting word around that his looking for a fight with me... I'm waiting... and I tell you one thing... after it's done... you'll hate me for the rest of your life...
but guest what bitch...

I DON"T FUCKING CARE!!!!

Its not an excuse... Its the answer why...

to friends that were close to me... I'm sorry for not able to be there for you guys as often as i could like before... it doesn't mean that i forgot about you guys or that i now careless about you guys... its just that I've committed myself to something more meaningful to me... this statement doesn't mean that you guys now are meaning less... you guys still mean something to me... just as important...

I know that you can't reach me 24hours a day anymore since the time I've allocated for you guys are much.. much less now... but I'm still here to help in anyway that i could.. and that fact hasn't change at all...

you see, from all this time helping you guys to pursue your happiness... living a happy ending story... and maintaining that happiness.. is such a joy to me... its never a burden... please don't say that... a friend to me are forever...

Its just that... from my experience... seeing you guys happy with your love ones had manage to break the ice in my heart... and deep inside I'm trying to find the love that I've helped you guys get for yourselves...

and one day.. a glimmer of hope appear... I took that chance in pursue of my own happiness... and i hope that you guys can so much be understanding and wish that i can keep this happiness that I wanted for so long...

I'll be lest fanatic after this if that makes you comfortable...

Like Only a Woman Can

I wasn't perfect...
I done a lot of stupid things...
Still no angel...
I wasn't looking for forgiveness...
was lead up by my pride..
Shock by her intention...

So she show me how to love...
I didn't want it...
But now i can't live without it...

She change my life... She cleans me up...
She found my heart... Like only a woman can...

She pulls me up, when she knows I'm sad..
She knows her man, like only a woman can...

She's kind of perfect..
She's kind of everything I'm not...
Yes, She's an angel...
And its amazing how's she's patient...
Even more at times I'm not...
She's my concision...

And who decided I'll be her's...
I want to hate them..
Cause i can't live without her...

She change my life... She cleans me up...
She found my heart... Like only a woman can...

She pulls me up, when she knows I'm sad..
She knows her man, like only a woman can...



*Dedicated song for Miss Cokelat...

Like Only a Woman Can
Brian McFadden

Your results:
You are Batman

Batman 80% Superman 75% Supergirl 68% Robin 62% Wonder Woman 58% Spider-Man 50% Green Lantern 20% The Flash 15% Hulk 0% Catwoman 0% Iron Man 0%

You are dark, love gadgets and have vowed to help the innocent not suffer the pain you have endured.

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2 Weeks Comfirmed.....

When you're already being hate... nothing that you do is to the liking...

I tell you that I only have you... Your my Girlfriend...

I don't text other girls... I don't call other girls... Just my classmate to ask them about class... and once a year from Intan.... not everyday...

I don't text other girl while messaging you or during calls...

U said that I don't understand...
I can't do shit to prove to you that You're the only one....

You keep accusing me of having an affair... just because your jealous... but i understand tha feeling you had is because you love me...
but when i get jealous of you over some other guys... you get mad at me....

now... everything i do is not perfect...
now what i do is not understanding you...

I guest its true then...
when you're hated... nothing you do could be right... even if you tried the very best...

2 weeks right... that is what u asked from me... then I'll give it...
for you.... since even from the beginning... everything has been for you...
i know people are laughing at me because of all this... but fuck you all... I'll do everything to keep her... If you want her.. come and kill me first....

A peace that I've been serching for...

After so many years after our childhood... I finally made peace with my brother... what great time for it to be... during hari raya... lucky for me... if not.. i wouldn't receive 'duit raya' from him... RM50... thanks bro... its the first time he ever gave me duit raya... maybe that sum of RM50 is a pending amount... or in accounting term.. accruals... for all the years he didn't gave me...

I even took a ride in his car for the first time since he bought it... well there is still some communication errors between us that need to be sort out... He's exactly the opposite of me... He's silent, passive in sports, less aggressive... every that you see in me... my brother is the direct opposite...

we were close to each other growing up... but as we grew... our relationship grew further and further away... and now as we get older.. i hope that bond between us grow stronger and stronger just like when we were kids... or even better...

Selamat Hari Raya Along...
Maaf Zahir & Batin...

A Gift

The last gift that i remembered receiving was a cd player from my mom on my 15th birthday... I still have it.. its just that it hasn't been turn on for quite some time... I don't get much gifts... so i could remember almost everything anyone ever gave me...

Among the items that i ever received in my life are:
Alarm Clock
T-Shirt
Shirt
Tie
risk Watch
Cd player
and the latest one... a pair of converse shoe... I never thought of shoe as a gift.. but its the most special gift i ever had... and you must know why its so special to me...

Its because its a gift from miss cokelat... and its brown in colour ( my favorite colour ) Thanks for it sayang... i'll wear it with pride... because you bought it for me...



ted lives it too...

Someone Just shoot me now...

Things just get worse by the minute... even after some glittering light seems to shine yesterday...

just applying the concept of being at the wrong place at the wrong time... or in my case.. taking my stuff back without checking what's inside n giving it to the person whom i thought was right... but end up being wrong... DAMN YOU PEK JOL...

Then again.. it still is my fault... love is a lesson.. but it is never meant to be understood... but to be felt... you learn lots of stuff about love by feeling it... but not by understanding it...

even if it's so hard sometimes... it's better to spent the rest of my life with the one i love... then spending it with someone i don't...

I'll keep on being patient... keep on doing what ever it takes to hold on to this love.... even if it took my entire life...

because i had never known another love like this...


sorry for not being perfect for you... for having flaws...
sorry for being me... I wish to you could always be happy with me...

Days in counting.....

She said to be another 13 days...
will i survive it???

i hope i will..

I love you so much.. not even i single word exist to express my love for you...

I got lots to say...
buy first I'm sorry for treated you that way...
and made you went astray...
I know it's not yet been a day...
But dear, I want you in my arms right away...

If time is what you demand from me..
Then it's time that I will give...

I want to spent it with you
thinking of you...
being with you...
dreaming of you...

Lots that i want to say..
but i;m afraid that you would grow further away...
so I sat silent for today...
and say what i need to say another day...

1st Day of 2weeks without her

Have you ever woke up one day and felt like your life is empty???
That is what i felt when i woke up today... I can't contact with her for 2 weeks...
it's a game in which the motive isn't very clear to me... it's not even a day yet...but i felt this much misery and suffering... but i respect her decision...

Woke up today and seems like my life is on a pause for two weeks... i kept thinking either what had been agreed last night was a dream or did it really happen...

A long the way to class... i kept thinking of her... more then i did on a regular basis... and even now I'm still wondering..
has she eaten...
did she woke up early to go to class...
did she sleep well last night...
is everything okey with her today...

I know its had just been a few hours since i heard from her last... and its quite pathetic to think of all of those things...

but my heart is missing something...
it's missing it's reason to bit...
wish that i could close my eye's now... and when i open it.. it would already be 2weeks...

my favourite cokelat

My favorite chocolate.. my miss chocolate...
The one that keeps me smiling thru the day.. even sometime just for no reason...
Thinking for you. brings me happiness and lots of joy... each time we meet.. i wish that time would pause or it will never end... and if it ends... I'll wait for another time so i can see u again.. feel you in my arms... and kiss you with lots of love...

I'm sorry for not understanding... I thought that i did.. but u showed me clearly that i don't...

I love you with all my heart...
I'm yours my dear shareena...