I cried and I'm touched...

Tears was shed today... and it belongs to me...
Seriously... the party was unexpected... I'm surprise and touched by all of you... Its been a while since tears came out of my eyes... you guys surely know how to keep things a secret...

I dunno how many times I've said farewell... but this is my first farewell party... and its "beautiful" I'm seriously touched by everyone's support... I just can't say enough Thank You to express my gratitude to all of you... I didn't prepare my speech as I thought my farewell note is enough...

Thank you again... and Thanks for the wonderful present and the card... the wishes in it too... surely I wouldn't forget this day...

I guest you have to say few farewell to achieve something... I guest there is some truth in this quote
"You never achieve greatness untill you sacrifice the things you love the most"...

Hurm...

aku rindukan kau meem.... rindu saat2 bertahun dulu... saat kau dan aku bile kite sahabat.... saat2 bile kau dan aku sering berdebat.... berbual tentang apa je... bercerita masalah.. ketawa... dan bergembira... kenape kau pergi meem? salah aku ke waktu tu... niat aku cuma nak membantu... bukan kau x kenal macammane perangai aku dengan kawan2 aku.... tapi die pulak yang dalam bilik tu.... sumpah aku tak tau...

antara kite berempat... kau yng paling aku hargai.... sebab kau the best of my best friends... sampai sekarang aku rase kehilngan... rase kesedihan... apebila aku hanya mampu melihat kau dari jauh atau berselisih tapi tidak bertegur.... aku cuba meem.. bukn aku x cuba.... if aku benci kau.. xdenya pun aku sibuk tanya pasal kau kat yana ngan nadt.... sebab aku masih kisah... sebab aku x pernah anggap kite musuh.... aku x pernah salahkan kau walau pasal makian kau yg agak mendalam dan mampu menitisan air mata tu... sebab aku kenal kau lebih dari tu.... sebab aku sayangkan ape yang kite berempat ade.... persahabatan....

agak kesian jugak bile yana jadi orang tengah.... aku sentiasa adil dengan korang semua.... xde lebih xde kurang... sbb aku sayang 'kite' .... lebih dari persahabatan yang kite ade... aku cuma nak mcam dulu.... tapi aku tau tu semua seperti sukar untuk berlaku bile dah berpecah kite...
aku cuma nak kau tau.... kau kawan yang aku hargai sebab kau adelah kau....

Hard can be in the middle of life… So hard that some wish for it to end
For I have strived… and I strive… to finally found a true friend.
About this person I would like to share… Hope she knows how much I care…

How could I write?
And how could I recite?
To tell you about ******n
Whose nickname is ****
We met was because of fate
What I felt for the first time was all hate
But she turn’s out to be great
That’s something that I couldn’t dictate
Bit by bit we start to know each other
That’s after I asked for her number
And that is when things started to get better
No longer a stranger to one another
She has this laughter
That would chase your bitter
She listen and critics all at the same time
She’s just being true and surely that’s not a crime
That’s what I like about her
Straight forward without any corner
She has this voice that could calm me down
And brings me up when ever I feel down
That’s a true friend that is hard to find
And yes… she’s one of a kind

The beach is always beautiful....

Its been a while since i've posted anything.... Been busy.... after i finish my final paper on the 18th... I only had 1 day to spent in jb before going back to campus for trainning camp... all together it took about 2 weeks untill i could sattle down and do other stuff that i had been wanting to do...

I've been looking at pictures when i was in Perak... and been wondering which to post first.... so i choose the one that gave me the most happies thought first.... Teluk Batik.... these are picture of the beautiful beach of Teluk Batik.... God its beautiful.... the water was as blue as the sky....

I went there with the whole Johor contingen... back at Sri Iskandar my friends ask if i wanted to take a swim when we reach there... but i said that its been a while since I swin in the ocean... about 3 or 4 years... even that my late grandpa's house is very near to the ocean I didn't even bother.... but when i reach there... I just can't help myself....

Its the first time since 3 or 4 years since I took a swim in the ocean.... and that day... I swim like a free dolphine.... it was so great... the place was so beautiful that i decided to come again the next day and take another dip in the sea....

It's not the end.. it's a start of something new...

few days back... I had dreamed of weird situations... I dreamt about my three best friends... most of it are about recent events that we've been thru together... maybe i kept thinking about all the things we've done together since the beginning of our friendship... a lot had changed this past three years... i even lost one of them... I'm sad that it had to end up this way... and keep thinking where did I go wrong...

maybe its fate... since fate brought us together in the first place... i guest it took us a part too... I'm going to miss you guys... a lot then words could ever been said or written... thanks for every smile, every loughter,every tears, every single thing... that make this three years of us here an unforgatble memory...

from the bottom of my heart... I would like to state my spology for every single thing i did wrong... I love you guys.. you're family to me.. my only hope is that this isn't the end of our friendship... but a start of a newchapter in our lives...

I pray for your success and happiness in life... best of luck in persuing your dreams... and always remember that I'll support you in anything that you do... I'm always here as a friend if you ever need anything...

A Guy, A Girl & A Little Bear (3)

That night was the first night I slept with Ted... both of us fell asleep in each others arms... many would read this and think that its like a romantic night... Ted is just so comfortable to sleep with... I hug him until sunrise... well that is before I discover the true nature of Ted sleeping... but that story is in another episode...

The next day... I woke up and Ted is still sleeping... so i jump off my bed and let him sleep... it was weird that i woke up early on a Sunday morning... so i came down the stairs for breakfast... Mum and Dad was reading the newspaper and was surprise that i woke up early... "You're early today.. going anywhere?". Dad asked me... He always expect me to go somewhere if I woke up early... "Nope. Just woke up for breakfast". I replied. I eat my breakfast and watch television... what else is on that's interesting beside cartoons in the morning???

As I was watching television... my mind was thinking of Ted... at the time Ted hasn't had any name yet... I just called him little bear... so i was thinking of a name to called him... I watch the cartoon characters on television hoping to get some ideas on what to name him... after I had think of some... I went back to my room...

"Hey there little bear, wake up already!!". I went beside ted and try to woke him up... he turn and look at me... "Erm... Hug me please... just a little while before i woke up". Ted requested me to hug him.. He made a cute face... how could i resist... so I lay down beside him and hug him... Ted hug me back and we both fall back asleep until late in the evening...

I was trick by Ted... he asked me to hug him... that's just a trick for him to asked me to come back and sleep with him... I always fall for his trick over and over again... Ted has a deadly cute face and smile that could force anyone to surrender into his every need... So we both woke up late in the evening that day... we both was wide awake... but still in bed... "Hey little bear, do you have a name?" Ted just shake his head and says no. "I've been thinking of names to call you since this morning, but I can't seem to remember any of them after i woke up". Ted looked at me excitedly and said "You've been thinking all morning??? Hurm... hope that you've found a good one".

"I'm blur right now, can't think of a name to name you right now, why don't you think of one and tell me what you want me to call you". Ted sat up straight and start thinking of names he wanted me to call him... we spent that hole evening together thinking of names for him. Ted come up with ridicules names for himself and we lough together at the names we had thought of... and all of a sudden... it came to me... "Teddy bear... yup, that's what i will call you... Teddy bear... Ted for short". Ted smile and said "Ted it is then". He hug me and said thank you for bringing him home... That's how Ted got his name...

To be continue...