I cried and I'm touched...

Tears was shed today... and it belongs to me...
Seriously... the party was unexpected... I'm surprise and touched by all of you... Its been a while since tears came out of my eyes... you guys surely know how to keep things a secret...

I dunno how many times I've said farewell... but this is my first farewell party... and its "beautiful" I'm seriously touched by everyone's support... I just can't say enough Thank You to express my gratitude to all of you... I didn't prepare my speech as I thought my farewell note is enough...

Thank you again... and Thanks for the wonderful present and the card... the wishes in it too... surely I wouldn't forget this day...

I guest you have to say few farewell to achieve something... I guest there is some truth in this quote
"You never achieve greatness untill you sacrifice the things you love the most"...

Perpecahan Kumpulan "Budak Kaca Mata"

Berita terkini...

Ahli-Ahli kumpulan BKM atau "Budak Kaca Mata" dikatakan akan berpecah tidak lama lagi. Sumber dari seseorang yang rapat dengan kumpulan ini menjelaskan bahawa punca perpecahan bukanlah kerana tiada sefahaman sesama ahli tetapi kerana ketidak puasan hati dua orang ahli anggota mereka iaitu Ringgo (Vokalis & Lead Guitar ) dan Farel (Back up singer & Kerincing) terhadap mutu pengurusan syarikat rakaman dimana mereka bernaung. (Corrupted Standard Records). Mereka memilih untuk berpisah dan cuba untuk bergerak secara solo dan membawa haluan masing-masing.



Nizam cuba untuk mengelak dari gambarnya diambil juru gambar kami



Difahamkan bahawa Nizam atau lebih popular dikenali sebagai "Zam Kawa" dikalangan peminat setia kumpulan ini akan terus memperjuangkan Band "Budak Kaca Mata". Walaupun bersedih dengan keputusan dua orang anggota kumpulannya (Ringgo & Farel) untuk meninggalkan kumpulan terbabit, beliau tetap redha.

Nizam yang difahamkan baru sahaja mendapat anak ke 3 baru-baru ini, kelihatan tenang apabila ditemuramah.

Beliau menyatakan bahawa beliau akan tetap terus memperjuangkan Band "BKM" dan dalam usaha untuk mencari bakat-bakat baru bagi menggantikan ahli yang telah pergi. Kumpulan ini juga akan mengadakan konsert terakhir mereka bersama pada Hari Jumaat ini di KTV Jalan Imbi. 

Kumpulan yang popular dengan lagu "3 Abdul ini" akan membuat audition pada hari yang sama. Kepada mereka-mereka yang ingin mencuba nasib, dialu-alukan untuk menghadiri sesi audition ini. 

-TAKBERNAMA- 

Kalau boleh aku nak buat macam nie kat kau........

my last week....

Its Tuesday already... 2 more days to go before Friday comes... and it would be my last day with Payment Centre... I'm not so sure what to feel exactly... at one point... I'm happy... not because of leaving... but to get a better job offer.... but some other part of me feels a bit sad that its over... 

Things seems to be falling apart with all the team... not just that... even my old team dessolving.. everybody is
leaving... to another orginazation or other departments... I made the right choice by leaving as the future here seems to be uncertain... well... I have my option if I stay... just that I'm not willing to wait... 

I would miss the enviroment here... the people here... except for one particular person that I need not to mention... she knows who she is... everybody else is just simply wonderfull... they had welcome me here with this orginazation since my first day here... 

The thing I would miss the most is the company of my old friends... old in terms of age... not period of time known... I like to hangout with people whos older... because they have lots of wisdom to share... and I always gain something from them... well the down sid eof it... I seem to be as old as them when we sit in one table... 

This week has been a leisure week for me.. with nothing much to do since half of my work has already migrated to Chennai... it was funny when people from scope thought that I've migrated to Chennai... I'll miss liaising with them regarding my reports...  there not much to do at work these days that it had made me crazy... just imagine sitting at the office with nothing to do for almost 6 hours of the day... 

I'll miss everything... but.. nothing last for ever... as everything that starts.. must have an ending...   

In her I lay...

In the dark...
I see a little spark...
But is it too little to start a fire???

The way her eyes linger...
how she move her finger...
each time when me touch each other...
had led me to be still and not go any further...

should I stay?
or go away and be astray...
but the heart can't except to betray...
and so beside her I lay...

safe and warm in her care...

it was sweet...

I'm leaving KL in a week's time....

but I'm so glad to leave now after I've got my revenge.... it was so sweet... to capture that look upon the bitch's face when I'm right there in front of her... the thing that was separating us was just the glass door...

That's the last you'll ever see me... and I win... I always win... one way or another.... =)

hurm... I really am the type of person that holds vengeance and grudges towards people... I use to deny that... but it has proven to be true in countless occasions...

well... I just fuck em up like I was fuck... only double the dosage....   

just a thought........

yesterday i saw a man and a woman and they had 5 young kids i wondered very hard, what made people come together what made people love despite of and in spite of.........


how do imperfect people seem so perfect in each other's eyes i want to marry my best friend a woman, whose sees my thoughts as they are, and knows how not to hurt me, how to make me smile....a woman who I am completely unafraid of being myself....... a woman i can fully wholly trust to mother my kids...
a woman whose silence calms me.... a woman whose thoughts are clear to me.... a woman whose eyes find mine... a woman who is my best friend and who i want to be perfect for

love is never wasted,


and we only pity those who don't know how to hold on to it but guard your best heart and save it for the woman who knows how to care for it, who makes me beat harder and faster.........

Monolog in my head...

I got lots to think about... but it seems like I don't have the time to think about it... don't have any real mood to think... seem to have lost my apatite to think really... I felt demotivate to think... just live on everything that happens each day as it goes...

I hate to be this way... this would be the time that I would do lots of stupid things...  and end up saying "what the fuck did it do that for?" or "what just happen... is this me?"

At this time I can't think much and would say just about anything wather it makes sense or not...
let's just do it now...  let it all out.. its better out then in right??...

First- Why is everybody hustling me to go for the Gov job... it's not certain that i could get the job or not... it's easy.. yeah... but fuck... I don't like to work with the Gov.. Been there.. done that.... BORING!!!!~

Second- maybe I should take the Gov post... then I'll be posted anywhere... be further away... someone might just got what they wish for... I'm gone...

Third- KD.. what's wrong with you??? how many time do i need to come and see you regarding my acceptance of resignation letter? let me leave in peace will you... you got your cost saving when I'm gone... and i leave you with a pet (indra)

Fourth- Indra... i think it's a bit to late to be nice to me now... you're actually scaring me... and I know u talk behind my back and tells bad stuff about me... but guest what... people know how i work and what type of quality i bring with it... so fuck yourself on that...

Fifth- cokelat... don't be mad if you're being call a bitch... think back... and reflect on your actions... maybe you are one... if you're wondering why i hate you... it's simple... because you are you... glad you're gone... hope to never see you ever again...

Sixth: ASShira- i prefer to call you by your name... i don't fucking care... just to tell the world you're a fucking whore... don't ever tried to call... hope you've lost my number... remember why you call and cry when that horrible thing happen to you.. you ask me why people do things to you and you don't have any friends??? a damn whore like could never learn why... maybe you'd change one day... but don't came and tell me that... i don't care a fuck... even your name start with an ASS...

Seventh: FUCK!!! FUCK!!! FUCK!!!!

now that surely felt good... letting it out...
feels better already...

Anyone please....

I love when you said that you don't think I belong to your world because you don't think I'm the type of person like you... you think that I wouldn't fit into that community... seriously I love it... That's a challenge to me... It's been awhile since I've been challenge... been look down at... i feel great...

Thanks for putting some excitement in my life... well since I'm with you... everytime is a new excitement... for that seriously I thank you... but I hate ur xperia... you neglected me and everybody around because of it... but it's ok... later on when ur bored with it... you'll be back to normal i hope... 

We have the funniest couple fight ever... seriously... I never had that experiance before... I dunno if you do... but I love it...  coz we end up laughing or hugging in the end... 

I'm a better person because of you... because you never tried to change me... I change willingly... for that I thank you. Anyone.. please kill me if I ever hurt her...  

Harta Pusaka Nenek

Setelah sekian lama di perantauan akhirnya Rahmat pulang ke kampung untuk berjumpa dengan neneknya.

Nenek : "Rahmat, nenek sudah tidak kuat lagi, nenek minta kamu sambung mengusahakan kebun nenek..."

Rahmat : "Jangan cakap macam tu, nek..." (dalam hati, tak sia-sia aku balik kampung... dapat pulak harta pusaka nenek).

Nenek : "Segala isi perkebunan, ternakan, villa, traktor untuk kamu. Tolong jaga baik-baik, jangan lupa disiram tiap hari tanaman nenek."

Rahmat : "Baik nek, nenek jangan bimbang tentang hal itu... Tapi dimana kebun nenek? Rahmat tidak pernah tahu?"

Nenek : "Di Facebook nenek, FARMVILLE, nanti nenek bagi tau passwordnya."

Rahmat : "?????"

Hikayat seorang pria...

Suatu masa dulu... pada waktu itu... pabila siang bagaikan malam... lagu berirama gurindam... mengalir darah luka dimana tidak terlihat oleh mata... hanya pada yang merasa...   mengetahui perit sengsara ditinggalkan cinta... tersembunyi ia didalam dada...


Hanya yang ada... cuma sepi... Sepi sendiri mengenangkan nasib sendiri... menyalahkan takdir, menyekat akal dari berfikir... hikmah itu ada disebalik setiap kejadian... hilang sebentar segala pedoman... yang datang cuma kiasan cebisan kenangan sewaktu bersendirian...


Datang rasa benci sebentar pada berlawanan jantina... setiap dari mereka semuanya salah... disangkal oleh akal berbeza namun tetap berjuang menentang... tidak mahu kalah... kerana hatinya masih lagi berdarah... masih pekat berwarna merah... mana mungkin dia akan menyerah...


Hari beganti minggu... namum masih lagi begitu... masih berpegang pada ideologi yang satu... kesemua mereka adalah jahat-jahat berlaka... mahu sahaja kesemua mereka dihantarnya ke neraka... agar mereka ketahui bagaimana perit dan sengsara yang berkubu didalam hatinya...


Dari minggu kepada bulan hinggakan tahun... kemarahan itu reda setelah hampir 36 purnama... semuanya berubah apabila............  

Tidak kita ketahui
Apa mungkin yang akan terjadi
Apa yang akan ditempuhi
Bagaimana kita akan diuji

Seperti kita yang tidak dirancang
Ia datang tanpa diundang
Diawalnya kita bimbang
Namun bersama, kita tenang...

Kau risau dengan caramu
Risau dirimu membuatkan ku buntu
Sedangkan risau itu tak perlu...
Apa Sahaja Dirimu... itulah aku...

This will expire on the 22nd of April 2011.

If I live up to 100 years...

I would do the same on my 100 birthday =)

HAAIHH!!!

JUST LET ME GO IN PEACE...

APE KE HEH SUSAH SANGAT NAK BIOR DEN BLAH NIE???

I'm not really saying goodbye....

Rumors surely spread like wild fire at the office...
Less then 12 hours many had come and ask if its true... I answered that it was all rumors... and nothing is for sure... that's because the offer letter has not come yet.

Well I've got the confirmation today... and yes... I've tender my resignation last Friday... and My last day with SCB in on the 22nd of April 2011. I'm leaving KL... moving to another Job... just to be clear on the current situation.

Only a few had known of my intention to leave... just that I've taken time to really considering it... with what's going on at work... even that I hate it... I still feel responsible to get things thru... and after confirming that my reports are migrated to Chennai... it's the best time to leave... 
                                                 
I've seen people come and go... all of them were contract staff... when they were here... some do appreciate them... but when their gone... nobody talks about them... as if they never did were apart of  the team. It had made me think that the same thing will happen to me... but when I tender my resignation... people come up to me personally, shoot me an email and even call me... asking if the news are true... and a few said that they'll miss me... that's nice... to know that you'll be miss when you're gone... at least I know there are people that appreciate me for my work and who I am...

I'll be short of one week to call it a year with SCB... by right my last day is on the 30th April... but I took my block leave... and will start with the new company on the 25th... During my time in SCB... I've learn a lot about how the corporate world works... I'm bless to have gain this priceless experiance... and thankful to have work with a bunch of professional individuals.

We've shared a special bonding during our time together and I'll cherish each and every moment of it.
Maybe well work together again in the future... Thank you all for everything...