Bahagi bahasa sama rata...

Masalah... aku mmg masalah... bile kerje dengan foreign company... dah tentu english is the prime method of communication... aku tak kesah... suke sebenarnya... sebab kat sini je aku tak nampak pelik bile cakap english...

Orang yang rapat ngan aku... tahu... bile aku nervous... tak puas hati... aku akan banyak cakap dalam english dengan orang tu... walaupun dalam msg... aku rasa macam lebih senang nak luahkan sesuatu dalam hati ngan fikiran aku... bukan nak belagak 'mat salleh' aku JAWA je wey... cuma dari terbiase dari kecik...

erm... malas aku nak cerita pepanjang... report banyak lagi nak wat nie... reason entry nie sebenarnya nak cerita pasal PA meeting dengan big boss tadi... punya la terang and panjang explanation aku pasal reporting tadi... sekali die cakap melayu ngan aku... memula mix lah melayu ngan english... bile dah fully melayu... aku tergagap lak tadi...

ayat yang betul " Report yang saya buat hari-hari akan ada tanda tangan saya sebelom saya hantar kepada Jesvinder"

ayat aku " Report yang hehari saya... err... yang ade singnature saye... erm... I make sure I've sign each report before passing on to Jes"

gile tak boleh cari ayat... kamus melayu dalam kepala off kejap... huhuhu...

Sepatah dua kata

bila bersama aku seakan lupa...

sepertinya terhenti waktu dan masa

bukan bahagia yang dirasa...

tapi selesa bersama...

tak pernah terwujud

dalam angan

tak pernah terlintas

dalam fikiran

ada dia

yang datang

tanpa tau asal tujuan

mungkin suratan...

mungkin jua telah tertulis dalam perjalanan kehidupan...

tiap satu persoalan pastikan ada jawapan...

cuma kebijaksanaan diri yang mampu menguraikan...

telah sepuas daya

menolak

menafikan

menjauh

tapi tetap

ia masih tetap

mendekat

datang

dan sepertinya

menetap

Bagaimana bisa aku menjauh...

dengan pandangan dan semyuman yang kau berikan..

membuat aku rapuh...

lenyap mentaliti yang sebentar tadi inginkan kau pergi

dengan semua aku menidakkan engkau

kerana apa yang aku kenal

engkau seorang yang sukar

tapi setelah bersama

aku sendiri bingung

apakah perlu aku terus cuba melenyapkan kewujudan engkau

atau perlu aku berterus terang

pada dunia

yang bahawa

engkau terlalu payah untuk di tidakkan

apa yang ku tertarik bukanlah rupa... tidak pula pada kata-kata...

tapi pada sekeping jiwa

jiwa yg punya persamaan...

yang mengerti erti keperitan...

pembelotan... harapan... kepayahan dan kepenatan...

yang lesu dipermainkan kalian...

dan kiri berharapn pada perubahan...

tapi kau juga bingung

kita sendiri

bingung

yang aku harap

pemberi lindung aku itu

bukan engkau

bukan engkau yang aku kenal dari dulu dulu

dan bila keberadaan engkau

disisi

aku hilang dari dunia realiti

Freedom for bloggers....

Blogging is something that is more and more popular these days...

Some treat it as a weapon to spread propaganda… some use it to spread the truth… but… for most of us… we use our blog as a diary to express our feelings… This is actually a gift from Tun Dr Mahathir for Malaysian when he came up with an idea to launch MSC in Cyberjaya on 10th November 1997…
I treat my blog as my personal space to express any of my thoughts and feelings… but what will happen if one day… you can’t write what you want to write… can’t express what you want to express... because what ever you write is actually being monitored by secret eyes… and every wrong word or statement even that it’s the truth... will get you in trouble…
Those secret eyes already exist… weather you are aware of it or not… but no worries… you’re safe if you only talk about people who don’t matter much or at all to others…
There’s no actual freedom in anything actually…
What I hate the most is to be deleting my blog post… note this… for the people that had made me delete my post out of respect… or what ever the reason is… I hate you… just because… no other reason is needed

"THE SIMPLE THING TO FORGET IS TO REALLY LET GO AND MOVE ON.... 


BUT TO REALLY FORGET... YOU MUST FIRST LEARN TO FORGIVE... 


ONLY THEN CAN YOU MOVE ON.... LIFE IS TO SHORT TO KEEP THINGS HOLDING YOU BACK FROM ACHIEVING YOUR FULL POTENTIAL..."


thank you stranger for that advice... I'm a bit pig headed when it comes to hearing advices... but yours are just perfect... 

Dear God...

Please spare my Grandma's life... give her health, provide her safety, and prolong her life...
heal her diesis... get her back to her pink health...

You've taken Grandpa last year... and we miss him so dearly... 

Please God... I haven't done loving her... 

Amin...

just undecided...

Is it possible... to do the unbelievable...

There's always a chance... If you don't look at things in a glance...
Now I wonder... what is it exactly that i'm after... Life, love, career???
for now I don't really have an answer...


You left me... and he was laughing at me... because you're with him...
after all that I'd suffer... what's left is only grim....
on my face.. in my heart... the pain of being apart...

Then after 4 months... you said you never went away...
it's me who was far... are you seriously sain?
your tears... they're only lies...


I have choices in my life now... not that I don't when I was with you...


it's simply because... I've decided... and I turn off those options I have...

Now... its a new book... I'm off the hook... feeling fresh and revive...
after you put me thru hell... I manage to survive...

I except the pain with you as my karma...
for what I've done in the past to others...

but possimpabble is nothing and everything...


just undecided...

It's not the same...
Not like the first time you came..
Have you no shame?
After what you've said and what you've claim?

You may cry...
But I know that it's a lie...

Looking back...
Would only get me of track...
You have been sack...
Accept that as a fact...

You fail to appreciate...
You've build up hate...
When you fail to dictate...
You start to hesitate...

You will always be you...
Someone who always gets screw...
Because you don't know how to be true...
I'm sorry... but I can't no longer help you...

Gosh… everybody is on my case now it seems…

I seriously wonder… please… tell me… what is so interesting about me that you can’t seem to stop talking about or notice? It puzzled me…

I came to work today… with a different style of hair then I usually do… well the reason is actually I can’t find my Getsby Wax… I knew someone took it… well that’s a different story…

When I arrive at the office… the first person to say something about my hair was surprisingly the guard… that’s the thing… I knew the guard… he’s a foreigner… I never talk to him… just the wave of the hand every morning… or nudge of the head… that’s all… but today… he said “change hair ?”.. His English is not that good for a conversation… I just smile… and walk off… it doesn’t end there… Mael was infront of the lif… he looks at me and said… “Apesal rambut kau bro?” and I was like… what??? I change the conversation topic right away.


As I reach the office… and walk to my desk… it gets better… everyone who look at me said “Hey you look different”… “You look like a good boy… owh.. It’s the hair”… damn it… it’s not like I went bold or anything… just that I use a different type of gel then the one that I usually used… what to to… my Getsby wax is stolen…

I’m considering of living in a cave now… maybe that is discreet enough of a place to be in…

Benefits of Lemon Water for Health

> 1 — Good for stomach 
> Lemon can help relieve many digestion problems when mixed with hot water. 
> These include nausea, heartburn and parasites. Due to the digestive 
> qualities of lemon juice, symptoms of indigestion such as heartburn, 
> bloating and belching are rel ieved. By drinking lemon juice regularly, 
> the bowels are aided in eliminating waste more efficiently. Lemon acts as 
> a blood purifier and as a cleansing agent. The intake of lemon juice can 
> cure constipation. It is even known to help relieve hiccups when consumed 
> as a juice. Lemon juice acts as a liver tonic and helps you digest your 
> food by helping your liver produce more bile. It decreases the amount of 
> phlegm produced by your body. It is also thought to help dissolve 
> gallstones. 
> 
> 2 — Excellent for Skin Care 
> Lemon, being a natural antiseptic medicine, can participate to cure 
> problems related to skin. Lemon is a vitamin C rich citrus fruit that 
> enhances your beauty, by rejuvenating skin from within and thus bringing a 
> glow on your face. Daily consumption of lemon water can make a huge 
> difference in the appearance of your skin. It acts as an anti-aging remedy 
> and can remove wrinkles and blackheads. Lemon water if applied on the 
> areas of burns can fade the scars. As lemon is a cooling agent, it reduces 
> the burning sensation on the skin. 
> 
> 3 — Aids in Dental Care 
> Lemon water is used in dental care also. If fresh lemon juice is applied 
> on the areas of toothache, it can assist in getting rid of the pain. The 
> massages of lemon juice on gums can stop gum bleeding. It gives relief 
> from bad smell and other problems related to gums. 
> 
> 4 — Cures Throat Infections 
> Lemon is an excellent fruit that aids in fighting problems related to 
> throat infections, sore throat and tonsillitis as it has an antibacterial 
> property. For sore throat, dilute one-half lemon juice with one-half water 
> and gargle frequently. 
> 
> 5 — Good for Weight Loss 
> One of the major health benefits of drinking lemon water is that it paves 
> way for losing weight faster, thus acting as a great weight loss remedy. 
> If a person takes lemon juice mixed with lukewarm water and honey, it can 
> reduce the body weight as well. 
> 
> 6 — Controls High Blood Pressure 
> Lemon water works wonders for people having heart problem, owing to its 
> high potassium content. It controls high blood pressure, dizziness, nausea 
> as well as provides relaxation to mind and body. It also reduces mental 
> stress and depression. 
> 
> 7 — Assist in curing Respiratory Disorders 
> Lemon water assists in curing respiratory problems, along with breathing 
> problems and revives a person suffering from asthma. 
> 
> 8 — Good for treating Rheumatism 
> Lemon is also a diuretic and hence lemon water can treat rheumatism and 
> arthritis. It helps to flush out bacteria and toxins out of the body. 
> 
> 9 — Reduces Fever 
> Lemon water can treat a person who is suffering from cold, flu or fever. 
> It helps to break fever by increasing perspiration. 
> 
> 10 — Acts as a blood purifier 
> 
> The diseases like cholera or malaria can be treated with lemon water as it 
> can act as a blood purifier. 

33 trapped Chilean Miners

Nowadays I rarely catch up with local news since all I watch is CNN at the office... well CNN does capture all the news all over the world... and recently... the news of the 33 trapped Chilean miners in Chile... 

The Canonicals of  the tragedy that leads to making history.

 Over two months ago, on August 5, 2010, the roof of the San Jose copper and gold mine collapsed, trapping 33 miners inside, 700 meters (2,300 ft) below ground near Copiapo, Chile. The fate of the miners was not immediately known - it took 17 days before a drill reached their refuge, discovering them alive and well. Rescue work began immediately, but even with several concurrent plans underway, the quickest likely rescue will still take two to three months. Until then, the 33 men will have to endure high temperatures and humidity in isolated conditions. A video link has been established, many relatives have set up camp nearby, and food, air, messages and supplies are delivered by several narrow boreholes. Fluorescent lights with timers are to be sent down to attempt to keep the men on a normal schedule by imitating day and night as they care for each other and assist in their own rescue. Once it reaches them, the diameter of the rescue borehole will be very narrow. so each miner will have to ensure they have a waistline of no more than 90 cm (35 in) to escape. 

Faces of the trapped miners

all 33 miners after the rescue

The capsule that is being use for the rescue mission

The First Miner to be rescued

Florencio Avalos

Serious.. telefon conversation paling bangang aku pernah bace.. hahahaha

Telefon pertama



Penelefon (X) : Helloooo…. Apakah ini kediaman En Harun Salim Bachik..??
Bibik (Y) : Maaf Salah nombor..ini kediaman keluarga Tuan Syed Mahmud…

Telefon ke -2


Penelefon (X) : Helloooo……Apakah ini kediaman En Harun Salim Bachik..??
Bibik (Y) : Maaf, salah dail ni, encik..!! ini kediaman keluarga Tuan Syed Mahmud. (jawabnya kesal)

Telefon ke -3


Penelefon (X) : Helloooo….
Bibik (Y) : Eeeh..Lagi2 kamu!!.. Awas ya!! Walau saya cuma pembantu, tapi saya bisa laporin kamu ke polisi..!! (marah sangat dah ni!)
Penelefon (X) : Apakah ini kediaman keluarga Tuan Syed Mahmud..??
Bibik (Y) : Aduuuh.. maaf2 yaaa…, tadi soalnya ada beberapa kali salah sambung. Mau cari siapa tuan.??
Penelefon (X) : Harun Salim Bachik….
Bibik (Y) : ??!!@#@$!! (sambil usap2 dada)

Telefon ke -4


Penelefon (X) : Helloooo…..
Bibik (Y) : Kurang ajaaar..!!! Kamu punya nyawanya berapa hah!!!
Penelefon (X) : Saya Syed Mahmud…..
Bibik (Y) : Aduh..!!! Maaf tuan! sorry sekali, tadi ada orang gila telpon! ada perintah apa tuan.??
Penelefon (X) : Segera panggil En Harun Salim Bachik..!!
Bibik (Y) : Hah..!…. (pengsan)


Selepas 10 minit kemudian setelah tersedar dari pengsan,


Telefon ke -5


Penelefon (Z) : Hallooooo….. (suara berbeza berbanding panggilan2 terdahulu)
Bibik (Y) : (Oh ini suaranya lain…). Mau cari siapa tuan..??
Penelefon (Z) : Ini kediaman keluarga Tuan Syed Mahmud??
Bibik (Y) : Iya betul….
Penelefon (Z) : Saya Harun Salim Bachik… , tadi ada orang cari saya???
Bibik (Y) : ??@#$%^??… (terkejang!)

Dah potong janggut...

Cukur misai...

But still... belom cukup nak kelihatan muda... 

takkan nak warnakan rambut kowt???

I'm me.. The one nad only

Hate to be… but I gotta’ be…

To be me is not as easy…
But there is always somebody…
Whose life if far worst then me…

To be silent is one of my options…
But silent is not always golden…
Silent means… there’s something hidden…
Something that can’t be spoken…

Just let me be…
Who I wanna be…
Because in the end…
I am still me…

The one and only….

Another confession...

To tell this out loud... is actually bringing my own down fall... 


but I prefer the truth... 


I chose to be alone for now... it's not like i don't have someone... it's just that... I don't want to right now... I was fucked up pretty bad the last time... 


I'm being hypocrite when I receive sympathy from people... I'm alone because I choose to... seriously... If I wanted a company... all I have to do is just take a look at my phone book and start calling... just like that I'll be accompanied... 


When you mix around as much... you pick up a few things that help you in life... to learn and tackle things... seeing each and every light at the end of the tunnel... to always look at the bright site of a bad situation... 


I chose who I pick to be around me... because for me... who ever you chose to be around you... defines the type of person you are... 


Just that lately... I put down my wall... let my guard down... and become so stupid after... believe me... that ain't happening again... 


Judge me what ever you like... because for now... I'm ready to hurt then be hurt... 

Movie editing…

I received a phone call from a friend that I’ve known for 2 ½ years… and we meet for the first time on Sunday… 10/10/10… who would of guest… she called me for a favor… she asked me if I could edit and combine her Arab Project video for her using movie maker…


Movie maker? For real? That’s the easiest software to use… that was what I thought… So I take up the offer… she said that she was willing to pay… “Girl, I can’t take your money…” I took the assignment because I thought it would be fun to use movie maker again…


But Oh God…


You can’t just use movie maker to finish your project darl… you need more then that…


The video format is not compatible with movie maker which uses .wmv format… I have to convert all 38 clips to the proper format and edit each and every clip so that it would go perfectly together…


Frankly speaking, when I first saw the clips… I wanted to reject the offer straight away… but you were depending on me… that’s the problem… I can’t let anyone down… so I take it as a challenge…


It was not easy… I got a bit frustrated at first… because its been a while since I left the “GEEK” world… I have to remember everything… all the tricks… the short cuts… even that I don’t have all my tools… I manage to do it… When the first scene was completed… I lay back and smile… I still got the touch… just need to polish it more and more… I manage to finish the 1st scene and converted and edit the clips for scene 2 and 3… so tonight… I finish up the last scene… and hopefully… by tonight.. I finish up the whole movie…


I’ll be sure to post it on my blog…

all my relationship has an expiration date...

There was a time... I was someone that made other people happy... I was always like that... it's in my nature... I still am... was born that way I guest... but not... I've set myself to a limit... 


My childhood was a bit rough... no matter how good was my achievement... I'm always second to my brother... so I learn to live life my way... and get things done myself... so making people smile... is actually getting people's attention... the kind that I seek but don't get from people that I wanted to... The one that matters... 


Somehow.... making people smile and try to solve other people's problem is actually helping myself... it helps to cure the pain that I feel inside... 


Things change when I manage to further my studies... I got lots off attention from everyone that matters to me... my family... at first it was weired... it was like moving to another family... but later... I got use to it... but it took me a while... I'm use to get things on my own.. then suddenly out of the blue... things are provided... just like that... 


as things change.. I change... instead of making people happy... I chose to make myself happy... and I broke someone's heart in the process... well it seems that she has recover now... and we're still friends... but I didn't regret that decision... I did it because I've found love... the feeling that I thought was lost... even though that it lasted less then a year... it was worth it... 


so now both of them are happy with someone else... and I'm just a fade memory in their life... 
at least that I know that they now are happy... that's good enough for me... so now I suffer the consequences... I'm miserably alone... 

That's ok I guest... it's karma... so I accept my fate... 




I'm just a rebound guy that makes u happy when you have problems with your para more... and when you're done with me and things are ok between you and your  lover.... I'm as good as trash... 

Why Boys Need Their Parents....