I've found what I'm looking for and I'm Happy.......

2010 is going to end soon… and it’s going to mark another chapter in my life… A year in KL… what a year it has been…

It started out slow… very slow… I had to accouter various hardships to get where I am now… well no successful yet… but stable… and Alhamdulillah it’s faster then I anticipated…

I’ve change to a better house… better housemates… better environment… and most of all… I can cook there… I spent my time reading books and learning to play the Guitar…

As of now… no one knows where I live… and that’s fine by me…

I’m not as lonely and bored as I was before… I got Ted… and friends to hangout on the weekends and weekdays… not that I don’t have them before… but it’s complicated enough to explain… just let it be…

Hurm… what I’ve discover lot’s of time this year… is that people can still find me via my phone number… well… I’ve been using the number for 8 years now… and from time to time… I still got calls from old friends… the good… and even the bad…

But soon… I’ll disappear… after one last thing that I have to do…

This is probably my last entry that most of you could read for this blog… soon after… maybe I change it… or even delete it… Thanks for those who had read all the crap that I’ve post…

Karangan Terbaik UPSR 2007

Karangan budak darjah 4







Pagi itu pagi minggu. Cuaca cukup sejuk sehingga mencapai takat suhu
beku. Sebab itu saya tidak mandi pagi sebab air kolah jadi air batu dan air
paip tidak mahu keluar sebab beku di dalam batang paip. Pagi itu saya
bersarapan dengan keluarga di dalam unggun api kerana tidak tahan sejuk.
Selepas itu emak saya mengajak saya menemaninya ke pasar. Tetapi saya tidak
mahu.

Selepas emak menikam perut saya berkali-kali dengan garfu barulah saya
bersetuju untuk mengikutnya. Kami berjalan sejauh 120 kilometer kerana
pasar itu letaknya 128 kilometer dari rumah. Lagi 8 kilometer nak sampai
pasar saya ternampak sebuah lori kontena meluru dengan laju dari arah
belakang.

Dia melanggar emak saya. Emak saya tercampak ke dalam gaung. Dia
menjerit “Adoi!”. Lepas itu emak saya naik semula dan mengejar lori
tersebut. Saya pun turut berlari di belakang emak saya kerana takut emak
saya melanggar lori itu pula. Pemandu lori itu nampak kami mengejarnya. Dia
pun memecut lebih laju iaitu sama dengan kelajuan cahaya. Kami pula
terpaksa mengejar dengan lebih laju iaitu sama dengan dua kali ganda
kelajuan cahaya. Emak saya dapat menerajang tayar depan lori itu. Lori itu
terbabas dan melanggar pembahagi jalan lalu bertembung dengan sebuah feri.
Feri itu terbelah dua.

Penumpang feri itu yang seramai 100 orang semuanya mati. Pemandu feri
itu sangat marah. Dia pun bertukar menjadi Ultraman dan memfire pemandu
lori. Pemandu lori menekan butang khas di dalam lori dia..lori itu bertukar
menjadi robot Transformer. Mereka bergaduh di udara. Emak saya tidak puas
hati. Dia pun terus menyewa sebuah helikopter di Genting Highlands dan terus ke
tempat kemalangan. Dia melanggar pemandu feri yang telah bertukar menjadi Ultraman itu.

Pemandu feri itu terkejut dan terus bertukar menjadi pemandu feri
semula lalu terhempas ke jalanraya. Pemandu feri itu pecah. Pemandu lori
sangat takut melihat kejadian itu. Dia meminta maaf dari emak saya. Dia
menghulurkan tangan ingin bersalam. Tetapi emak saya masih marah. Dia
menyendengkan helikopternya dan mengerat tangan pemandu lori itu dengan
kipas helikopter. Pemandu lori itu menjerit “Adoi..!” dan jatuh ke bumi.
Emak say menghantar helikopter itu ke Genting Highlands. Bila dia balik ke
tempat kejadian, dia terus memukul pemandu lori itu dengan beg tangannya
Sambil memarahi pemandu lori itu di dalam bahasa Inggeris.

Pemandu lori itu tidak dapat menjawab sebab emak saya cakap orang
putih. Lalu pemandu lori itu mati. Tidak lama kemudian kereta polis pun
sampai. Dia membuat lapuran ke ibu pejabatnya tentang kemalangan ngeri itu.
Semua anggota polis di pejabat polis itu terperanjat lalu mati. Orang ramai
mengerumuni tempat kejadian kerana ingin mengetahui apa yang telah terjadi.
Polis yang bertugas cuba menyuraikan orang ramai lalu dia menjerit
menggunakan pembesar suara. Orang ramai terperanjat dan semuanya mati.

Selepas itu emak saya mengajak saya ke pasar untuk mengelak lebih ramai
lagi yang akan mati. Di pasar, emak saya menceritakan kejadian itu kepada
penjual daging. Penjual daging dan peniaga-peniaga berhampiran yang
mendengar cerita itu semuanya terkejut dan mati. Saya dan emak saya terus
berlari balik ke rumah. Kerana terlalu penat sebaik saja sampai di rumah
kami pun mati. Itulah kemalangan yang paling ngeri yang pernah saya lihat
sebelum saya mati.

Few days left...

"Dont ask about my past... if you ever want to be in my future

Back then I was an outcast... I don't even know what I'm after..." CHZ...

I don't like discussing abount my past... I know what was there... what had happen along the way... I know it very well... no need to be reminded because I'm leaving each day in the shadow of my past... I'm a Cancer... we Cancerians have a melancholic emotions which fluctuate according to the positions of the stars... that's what makes us unpredictable...

Just after this year... I'll be reborn again... this time... it's not going to be like usual... I'm taking different and drastic approach to completely escape the dark shadow that keeps on following me each day...

You got Mail!!!

HI SHAHRILNIZAM


STILL WAITING FOR SCB LONDON AND
SCB HK TO STOP PAYMENTS.


Swarnalatha Kalathurai
Cash Management Services
Wholesale Bank Operations

Standard Chartered Bank Malaysia Berhad
Tel:
Fonenet
+(603) 2781 7077
+ 6001 7077
Email:
Swarnalatha.Kalathurai@sc.com
Address:
Level 13A, Menara Standard Chartered, 30 Jalan Sultan Ismail, 50250 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
Website:http://www.standardchartered.com.my



I like this email that I receive while doing my CAB for Bank Negara Reporting...
She use my real name... =)

Mencari Kesempurnaan Hidup

Kadang2 diri terlalu inginkan perubahan

lalu sentimen "mencari kebenaran dilaungkan"..

setelah puas segala kejahatan yang dilakukan...

Namun tak fahami apa sebenarnya yang diertikan kebenaran...

yang nyata didepan mata

tak selalunya boleh dipercaya...

ada saja isi tersirat disebaliknya...

sedarkan diri...

kita semua milik Ilahi...

dengan kuasaNya kita berada dibumi...

Dengan kehendakNya kita kembali...

tiada apa didunia yang benar2 pasti...

cuma yang kita ketahui...

yang pasti itu mati...

maka persiapkanlah diri...

sebelum waktu itu menghampiri...

mane tahu.. mungkin sekejap lagi...

My crap of the day...

I really need to filter my reading material these days...
Since my mind nowadays ealisy wonder... I always mix up saying something that's out of topic...
Here's what happen today...


I arrived at the office around 8.55 am... early then expacted... then Malar (my assistance manager) inform me that we're going to have a lunch meeting at 12pm with one of the team manager... and the vanue was in TGI Friday's... I hate going to these type of restaurant because the food there is hard to pronounce...


We went there a bit late around 12.45pm... and then we all start ordering... everyone's was ordering stake and stuff... I was looking for lasagna... but they don't serve that there... so I was thinking of taking pasta...
There's this one malay waitress that keep on looking since we all arrive... she was the one that serve us... and so.. while everyone was ordering.. I ordered my lunch:

Lady: "What do you wish to order sir ? "

Me: "I would like to order pasta"

Lady: "Which pasta sir?"

Me: (with a confident voice i said) " Shirmps and Dildo!" 

then I was like (what the F did I just said???) 

Me: "Err...er... "

Lady: (with a smile she corrected me) "Shrimp and diablo rite?" 

I just node my head and look away... luckly no one at the table listens  what i've said... it's between me and her... she left the table and I was relief...

When mu order arrive... she bring it to me and said "Here's your shrip and diablo pasta" with a naughty smile at me... I just smile back and let her be...

Note to self : Never again will I step my foot in Pavillion's TGI Fridays.....

Rahsia hati yang pasrah

 

Sukar terasa apabila…

Mulut dikunci dari berbicara…

Sedangkan hati penuh dengan cerita…
Ingin sekali meluahkannya…

Namun pasrah…

Masa silam…
Buat aku terdiam…
Tak mampu berkokok seperti ayam…
Lalu aku simpan dalam-dalam…

Hampir ku kecundang…

Mereka tak mungkin mengerti…
Walau diterangkan berkali-kali…
Tak mampu mengawal emosi…
Jika diketahui… perang pasti terjadi…

Biarkan semuanya…
Biarkan terpendam…
Biar sangsi walau nahtujahnya mati…

Let it be...

Malam tiba…

Mencari rasa yang sepatutnya aku rasa…

Tapi tiada…

Hilang… lenyap kesemuanya…

Cuba aku terkenang…

Cuba untuk aku bayang…

Menyeru rasa itu datang…

Namun kecundang…

Kesimpulan kepada semua erti…

Kau pergi…

Kau telah mati…

Tapi aku??? Releks & steady…

Cuba memberontak…

Tetapi Kecelaruan emosi…

Cuba buat-buat pekak…

Tetapi suara-suara sumbang didengari…

Hanya berharap pada waktu….

Bukan pada sesuatu yang bakal berlaku…

Tak mungkin lagi kau ku seru…

Kau sesuatu yang aku tak perlu…



Cartoons for you =)




(Untuk seseorang itu =p )



My December

Hurm... Last night I dream that i jump off a really high cliff with a parachute... can I cross No. 1 on my list?
does it count?

Wow... this year's December is the best December I had in years... the last I could remember... I had this kind of feeling in me is when i was just a little boy... (please anyone.. dont fuck up my December)

I was thinking about my future... wather to stay or to go... but God showed me to stay... and there's a really good reason for it...

I went to watch Malaysia beat Vietnam in the AFC Suzuki Cup formally known as Tiger Cup by 2 - 0... it was the best feeling to hang out with them... there's lots of activities to join... Paintball, snoker, dart, bowling... they got everything.. and my passion... hockey... I'm trying to get in the team now... hope by next year I could get in the field again... owh how I miss the Game...

I got my target set for next year.. but before that.. I want to accomplish as much as I can for this year...
may God Bless us all... amin...

The before 30's list

Lets reflect back on the list of things that I want to do before I'm 30...
I give myself  7 years to complete the below list... but I think I can accomplish half of the list by next year...
maybe you guys have a suggestion on what could I do... But, I'm adding another one on my list...

Status so far:
1. Sky Diving  (unknown)


2. Travel to a foreign country (next year to Brunei)

3. Bungee jumping ( later this month in Sunway )

4. Mountain climbing ( Unknown )

5. Fly a plane (Unknown... maybe never???  )

6. Learn to play the guitar ( in progress )

7. Scuba Diving (March or April next year maybe... looking for a good spot to dive)

I got one addition to do so far...
and no 8 is...

               

Owning this new CBR 250RR....

6 sen pun boleh gaduh...

Bile bercerita kat orang... memang kelakar la bunyi... tapi hakikatnya.. memang macam tu pun hari-hari yang aku lalui kat office nie... (6sen tu kire banyak tau.. yang gaduh pasal 1sen aku xcerita lagi...)

Hurm… Kesian si Kumar…. Bukan niat pun nak susahkan die… tapi dah tugas aku detect strange figure ngan outstanding figure dalam aku punya General Ledger… terpakse la plak… so berjawab lah ko ngan Encik Syed… tapi die ok what… xde pun pernah marah aku tgk…

Department aku nie Payment Centre… ade plak 6 team dalam department nie… Posting, CMS, ICP, STS, RETAS & Payments… masalah diorang nie… kalau ade hal kecik.. start la nak blame each other… bile dah jumpe root cause die… (siape punya masalah tu) haaa… mulelah nak email semua orang… xperlu kowt… tapi x semua yang macam tu… ade sorang je AO yg macam tu… tu pun satu kaler ngan kumar… what to do…

Aku kekadang rase bersalah ngan semua orang… sebab semua benda yg detectnya aku… dah aku Pegang GL hari2… tau lah semua benda yg orang wat… erm… Aku cepat belajar semua kerje… aku pun dah boleh cover 3 team… tapi aku rase nak chow dah dari sini… mgkn transfer tempat laen…

Sebab aku hilang semangat dah… semua sebab makhluk tu… if xde die… by now… 6 team dalam payment aku dah boleh cover… sebabkan aku lemau je nak g kerje or stay utk belajar aku Cuma dapat cover 3…

Tengok lah nanti rezeki macamane…

ONCE IN A WHILE... I DO NEED A TIME OFF FROM THE WORLD...

JUST TO SIT AT ONE CORNER... AND READ OR REMINSICE ON PAST AND CURRENT EVENT THAT HAD HAPPEN... 

IT'S MY WAY TO REDEEM MYSELF.... (WHAT'S LEFT OF MY SOUL AT LEAST) 

JUST SIMPLY BECAUSE I DESERVE IT... AFTER ALL THIS WHILE I DEDICATED MYSELF TO OTHERS...  

Morrison White Acoustic Guitar

Cooler Rite??

only got the chance to play with it for a limited time only... 

Ingat xkene tagg.. kene jugak - Happy ~ =)

Tengah sibuk stalk blog mereka2 nie.. tetibe jerk dapat tagg... yeay... thanks for tagging me...

THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
Friends kan bukan family... fuh~ selamat...
erm... lebih.. sangat lebih dari 3... pilih yg terbaik je la ye..

1.Aril ( homes and Friends in Uitm)
2.Farel ( needed a new charecter.. started from my final year in University)
3.Shahril ( Common name I was known back then in JB )



THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:

As if now... dateline for my work... each day... but hey isn't that timeline? (does it count???)
Mom & Dad's birthday
23/08/2008


THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:

Hangin out with ted
Learning to play the guitar
Able to sleep without and interfearance


THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS AS FOR NOW:

Just the Way you are - Bruno Mars
Pheonix - Fynn Jamal (introduced by a friend of mine... love the lyrics)
Better Man - Robbie Williams

THREE PERSONS (group) YOU MISS FROM THE PAST:

Arwah Nazril
Arwah Nana
Arwah Atuk & Nyayi

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE

Never really got any give that I could remember...
A gift from the heart will surpass any gifts...
A brand New shoe =)


THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:

Reading
Facebook-ing
Blogging

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATIONS:

Europe - want to imitate the film Euro trip =)
Beirut - The Girls there are hot
Dubai - To see the tallest building in the world

THREE MALLS YOU USUALLY GO TO:

Sungai Wang Plaza
Pavillion
The Curve


THREE FAVORITE DRINKS:

Air Suam
Teh O panas/Suam/ais
Apple / Manggo


THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:

good luck in knowing... I haven't bought a beg yet...

THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

Hot Pink
Brown
baby blue


THREE HANGOUTS:

Room
By the lake
anywhere with my buddies


TOP THREE FOODS YOU LOVE SO MUCH:

Lasagna
Double Special Chicken Burger with Cheese
My Mom and Grandma's cooking and my Dad's asam pedas... hurm.... hungry oledy...



TOP THREE FACES YOU LIKE:

Marion Caunter - She's the face i can't stop staring at...
Tedious Bear - you guys know who he is right...




THREE THINGS YOU'LL BE DOING TOMORROW:

Eh??? esk cuti lah.. awal muharam...
no 3 things... just 1... hurm... take that back... only 2...

1.hug ted
2.sleep ZzzZZZzzzZZZZ...



TOP THREE WHY YOU ARE BUSY AT THIS TIME

Doing this Tag
Replying quiry email from annoying chennai people
to many internal calls...

No 6 on the list is in progress...

After looking at the list… I was thinking of what that I could accomplish in the near future… I got 7 years to complete everything on the list before I’m 30… so I chose to learn and play the guitar since I got time to do that…

I was thinking of entering a class on the weekends… but after some advice from some friends… I change my mind… I could learn basic codes from the internet… but to be good I need a ‘sifu’…

I’ll get one next year after I move to my new house… just 1 month left… so why waste money on classes where I could get it for free…

Hope that by next year… I could join the boys for a ‘jamming session’……

What mumu would have said...

Mumu, I'm sorry about your friend. Hope you be strong and stop being gay...
please sctrach sherna when ever you can... thank you.

My Job and me...

In my line of work… I have to lease with people all over the region… most are from Chennai India, some from Hong Kong, some from Singapore… just few cases where I have to get in contact with people in the US and UK…


The methods of communication would be via mail or telephone…

Before this I only listen to Indra’s conversation… but nowadays since everything had been outsourced to me… I’m taking over 2/3 of the daily work… Even that I’m new here… I always manage to get things resolve quickly… or faster then she ever did…

At first I thought that it’s because I have good communication skills… don’t get me wrong… I got excellent communication skills…

The main reason is because the people I interact with are women… I got to flirt to get my job done… nice right… =)

Acoustic Pink Guitar =)

Cool rite?

This is not my wish list... it's a To Do list....

1. Sky Diving
2. Travel to a foreign country
3. Bungee jumping
4. Mountain climbing
5. Fly a plane
6. Learn to play the guitar
7. Scuba Diving

7 things I know I can achieve... and I want to achieve before I leave this world... although that no. 5 is a bit tricky with my eyes and all... but hey... 'Adi Desler' said... imposable is nothing...  I bet i can do all that before I'm 30....

Friends.......They love you,

But they're not your lover

They care for you,

But they're not from your family

They're ready to share your pain,

But they're not your blood relation.

They are........FRIENDS! !!!!

A True friend...... .

Scolds like a DAD..

Cares like a MOM..

Teases like a SISTER..

Irritates like a BROTHER..

And finally loves you more than a LOVER.

introduce me to tumbler...

Colorfull words

I’m thankful to be cherish
Without it I would surely perish
All the fire that spark my anguish
Seems to be fully extinguish

Owh how I wish this will last
Hopping time doesn’t move so fast
Praying things don’t turnout like the past
Don’t let me be an outcast

Whatever start would surely end
But the end is far and it depends
How we coupe with every lose ends
For now… lets focus on the time spent.

Quote to be shared

Jika kamu memancing ikan...

Setelah ikan itu terlekat di Mata kail,

Hendaklah kamu mengambil ikan itu...

Janganlah sesekali kamu LEPASKAN IA

Semula ke dalam air begitu saja...

Karena IA akan SAKIT oleh kerana bisanya,

Ketajaman Mata kailmu Dan mungkin IA akan MENDERITA selagi IA masih hidup.

Begitulah juga...

Setelah kamu memberi banyak PENGHARAPAN kepada seseorang...

Setelah IA mulai MENYAYANGIMU,

Hendaklah kamu MENJAGA hatinya...

Janganlah sesekali kamu meninggalkannya begitu saja...

Kerana dia akan TERLUKA oleh kenangan bersamamu,

Dan mungkin TIDAK dapat MELUPAKAN segalanya selagi dia mengingatmu...

Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada,

Jangan terlalu mengharap pada takungannya Dan janganlah menganggap IA

Begitu teguh... Cukuplah sekadar keperluanmu...

Apabila sekali IA retak... Tentu sukar untuk kamu menambalnya semula...

Akhirnya IA dibuang...

Sedangkan jika kamu Cuba memperbaikinya mungkin IA masih dapat dipergunakan

Lagi...

Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang, TERIMALAH seadanya...

Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya Dan janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu

Istimewa...

Anggaplah dia manusia biasa. Apabila sekali dia melakukan KESILAPAN bukan

Mudah bagi kamu untuk menerimanya...

Akhirnya kamu KECEWA Dan meninggalkannya.

Sedangkan jika kamu MEMAAFKANNYA boleh jadi hubungan kamu akan TERUS hingga

Ke akhirnya....

Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan nasi,

Yang kamu pasti baik untuk dirimu...

Mengenyangkan. Berkhasiat.

Mengapa kamu berlengah, Cuba mencari makanan yang lain...

Terlalu ingin mengejar kelazatan...

Kelak, nasi itu akan basi Dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya...

Kamu akan menyesal.

Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insan,

Yang pasti membawa KEBAIKAN kepada dirimu.

MENYAYANGIMU... MENGASIHIMU...

Mengapa kamu berlengah,

Cuba MEMBANDINGKANNYA dengan yang lain.

Terlalu mengejar kesempurnaan.

Kelak, kamu akan KEHILANGANNYA apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain

Kamu juga yang akan MENYESAL...



Kisah CInta Biasa

Di sebuah negara yang jauh dari pandangan mata... terdengar ditelinga akan khabar berita si gadis yang hatinya luka... remuk bagai balak menghempap kereta... begitu sadis empunya cerita... jika ditanya... hanya tangis yang dapat didengar darinya... 

duka nestapanya tercipta kerna cinta... 

cerita biasa yang sering singgah ditelinga tatkala kabar berita tersebar tentang seorang gadis berduka dimana  lukanya tak mampu dilihat dengan zahir mata... hanya hatinya yang merasa... 

tapi kisah ini berlainan dari kisah biasa... kisah ini wajib diambil iktibar darinya... lalu bermulalah cerita bagaimana malang menimpa yang mengundang duka nestapa.... 

bersambung....

Found the gretest song for you...

Tidak mungkin kuberpaling lagi
Salah sangka yang direncanakan
Gelora melanda
Adalah dendammu
Setelah diriku
Tak mampu menjadi milikmu

Cukup sudah hati berdarah
Usah ditambah cerita yang sudah
Di mana kekasihmu
Yang pernah kau sanjungi
Mengapa pula padaku
Menjadi pelepas ceritamu
Dan jua sepimu

Usah menabur budi
Mengharapkan simpati
Sedangkan kau menitip
Cemburu iri hati

Tak mungkin kuberpaling
Padamu yang meracuni
Rimbunan kasihku
Sehingga berguguran
Kelopak cinta kita
Kerana mu tak lagi mengerti hatiku

Sehingga berguguran
Kelopak cinta kita
Kerana fitnahmu
Walau segunung sesalmu
Tak mungkin kukembali
Cukuplah sekali
Kejelekanmu
Menggamit pilu

Tidak mungkin kumaafkan lagi
Salah sangka yang direncanakan
Adalah dendammu
Setelah diriku
Tak mampu menjadi milikmu
Sepenuhnya

Time changes everything...

It's always good to be back home... there's no other feeling that could describe the feeling of being home… being in your own bed… your own pillow, sheets and your own comfy room… (I love sleeping… so what? Sue me if you don’t like it)…


But there’s somehow a funny feeling… it’s a bit weird… the feeling is the same… the smell is the same… everything looks the same… but somehow… it’s different… then I realize that I’m different…

The boys went to Indonesia for a company trip… so I don’t hang out much with the boys just with Wan and his GF… there was Apek… but he was to busy hanging out with his girls… There’s the thing… I felt most weird about them and the girls… to be honest… they are not their GF… more like friends with benefits if you know what I mean…

And the worst thing is I don’t know how to react to that… there’s a feeling of discomfort while hanging out… they talk about adult stuff freely and openly… and the girls are the one that started it… have they no shame… I’m not perfect... I can admit that… but why do they have to show their sins to others?

I was like that once… a long time ago… but still there are boundaries… now I felt like I getting older faster then my childhood friends… because I seem to have lost the fun in being young… I felt like my youth is already spent and now… its about having a real life on your own…

Learning to live with the "pricks" around me...

Fable of the Porcupine

It was the coldest winter ever.  Many animals died

because of the cold.  The porcupines, realizing the

situation, decided to group together.  This way,

they covered and protected themselves; but, the

quills of each one wounded their closest companions

even though they gave off heat to each other. 

   After awhile, they decided to distance themselves one 
from the other and they began to die, alone and frozen.

So they had to make a choice: either accept the quills of

their companions or disappear from the Earth.

Wisely, they decided to go back to being together.

This way they learned to live with the little wounds

that were caused by the close relationship with

their companion, but the most important

part of it, was the heat that came from the

others. This way they were able to survive.  

Therefore:

The best relationship is not the one that brings 
together perfect people, but the best is

when each individual learns to live with

the imperfections of others and can admire

the other person's good qualities.

The Moral of the story!

 LEARN TO LOVE THE PRICKS IN YOUR LIFE.

J

The littlest things that take me there…

Your hug.. your kiss...
Are the things I miss...
Your laugh.. your smile...
Makes it all worth while...

That first meeting...
The one that made my inside shaking...
Because I know you would be something...
But you end up to be my everyhing...

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I can't continue... because it's hurting...

I went back to JB for the weekend…

It’s always nice to go back home… I feel so relax… I got to do things that I rarely do… but the road… gosh… what happen to JB when I was away???

I got lost in my own city… lucky that the traffic there is not like in KL… things change so fast… but still JB is JB… no rush at all… the only rush in JB are those people who works in Kiasu Land (Singapore). I know by stating this I would offend a Singaporean reader… but… that’s the idea… I hate Singapore as much as New Yorkers hate people from New Jersey… but that’s not my point of the story.

I’m considering moving back to my hometown… but if I did… I’ll break my own promise to myself… but I’ve already got two job offers there… I just got lots in my mind to think about in KL… and the best way to solve all that would be going back to JB… but how can I… I got a “Tanggungjawab” here… (curik away sikit)…

I think… that’s the only reason that prevents me from packing back my begs and leave… despite my promise to myself…

Here I have to think about that hell hole house… keeping stuff and money from being stolen…

Manage my salary to pay off bills… daily expenses… slide some entertainment on the weekend and make it last just till the next pay day…

At work… I have to worry about that fat black dragon that’s always in my case even after I’ve done a perfect job… one of these days I’ll slay that fat black dragon…

But that’s my challenge in life… If I’m back in JB now… things are just to easy for me…


I think I’ll leave after I slay the fat black dragon….

Chillin' out here and watch the sunset while listening to the live ban is the greatest feeling that you could get while you're in JB... someday... I'll bring someone that's special on that Cruize ship for dinner... someday...

Don’t let your heart go blind…

The eye can only see what's there in front of it...

but remember... looks can be deceiving… so use your heart to see…
but it’s not easy if the heart is blind…

Having a blind heart is worst then being actually blind… you may wonder how the heart can be blind when it has no eyes…

Well my dearest friend… the heart will go blind when you have various obligations over a certain matter… the simple common example is “LOVE”…

When you’re in love… nothing else matters… you do stupid and crazy things for it… love has blinded your heart from thinking and making rationally decisions… or worst… it has stop you from even thinking… now… that is what I call… “Critical state”

Take it from someone who had experience such a thing…

“Always be in a rational state of mind… because some decisions that you make may not affect you in general… but some… can change your life forever”

Don’t let your heart go blind… it’s a nasty condition to be in…