Releks dulu...

There are more paranoid people online these days...

It's been a while since I jump around people's blog looking for something interesting... I only do that when I'm bored while online... The great part of blog hopping is that you never know what you're gonna get... There are lots of interesting thing people write about... things like events... feeling... secrets... and lots more...

But I don't care much about that... what would interest me are people thoughts... something original... something that I had never thought off... something logical... may be practical and way bit crazy then usual... these are actually foundation for creating new ideas..

Most often I would stumble upon one or two blogs that suits my interest... and it had inspire me and given new ideas... or maybe change my perception upon things... but I can't seem to find a good one these days... well... I have a theory that these kind of writting... is seasonal... people only write creative things on certain season in a year... I'm still doing my research on that.

Well... for now it seems that paranoia is in season...  lots or article people wrote about shows how paranoid they are... some worst then the other... Most people are paranoid after the Earthquake in Japan... well everyone who seen the Movie "2012" would be as paranoid about it... saying that it's true and is going to happen... do you know that 2012 was made base on a prophercie made by a famous predictor who lived 500 years ago? He was a French guy name Michel de Nostredame or commonly known as Nostrodamus... what's happening now is mainly what Historian and researcher calls... the Nostrodamus effact... where people are to paranoid about it and they believe it completely.

There was one saying that he was affraid that saying intelligent things online was giving ideas for free and people are stealing his ideas from him... ideas are not own by individuals... they are marely floating around waiting for the type of person with the correct mentality to pick it up and make something of it...

Come on now... the net is a medium where what ever you publish like it or not will be read and seen by others... If you don't like it... take it up old fashionly... take a piece of paper and write on it or better yet... keep a dairy...

Huge Balloons sighted on Putrajaya skylines...

I had the opportunity to go there for the Putrajaya Hot Air Ballon Festival this year... 
I was there when it first started in 2009... but I didn't got a chance to go as I was involve with a trip to Genting with my friends a the time... missed it in 2010... and finally got the chance in 2011.. but bad luck though... 

we got there as early as we think is possible... but still can't manage to get a ticket... so I end up catching the humongous balloons on camera...  to bad that the pictures in this blog is not the one that I had taken... it's with Adi's D90 Nikkon camera... 

well I hope to get the tickets next year... we had fun... but it would be greater if Jali and Yaya were there... they had gone back to their home town... I love my weekend... its not as dull as last year... it's better... my life is better... I'm surrounded by a family of friends.. Thanks dear....

I've found a bunch of people that puts the "C" in COOL... =) 

Publish Post

Hangout with my colleague....

Wanna see what happen to japan?

I've been trying to find pictures about the quake in Japan since it first happen. Then I got this link...

I'm sure you guys would love to see this link... as it provides before and after the quake footage...

See at this site what was before and after the Tsunami in Japan....

Drag the “Black” line by mouse

http://www.abc.net.au/news/events/japan-quake-2011/beforeafter.htm

No success goes without sacrifice...

I hope I speak too soon about this...

Two weeks of the time period will end soon... but still there's no answer for what I'm seeking... Maybe I'm a little desprate to get it... just because I really want to get out of here... Why?
That question had been asked to me by everyone when I first voice out about it... I didn't really give a clear cut answer... just a brief one... career development...

I have my own target on what I want to achieve... everything must be done before I'm 30... I've heard of success stories of others... and it made me think... why can't I be one of them??? I want one day... people would tell stories about me... just like how I heard about them...

No success goes without sacrifice... and I'm well aware of what I'm sacrificing... they said... you'll never achieve greatness untill you let go the things you love the most... I can say that I'm well prepared for that... it's just the matter of my heart dividing it sides... 

A mind is a very powerful thing... but the heart is the one that govern it... up untill now I've been adventures... why stop now... I'm too far off to turn back... 

I did my part... and now... I leave my fate in God's hand.......  

BANYAK CERITA INDAH DALAM HIDUPKU TAK KU LUAHKAN DISINI... 

KERNA AKU TAK MAU SESIAPA TAHU.... 

HANYA ANTARA AKU DAN DIA... DAN KAMI BAHAGIA... 

Why I've been famous these pass week...

I bought a Liverpool shirt so that I could enter the competition and win tickets for EPL Masters... I wanted 4 tickets because I want to see it with my family of friends... the 4 of us...

It was Friday... I bought the shirt on Thursday... the main reason was because I wanted to meet the EPL players who was a superstar during their time... and I wanted to share them with three important people to me...  I got a call up later that Friday evening saying that I've won...

I got two tickets... just because I wanted 4... I work the extra mile to get it.... luckily a friend gave me two... I was happy and went straight home after... so I didn't know that the winner was broadcast via email to all branches all over Malaysia and scope...

later on a saturday... i got call and text asking about me and SCB... now they know where am I... and I've expand my friends in the corporation... nice...

LETTER TO A LOVER

TO MISS FRAGILE HEART,

THANKS FOR HELPING TO BUILD BACK MY LIFE....
TO PUT A SMILE IN MY FACE THAT ONCE WAS SO GRIM...
TO BE SOMEONE THAT I COULD FIGHT WITH...
TO BE SOMEONE THAT TED COULD FIGHT WITH BESIDES ME...
FOR GIVING ME A FAMILY OF FRIENDS...
FOR EVERY EXCITEMENT WE HAVE EVERY WEEKEND...

FOR LETTING ME MEET ANA ABU AND "FRIENDS" =)
TO SHARE THE REBELLIOUS RAGE INSIDE US...
FOR BEING MY POETRY PARTNER

I'M SORRY TO MAKE YOU CRY WHEN I'M MAD
YOU CRY TO OFTEN BECAUSE YOU'RE SAD
BUT I'M HERE AND I HOPE THAT YOU'RE GLAD

I L Y S O.... HAPPY 143 DAY =)

8.9 Magnitude quake "The end is very near..."

Today Japan has been struck with a massive earth quake with a magnitude of 8.9 of the Richter scale… if you can’t imagine how massive an 8.9 quake… just remember Indonesia on 26th December 2004… That made the headline all over the world… a total of estimated death was 230,000 people in 14 countries… if you get the picture now on how massive it was for Indonesia back in 2004… it was 9.1 to 9.3 of the Richter Scale…

The number of death is still currently unavailable since it is still happening now as I write this… I was shock to see the live video by CNN news… they capture the footage by air… overseeing everything as it happens… from mid air you can hardly see the damage as it would seem like an over flowing river flooding the residential area… but the most shocking scene appears next… as the camera was shooting flood water carrying away cars and houses… ( I didn’t realize that it was cars and houses…) I saw the flood water chasing few cars on the road…

Imagine that… you’re driving… and behind you is a three feet wave chasing you from behind… it was just like something from a Hollywood movie… everyone was watching with fear… it’s not a movie.. it’s real life… now… I think that I share this thought with others that see what I see… 2012 may be the end of the world… as predicted by Nostradamus… and the movie 2012…

All over the world are in chaos… floods… earth quake…. Civil War… what that had been foretold by the prophet is true about people… Human in the last Century

Rock on...

My new guitar...

Finally I can start over with my guitar lesson...

Miss Orange Specks

This is for you... u deserve this...

I can't remember wather I've said this before or not... but I think I didn't... I'm sorry...
truly... deeply sorry... for what had happen between us in the past... Please don't think that I left you because you're not good enough... The truth is... you are... a very wonderful person... kind and soft hearted... with a nice beautiful smile... your characteristics are the main reason why I fall for you in the first place...

Please be ensure that I didn't leave you for someone better... I just thought that you deserve better... much-much better then someone like me at the time... because I was a bad person. I'm not as smart as you... not well organize like you do... I was a total looser... and I know you deserve better... what we had was not a fake feeling... it was only because of my lack and poor judgement.

I'm sorry to have put you in such a place... I have no excuse for what I've done... leaving you for her is not the thing that I'm proud off. It only lasted for a while... my life at the time was not exactly the time I'm living now... I had people depending on me... and relationship was something for fun instead of commitment.

But I've change...

I know you know of my current situation... to hide it seems pointless... and u of all people should know...
I don't stole her from you... she's still your best friend... because she put's u first before me... I know u love her and don't want her to get hurt... especially by someone like me... but I'm not "me" like i was few years back...

She would be at ease if you let us be... because she care's bout you more... if anyone is to blame... it's me...
I charish friendship like family... she does too... you are part of her family... and I respect that very well...
hope that you'll find it in your heart to let us be us...

Where am I so far in the 30's list

1. Sky Diving
2. Travel to a foreign country
3. Bungee jumping
4. Mountain climbing
5. Fly a plane
6. Learn to play the guitar ( in progress )
7. Scuba Diving
8. Own a Superbike

Last year in December I came up with a list... "Things to be done before im 30". There was at one time i thought that I could already complete half of the list this year... but there are some minor setbacks... but things are going thru as plan again...

I don't know when would I have the time to get a sky diving lisence... probably the same time that I wanted to learn and drive an aeroplane... now that ambition takes to much cost... so probably that would be the 2 last things to be done on the list.

I never travel to a foreign country before... even that I live in JB which is next Singapore... never been there at all... But I got plans to travel this year... I'd be sure that Singapore wouldn't be the fist country I visit... cause I hate those damn F****** erogant singaporingaynian...Kiasu Land would be a last resort. 
I made plans to go to Brunei early this year... but I got cought up with things... but now in March... I'm considering it... Thanks to the performance bonus I receive for this month. But then again... 

I got to buy a new Guitar... my guitar lesson has been pospone for same time now... and I need to fix up Grey... I got this weekend to spent... probably I could go Skuba Diving... if that is an option... or maybe bungee jumping... or ice skating... damn... This has made me think of lots of stuff... 

I hope for a change of sicenery in terms of working enviroment. Only then I think I could buy a Superbike... That would be cool... What's left is Mountain Climbing... that I got to do fast before I get to old to do it.  

Blogging terasa semakin payah sekarang...

Sedangkan... Blogging lah medium untuk aku menceritakan dan meluahkan segalanya... my own private electronic diary...

Pada tahun lepas aku berjaya mengatasi jumlah entry yang di post pada tahun sebelumnya. begitu juga dengan harapan untuk mengatasi post entry aku pada tahun lepas... tapi aku rase... tersekat... begitu banyak kebahagiaan yang aku ingin kongsikan namun terbantut... atas alasan2 kukuh yang aku sendiri tak berjaya untuk membuatkan alasan tu rapuh...

Kalau ikutkan hati dan diri... lantak lah semua yang ada... tapi aku dah tak boleh buat macam tu... sebab aku lebih berasa tanggungjawab dengan penulisan aku... memang bebas untuk bermain dan meluahkan kata-kata disini... tapi aku sentiasa berfikir akan kesan yang akan di implikasikan hasil dari penulisan itu...

Tetap ada hati yang perlu dijaga...

Hidup tak pernah seindah novel-novel yang pernah aku baca... 


Awal dulu waktu aku berjinak2 dengan buku... novel lah buku yang sering aku baca... dan sebab itu jugak aku boleh score dalam sejarah... ape relevantnya novel dengan subject sejarah.... aku je yang tahu... 


Novel itu semuanya penipu... dipenuhi fantasi dan imiginasi akal untuk membawa penbaca ke suatu alam dimana segalanya mungkin... tapi setiap orang perlukan itu... perlukan buku seperti itu untuk lari sebentar dari kepayahan  hidup dialam realiti... 


Waktu dulu... itu adalah aku... yang kuat bermimpi... berangan kan sesuatu seperti di dalam buku itu... namun dewasa kini... baru aku menyedari... hidup menang tidak seindah mimpi... tanpa usaha... tiada apa yang akan menjadi... 


Perjalanan aku 6 tahun ini.... dipenuhi pelbagai cerita dimana antaranya ada yang ceria.... dan hampir keseluruhannya duka.... sukar terasa untuk ku temukan bahagia yang kekal... ada sahaja mereka yang akan menyangkal... tapi Tuhan temukan aku dengan die... yang mampu buat aku lupekan segalanya... memberi aku semangat untuk memulakan semula... membina impian dan harapan.... sesuatu yang memacu diriku untuk maju... 


Tapi adakah die tahu? apa makna dirinya bagiku... 


Aku tidak takut menghadapi segalanya kerna aku cuma berserah padaNya dengan berkat usaha... kerana sagala yang terjadi dah pun ditentukan dan telah pun ditetapkan... tapi aku takut pada ketetapan kehilangan dirinya... 

bahagia itu ada...

Malam tidak lagi sesepi
Hari yang tiada mentari
Pagi tidak lagi sesuram
Bagai tiada bulan diwaktu malam


Badai seperti biasa kan tiba
Tapi rasa tidak lagi sehiba sebelumnya
timbul sedikit ceria
tatkala dunia memudarkan warna


Masih boleh tersenyum


Firasat hati telah lama mati
terkubur dalam jasad ini
Namun bahagia dapat ku cari
masih dapat kurasakan kehangatan mentari
dikala hari telah meninggi


Datangnya dia dari masa silam
Menerangkan hati yang dulunya kelam
menyalakan api yang terpadam
riuh hatiku yang dulunya diam


Bahagia itu ada

Kamu.. itulah aku...

Tidak kita ketahui
Apa mungkin yang akan terjadi
Apa yang akan kita tempuhi
Bagaimana kita akan duiji

Seperti "Kita" yang tidak dirancang
Ia datang tanpa diundang
Dimana pada awalnya kita bimbang
Namun bersama... kita tenang

Kau risau akan caramu
Risau dirimu akan buatkan ku buntu
Sedangkan risau itu tidak perlu
Apa sahaja dirimu... itulah aku...