Replaced yet again...

You said that you will find someone better to replace me... well I’m sure now that you will... nope.. I’m very certain that you will...because all of then leave me for the same reason... SOMEONE BETTER... its always been because of someone better.. its my fate to become second class... try as i might to be the first... to be on top...

I’ll end up being pushed back to the ground again... You’ve change me a lot since we’re together... i cherish every moment...

Haven't felt this kind of happiness for a long time... i really love you.. still and always do... i can't remember any kind of happiness in my past.. because since I'm with you... You erased it all... and replaced it with the memory of you...

So how could i think of anything else?... I miss you... miss your smile.. miss your loughter... your side kick.. miss looking into those hazel eyes of yours... miss holding your hands... your hugs.. i miss everything about you... I'm miserable without you...

Choclate Rose

You may have read this saying somewhere...
" People often forget to cherish the person that is infront of them... and they never know what they had until they lost them..."

This saying is set as a reminder to people so that they cherish people around them... implimenting that if they don't they would regret it later in life...

but I think its all bullshit... even if you cherish someone so much... cared and give all that you have... the posibbility of loosing that someone is still there... so if you cherish them or not... it dosen't matter...

fate has many supprise for us... and things are always never certain... that what makes life so wonderful...

all I'm saying is.... without you... I'm nothing...

last morning kiss...

Most people woke up each day... thinking that its just another day... to some... its a day to look forward to or a day in which they had been waiting for.... sometimes people forget to cherish the day... and end up with nothing the next day...

I can be categorized as the most people that think yesterday was just an ordinary day... true that life is wonderful... but it's not always beautiful... it can also be ugly and painful...

Yesterday was the last day of giving my morning kiss to you... I hate that it has to stop... I hate that things didn't work out... my heart is in pain... and it is now fearless... they say that its good to have fear... it tells you that you're alive... it means that you have something to loose... but now I've lost the very important part of my life... and I don't know how to get it back...

Mafia Wars

Join my Mob family and be a mafia...

(for instructions leave a comment and I'll advise you to help you along the way...)

Death: is the issue ever been discuss yet?

Death...
is that a scary word for you???
if its not... then... you're still young and thinks that there is still lots to achieve... lots to see in this beautiful world... lots of feelings that haven't been felt yet... or maybe you're old.. but just can't except death just yet...

well have you at least give it a thought... if its only for just one second... every actions... every decisions... has in consequences...

now think of your every actions and decisions... what consequences has it brought to you??? What's installed for us in the after life... some who read this maybe think that its still a long time before death comes for them... but how are you so certain that death would not come to you in 5 minute after you read this??? or NOW!!!!

i'm not even certain when will my time come... maybe after i write this post... but i can tell you one thing... I'm sure am not ready...

thinking of death just keeps me aware of stuff... things that i haven't yet achieve... for instant giving back my parents what they had gave me... paying back every single cent that they spent on me... even after every penny is paid back... it still isn't enough... what about finishing my studies... get a job... expanding my business... get married... have kids... and lots more...

well you don't always get what you want... even if you tried hard enough... without God's willing... all you effort is useless... so be thankful to God for each and every achievement in life that you had achieve...

Third reason for lying reposted

Posting my story of Ted just have to wait... because my mind is wondering else where...
Good things.. do come to those who wait... but great things comes to those who wait a little longer...

I wish that I've waited longer.... so that I would not have to lie...
In my post earlier.... I ask what is the third reason for lying... I was hoping that someone could tell me... but.... I finally got the answer myself... The third reason for lying is LOVE...

Love is a crazy and funny thing... it's never meant to be understood but to be felt...
you'd do anything for love... but is everything done by people that is in love could be forgiven???
that remain unanswered...

That would be my question for people who read my blog now... second question after the third reason for lying... I'm confessing that I not a type of person that could be trusted... I'm a big fat liar... yes I'm... people who are close to me often said that I'm a kind and good person... silently i despised their thought... I'm a manipulator... I can manage to control people's feelings and emotion....

Why do I finally admit this out loud??? Because I fall in Love again... and it hurts... when you finally found a reason to go straight... to be true.... you just can't simply be trusted... thats sad...
I'm not sorry for what I did... because I did it out of my love for her...

I end up being a jerk... I had always been in and out of a relationship after I broke up with my ex that I once thought that she was the only love of my life... I was played... and it hurts... I know that feeling very well... I'm just so sorry for doing the same to others... Its not about revenge... I just don't know why...

Ever done something for no reason???

I just want to find someone and commit myself to her.... and I choose one... and whats left is just an answer from her...

Ted's the one that picked her... thanks Ted... your my bff for life...

bloody Idiots

this particular post are for you FUCKING idiots that don't know to be quite in a cyber cafe... playing games and screaming... what the fuck is your fucking problems... don't you have any respect with people around you are at least being shameful acting that way in a public place...

If i had it my way... i stand now and slap each and everyone of you fucking idiots silly...

shut the fuck up...

Posting for peace

Living free... doing everything and anything without ever thinking of any consequences... living life to the fullest... I enjoyed that life... enjoyed it very much... back then... i have nothing to worry... and being not to worry about anything is not being scared of anything... living without fear...

but that life has its disadvantages... if i chose to life that life... i would be lonely for the rest of my life... and so i chose to love...

and love is always a complicated life... a life of fear... fear of being left by love... doing anything possible to keep that love from going away... even if it means that i have to feel hurts and pain... but that pain doesn't compare the feeling of being lonely... and so i bare it all...

Its true... to the people who read me through their naked eye would say that I'm a womanizer... but i have the right to choose the right one don't I??? so does everybody else... but I've found what i'm searching... just that its hard to make her believe that she's the one...