There are more paranoid people online these days...

It's been a while since I jump around people's blog looking for something interesting... I only do that when I'm bored while online... The great part of blog hopping is that you never know what you're gonna get... There are lots of interesting thing people write about... things like events... feeling... secrets... and lots more...

But I don't care much about that... what would interest me are people thoughts... something original... something that I had never thought off... something logical... may be practical and way bit crazy then usual... these are actually foundation for creating new ideas..

Most often I would stumble upon one or two blogs that suits my interest... and it had inspire me and given new ideas... or maybe change my perception upon things... but I can't seem to find a good one these days... well... I have a theory that these kind of writting... is seasonal... people only write creative things on certain season in a year... I'm still doing my research on that.

Well... for now it seems that paranoia is in season...  lots or article people wrote about shows how paranoid they are... some worst then the other... Most people are paranoid after the Earthquake in Japan... well everyone who seen the Movie "2012" would be as paranoid about it... saying that it's true and is going to happen... do you know that 2012 was made base on a prophercie made by a famous predictor who lived 500 years ago? He was a French guy name Michel de Nostredame or commonly known as Nostrodamus... what's happening now is mainly what Historian and researcher calls... the Nostrodamus effact... where people are to paranoid about it and they believe it completely.

There was one saying that he was affraid that saying intelligent things online was giving ideas for free and people are stealing his ideas from him... ideas are not own by individuals... they are marely floating around waiting for the type of person with the correct mentality to pick it up and make something of it...

Come on now... the net is a medium where what ever you publish like it or not will be read and seen by others... If you don't like it... take it up old fashionly... take a piece of paper and write on it or better yet... keep a dairy...

"Knock Out Punch"

Every actions has its consequences... Just like an investment... it has its risks... things can go great at first and it can change to bad.... and from bad... to worst...

Life at some point has a way of knocking us down... but we can choose to get up after falling... its just the question of how fast we got up after falling... and for some... life keeps on knocking them down... and they keep on falling and falling to the point that they feel they can't get up... feels like they had just received a "knockout punch"... and when that time comes... they'll give up...

as the saying goes " No one really dies a virgin... because in the end... life fucks us all"...

I've lost count how many times life had given me a knock out punch... I think now I know why.... it just came to me while writing this post.... its acceptance and appreciation.... that is what I'm lacking.... I only had acceptance... as I have a very high tolerance for people.... but appreciation.... I just don't know how...

Sedikit bantuan... meneruskan perjalanan...

Disaat aku berada dalam kesempitan...
serta hampir putus harapan....
Bersyukur aku ditunjukkan jalan...
Moga kurang sedikit penderitaan...


Alhamdulilah... bersyukur aku kepada mu Tuhan...

I'm trying to hold my growth

A friend of mine keep on complaining to me... he ask me " why can't you act your age dude" and in my reply brings me to write about this post....

as to my previous post... I've said that 'maturity is in the state of mind'

you often see or meet with people who are younger then you but when you look at them they seem so be a lot mature then you.... or sometimes you're surprise to know someone's age by looking at their maturity level....

there are two ways to help someone mature faster.... one is thru hardship in life.... kids who went thru hard life tent to mature faster then their age.... from hardship they gain experience in life to guide them in the future.... just watch 'slumdog millionaire'... how his hard life as a kid paid off and makes him a millionaire....

but its crazy if you have a good life and try to experience the hard life just to mature faster.... there's a second way of achieving that maturity state.... just elevate your company.... by elevating your company i mean hangout with people whose older then you... much older.. but not that old.... lets just put about people who's 5 years older then you...

why 5 years? lets just put it as your goal in life... let's say that right now you've just reach you're 2o.... and you have a friend whose already 25.... you say to yourself... in 5 years time.... "will i be the type of person my 25 year old friend is or will i be better?" so along the way you'll learn the ropes that will make you 25 even when you're 20 since you hangout with them....

as for me.. when i was 18... i hangout with a group of friends who are 23 or 24.... for that period of time hanging out with them... i act their age.... i did grown up stuff... that i can't say in particular...
and when i enter uitm... I've become like this... a somewhat childish... and i love it.... i'm done growing up.... I'm trying to hold my growth... just to get back those years i've lost....

my advise would be... don't try to get mature faster... just go with your natural pace... and you'll end up living without regrets....

Death: is the issue ever been discuss yet?

Death...
is that a scary word for you???
if its not... then... you're still young and thinks that there is still lots to achieve... lots to see in this beautiful world... lots of feelings that haven't been felt yet... or maybe you're old.. but just can't except death just yet...

well have you at least give it a thought... if its only for just one second... every actions... every decisions... has in consequences...

now think of your every actions and decisions... what consequences has it brought to you??? What's installed for us in the after life... some who read this maybe think that its still a long time before death comes for them... but how are you so certain that death would not come to you in 5 minute after you read this??? or NOW!!!!

i'm not even certain when will my time come... maybe after i write this post... but i can tell you one thing... I'm sure am not ready...

thinking of death just keeps me aware of stuff... things that i haven't yet achieve... for instant giving back my parents what they had gave me... paying back every single cent that they spent on me... even after every penny is paid back... it still isn't enough... what about finishing my studies... get a job... expanding my business... get married... have kids... and lots more...

well you don't always get what you want... even if you tried hard enough... without God's willing... all you effort is useless... so be thankful to God for each and every achievement in life that you had achieve...