Purple Star

I failed to recognize what you had to offer... I didn't make it a bother.... and now I suffer....

life is all about making decisions... I made more wrong decisions then the right one.... You have everything that I wanted... yet I only took a glance at your offer and walk away....

Now, we're back at square one.... back at where we begin...

nothing is for certain... just have to go with the flow... all the attention you gave me... will not be gone to a waste.... nope... not this time...

building that future together....

One republic Secrets

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
Til' all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My god, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, All my secrets away

CIty of lights......

I could say every blogger that had visited I-City in Shah Alam must have posted something about this place... there are many stories for me to tell of this place... but lets just keep that to a certain individual...

My camera can't simply stop capturing pictures in this place... cheers!!!

Reliving the Golden Days...

I had put excitement in my life to the very minimum after my uni days… thought to focus on life and its meaning… but the truth is… it didn’t get me where I wanted to go…

I’ve tried and explore new things… go against my principal and my perspective… but it all leads to a dead end…

Now I’ve decided to revert back in my golden years… where I was really hard not to talk about… not to brag… or to be proud… just for you to get the picture of my golden years… love me.. Hate me… adore me you will…only people that are true to me will never be disappointed to know me…

I’ve reunited with ‘the three’ and with open arms I was welcomed… just like in the old days…

I’m far more dangerous now then before… since I’ve gain much more resources… but it also a warning to myself… ‘Revert to only the golden days... never again look back at the darker days…” I was saved once… thanks to Ning… and I wouldn’t risk of ever repeating that stupid mistake again…

Even thought that the past has always found its way back to me… I guest… when you try to go to the light… there would be challenges… just to see how sincere you are…

“Its not easy to be easy… it’s not hard to be hard”

My clear Conscience...

How long has it been already? 2 and half years I think... sorry if I'm wrong Paen...

That length of time… never have we met… at first… I was the one who’s afraid….
Worrying about the first impression…. U kept on asking when we can meet… I always tried to avoid that question… now… the situation has change… I’m the one that keep on asking… you’re the one with all the reason to avoid us from meeting…

Back then… distance was the main factor… a reason both of us can relate… but now… that factor can’t be considered as accountable… “So near… yet so far it seems”… I don’t know… am I comfortable with this… meaning if we meet or not… what I do care… is you…

Thanks for being the voice in my head… for being true… all I wanted is the truth… That’s why I called you each and every time a crisis occurs…

I think of what you said… and we’ve discuss this… but… for the time being… lets not worry about the end… and just enjoy every moment of it…

Cheers… for being my conscience…

Alasanmu

Ikhlasnya hati
Sering kali disalah erti
Tulusnya budi
Tidak pernah engkau hargai
Berlalu pergi dengan Kelukaan ini
Kumengalah... ku bersabar

Bertentang mata seolah-olah tiada apa
Berpaling muka ada saja yang tidak kena
Mencari sebab serta alasan yang kukuh
Supaya tercapai hajatmu

Manis dibibir memutar kata
Malah kau tuduh akulah segala penyebabnya
Siapa terlena pastinya terpukau
Pujukmu, rayumu, suaramu
Yang menagih simpati dan harapan

Engkau pastinya tersenyum
Dengan pengunduran diriku
Tetapi bagi ku pula
Suatu ketenangan

Andai kita terus bersama
Belum tentu kita bahagia
Selagi tidak kau ubah
Cara hidupmu

Ada rahmatnya
Bila tidak lagi bersama
Terasa jauh
Diriku ini dengan dosa

Ku tinggalkanmu walau tanpa kerelaan
Yang nyata kau tidak berubah...

Katalah apa yang kau ingin
Selagi kau dapat berkata
Memang begitu sikapmu
Semenjak dahulu

Tiada cita-cita... cuma impian...

Kau seseorang yang hanya mempunyai impian dalam hidup.... langsung tiada cita-cita... bile terbaca kata2 aku nie dah tentu kau terpinga2 dan tertanya2 apa bezanya impian dan cita2.. apa makananya...

Kau selalu berkata bahawa kata2 aku kosong... itu kerana kata2 kau juga kosong.. xmembawa sebarang impak dalam hidup aku... seolah kau hanya berkata-kata di hadapan cermin... sile guna nasihat anda untuk diri sendiri...

beza orang yang mempunyai cita2 adalah... orang itu menetapkan sesuatu sasaran dalam hidup.. satu matlamat untuk dicapai... apabila telah ditetapkan sasaran dan matlamat itu.. maka seseorang itu akan berusaha dengan usahanya sendiri untuk mencapai matlamat itu... sama ada hingga berjaya atau terhenti ditengah jalan atas sebab2 yang tak dapat dielakkan atau pun mempunyai sasaran dan matlamat yang baru...

berbeza pula dengan orang yang mempunyai impian... boleh juga disamakan dengan hanya mempunyai angan2... umpama mat jenin dengan angan2 kelapanya... hanya berangan... bermimpi... segala akan datang dengan sendiri... owh tidak sama sekali...

"Tuhan tidak akan merubah nasib seseorang itu selagi die tidak merubah nasibnya sendiri"

Kata2 itu sangat benar... dan telah pun terjadi pada aku berkali2... walau malang itu datang berulang2... aku sentiasa mencari hikmah dari setiap kejadian... dan hikmah itu telah pun aku temui....

Alhamdulillah...

What goes around comes around... people call it karma... as the saying goes.. "No good deeds goes unpunish, so does the bad ones"

Lelaki Vs Perempuan...

Kajian Menarik terbaru..

Lelaki:

1. Pandu ke bank, parking dan berjalan ke mesin ATM

2. Masukkan card

3. Tekan number PIN dan jumlah yang dikehendaki

4. Ambil duit, card dan receipt

Wanita:

1. Pandu ke bank

2. Matikan enjin kereta

3. Perhatikan makeup di muka melalui cermin pemandu

4. Semburkan minyak wangi

5. Sikat rambut dan berjalan ke mesin ATM

6. Mencari Kad ATM di dalam beg tangan

7. Masukkan kad ATM

8. Mencari nombor PIN ATm dekat celah penyepit rambut dalam beg tangan

9. Tekan nombor PIN

10. Membaca arahan ATM selama hampir 2 minit

11. Tekan "Batal"

12. Tekan sekali lagi nombor PIN

13. Tekan "Batal" sekali lagi

14. Telefon suami atau pakwe untuk bertanya nombor PIN yang betul

15. Tekan nombor PIN yang betul dan periksa baki duit yang tinggal

16. Masukkan jumlah yang dikehendaki

17. Tekan "Salah"

18. Masukkan jumlah yang agak besar

19. Tekan "Salah" sekali lagi

20. Masukkan jumlah yang lagi besar

21. Keluarkan dan amik duit dari mesin ATM

22. Masuk ke dalam kereta

23. Periksa makeup di muka sekali lagi

24. Mencari kunci kereta dalam beg tangan

25. Hidupkan enjin kereta 26. Jalankan kereta.

27. Berhenti tiba-tiba 28. Pergi balik ke mesin ATM

29. Ambil Kad yang tertinggal dan resit.

30. Masuk kembali ke kereta 31. Letakkan kad ATM di atas Dashboard

32. Buang resit atas jalan

33. Tengok dekat cermin pemandu

34. Perika makeup sekali lagi

35. Membetul-betulkan rambut

36. Masukkan gear kereta untuk reverse (undur)

37. Brake mengejut lagi

38. Masukkan gear kereta ke depan sebab tersilap tadi

39. Memandu lebih kurang 3 km

40. Baru teringat nak lepaskan hand brake..

Another black chapter in life...

I finally got the answer of all my dreams... and why this past weeks my parents had been calling me... as if they want me back in jb... even my dreams are associated with things in jb...
at first I thought it was just because i was home sick... but to my surprise it brings another meaning...
watching death can change a person's perspective in life... I don't know about others... but it had made me feel thankful for every breath I took each day...

Al-fatihah to Uncle lias... May Allah rest his soul and put him amongst those who worship him...

Persoalan Lazim...

Anda berader di stesen bas dan rakan anda ternampak
sambil bertanya: "Tunggu bas ke?"
Anda harus menjawab: "Taklah aku tengah tunggu helikopter, lambat plak ari nie ye"

Anda hendak pergi ke bilik mandi untuk mandi dan rakan sebilik anda bertanya
: "Ko nak mandi ke?"
Jawab : "Taklah aku nak pi main lelayang kejap, ko nak join?"

Anda sedang menulis surat dan rakan anda menegur:
"Aik? tulis surat nampak?"
Jawab : "Oh ye ke? aku tak prasan ah...tangan aku bergerak sendiri"

Anda sedang makan nasik dan orang tegur:
"Makan nasik?"
Jawab : " Mata ko buta ke per? Kan aku tengah minum teh ais nie?"

Anda baru pulang dari kerja dan jiran anda bertanyer:
"Baru balik dari keje?"
Jawab : "Taklah, saya dari rumah, nak pi keje lah nie...opis saya
dah pindah kat rumah..dan rumah saya dah pindah kat opis"

Anda sedang sibuk buat kerja dan rakan sepejabat menegur:
"Eh kau sibuk ke?"
Jawab : Takyah jawab, peratikan muker dia pastu kompang siket pipi dia.

Anda sedang menonton tv ceriter melayu, rakan anda datang lalu bertanyer:
"Eh citer melayu ke?"
Jawab : "Bukanlah, nie kan citer Otromen Taro menentang Raksaser dari
Planet X...ko tunggu jap nanti otromen kuar".

The Right Mistake...

In life… no one has the immunity from making mistakes… as everyone knows
That no one is perfect… that’s why there’s a saying… “Learn from your mistake” & “Practice makes perfect”…. But we can’t reject the fact that there exist the types of people that expect everything to be perfect…. I should know this since I have a hands-on experience…

But that don’t matter much… each of us has our uniqueness… we live our life separately, discreet & independently… well that is not what this post is about…

Back to the point of the story…

A mistake can be either just a mistake… or it can lead you to an opportunity…. It depends on the complexity of one’s brain to view a mistake to either take it as an idea or threw it like trash…

I’m the type that loves to learn from my mistake… sometimes I made the mistake over and over again… because I feel I haven’t learn the whole lot from a particular situation…
Some mistake is accidental… some… intentional…

I’ve made few mistakes that was unintentional before… and it turn out great… I’ve even made intentional mistake and it turn out better… but… still some mistake remain a mistake… and nothing I can do about that…

After a mistake is done… don’t be down hearted when you can’t do nothing about it… just remember… “Tomorrow is a brand new day” and when tomorrow comes…
“Today is a brand new start”…

The brown that change to choclate

Hurm… seems like I have an Invisible reader…
The one that follow but doesn’t leave a trail…

Yes I know it was too early… that’s why all the act of stupidity happens… I go against my perspectives… walk over my principles… and I am where I am now…

Please stop… don’t say you know me better then this… I realize that a long time ago… I just choose to be blind… this is me punishing myself for all the sins I’ve done…
I’m trying to amend… patch up all the torn hearts from the list in my black book…

Just please enjoy watching me suffer… I’m lowering my guard down… punch me where
It will hurt the most… I deserve that…

This time… there’s no plan… no back up plan to revert too if all else fails…
I just want to be an ordinary guy…

for me to remember....

Your Heart is your Love,
Your love is your Family,
Your family is your Future,
Your future is your Destiny,
Your destiny is your Ambition,
Your ambition is your Aspiration,
Your aspiration is your Motivation,
Your motivation is your Belief,
Your belief is your Peace,
Your peace is your Target,
Your target is Heaven,
Heaven is no fun without FRIENDS

23 perkara jangan dilakukan ketika memandu

1. Tidur dengan nyenyak.
2. Membebel tak sudah-sudah.
3. Menyumpah-nyumpah trafik light dan polis trafik.
4. Menghidupkan lampu isyarat tak tentu hala.
5. Membunyikan hon sesuka hati.
6. Menelefon kekasih masing-masing sampai terlentuk-lentuk.
7. Buka cermin tingkap dan meludah sesuka hati.
8. Menunjukkan penumbuk kepada pemandu lain.
9. Melanggar tiang lampu isyarat.
10. Masuk ke lorong bertentangan.
11. Menjerit-jerit tak tentu hala.
12. Menukar seluar.
13. Mandi sambil berkemban.
14. Menggosok gigi dengan air enjin.
15. Meminjam telefon bimbit pemandu lain.
16. Mengurat pemandu lain dan pejalan kaki.
17. Makan sirih.
18. Memesan teh tarik di gerai tepi jalan.
19. Duduk di tempat duduk penumpang.
20. Menari-nari terutama bila dengar lagu Hindustan.
21. Mengorek-ngorek lubang hidung dengan tombol gear.
22. Membaiki komputer yang rosak hardisknya.
23. Menelefon boss anda dan menyatakan anda menyampah dengannya.

Tidak akan dapat kau mencari apa yang tersembunyi dalam terang...
Selagi hati penuh dengan kegelapan...
Tidak akan dapat kau melihat apa yang terpampang...
selagi siang belum datang...

Hari itu... bile hujan turun...

setelah tamat satu keinginan... segala yang terikat mahu segara dilepaskan... sekadar berhenti dipersinggahan... di waktu lebat hujan... setelah reda... maka sambunglah perjalanan setelah tiada halangan... dan memori dipersinggahan... dilupakan...

bilakah kan tamat pengembaraan... mungkinkah nanti kan kembali semula ke persinggahan... lalu menamatkan perjalanan... dan mendirikan rumah idaman yang selama ini umpama satu khayalan..

Really considering it...

Owh God...

what has come over me today? why did I blew off that way? now I'm risking of loosing my job...
but what I did is right... I know I'm right... I was early and not late... why must I confest to the whole crowd of people that I don't even know that I was late and make me look like a fool...

to Mr Chinese fucker... I mean what I said just now... "Fuck you" and I don't want to take it back...

I was there for trainning... and I was damn early... just nobody was there and I return back to the office to check on if I got the right vanue... why I return you said that I'm late???

and when I want to explain... you said "no excusess... just confest that you're late"
fuck you la... I was fucking early... you don't even wanna hear my explanation... so don't be mad when I said fuck you infront of everybody...

as if right now... I have nothing to loose... if that couse me my job... so be it...
I know where I stand... I'll fight for what is right... always does...

Defining the words of a heartless man...

You know the truth...
seen it, heart it...
but you remain silence...
is it love or is it hate...
or all of this are vengeance...

Questions been asked...
answers are given...
but there are things that...
unforeseen...

The mind and the heart
speaks of different language...
that makes it difficult
to translate...

Stop living that moment...
it doesn't contribute to be forward...
follow what you dream...
not living in your dream...

owh.. the reason seems to be less relevan day by day...

I use to have focus... and try to never mix what's personal and work... living the moment... as i go... because I have a reason...

now the reason looks like it's fading away day by day... as always... I'm the one to be blame...
I've considering quiting my job... things are not as it was in CRC... not that I can't adapt with the environment... people that knows me... would know very well that i can adapt with any kind of environment...

Just that.. I've lost my passion... lost that excitment... I have no life outside work to look forward to... there are a few... but I'm done with all that... I already have a commitment... but... that committment doesn't seem to be committedto me...

just what is the posimpabble of my life...

This is my Dream....

Some dreams do come true if you wish hard enough.....