A Guy, A Girl and A Llittle Bear (5)

He surprise me yet again... I was in my room playing my play station... and Ted sat beside me watching me play... he wanted to play... but he always looses... so he just sat beside me cheering for the other team that play against me... Ted loves watching me loose... because he can't manage to win against me...

Then it happen... I was playing winning 11 at the time... and the opposing team manage to score against me... Ted scream in jubilant and was glad... "Yeeaayy..." he was happy and all of a sudden he started dancing... I was surprise that Ted could dance... from then on... Ted would loved to dance whenever I put on some music on... a pretty good dancer Ted is...

Over the years... I found out new things about Ted... he loves to dance, play games on the computers and my play station and I recently discovered that Ted loves folding cloths... He said that Mum teaches him how to fold clothes... so now, when ever I'm going back to campus... Ted would help me pack my stuff...

"Aril, when are you coming back? I miss you... there still many things we haven't done together yet". Ted asked me when I was getting ready to go back to campus after my semester break is over. I rarely come back for the weekend... its far... yet i miss Ted too... "Maybe I come back during the weekend Ted, then we can finish all the stuff that we haven't done yet" Just to calm Ted, I made a promise to come back whenever I could. Campus life is such a hectic life... always busy with test, exams, quizzes and others stupid activities...

I hug Ted... Give him a kiss and off to the bus station... I hate living Ted... but he's one of the reason that I would think of to come back home...

To be continue...

A Guy, A Girl and A Little Bear ( 4 )

The choice of bringing Ted home was the right one… I guest it is really fate that brought us together… Ted is a very good friend and a great listener… He often listens to my problems… and I always feel better after I told Ted about my problems… its something about his smile that calms me down…

“Why the long face there? Anything wrong?”. Ted asked me one day when I got back from school. “Ted… I think that I’m created to be alone… She left me…” .“What??? She left you again? How many times now have she left you???”. Ted was surprise that I was being dumped yet again… “No you silly bear, It’s a different girl”. I again would tell Ted about my break up or any other problems… hurm… Well that’s just it… Guy’s have only two problems… its either money or girls…

Over the years, Ted begins to hate girls… He hates how I was treated by girls… but the stupid thing is… He doesn’t know which one is which… Ted can’t tell between a guy and a girl… He just hates girls… but he likes Mum… because Mum took care of him when ever I’m gone…

Ted is a very interesting and amazing creature that I ever have the chance to meet and know… I’m glad that he’s mine… He always manage to surprise me… its been 7 years… yet there is always something new that he does that would amaze me… he’s just fun to be with and I enjoy being with him…

The funny things is, I often found out his new ability or capability during sleeping… that’s why I love sleeping with him… its not just because that he is cute and loveable to hug… Ted is indeed special….

To be continue…

words from a condemn

As time goes buy... I learn a lot relating to love, relationship, trust, and being faithful....
and that is... never to love, never get involve in a relationship, trust no one, and stop being faithful...

so... it has begun... the dark side of my life... as I get older... I've grown to become wiser by experience in life and by aging day by day.... Just after i left school... i left home... and travel to a few places... meet with new friends... expanding my network of friends... learn new things... new stuff... learn to adjust in different places... its fun.. and sometimes painful...

people can sure be deceiving... they always shows their good side to others... and hide their true colours... deep inside where people can't even see a glimpse of it...

And so i learn it all... learn the do and don't... the does and doesn't... they say it takes one to know one... and so I've become one... I learn that I have the capability to read throe people... to see their strength and weaknesses... to see people's limit.... and that is how... I learn to manipulate...
This new found give is being used for my personal gain... and its bad... I've become the type of person that I hate to become... a lying and deceiving man...

Why??? because I'm searching... for something to fill up my life... this is my way... and many would go against it... but so what??? what have others have gave me beside betrayal and heart ache??? so they are just the same... then don't judge me just yet.... because you're be judging yourself.... " Am I such a good person that i could judge others??? " the answer is NO... so except people for who they are....

Third reason for lying-found

Posting my story of Ted just have to wait... because my mind is wondering else where...
Good things.. do come to those who wait... but great things comes to those who wait a little longer...

I wish that I've waited longer.... so that I would not have to lie...
In my post earlier.... I ask what is the third reason for lying... I was hoping that someone could tell me... but.... I finally got the answer myself... The third reason for lying is LOVE...

Love is a crazy and funny thing... it's never meant to be understood but to be felt...
you'd do anything for love... but is everything done by people that is in love could be forgiven???
that remain unanswered...

That would be my question for people who read my blog now... second question after the third reason for lying... I'm confessing that I not a type of person that could be trusted... I'm a big fat liar... yes I'm... people who are close to me often said that I'm a kind and good person... silently i despised their thought... I'm a manipulator... I can manage to control people's feelings and emotion....

Why do I finally admit this out loud??? Because I fall in Love again... and it hurts... when you finally found a reason to go straight... to be true.... you just can't simply be trusted... thats sad...
I'm not sorry for what I did... because I did it out of my love for her...

I end up being a jerk... I had always been in and out of a relationship after I broke up with my ex that I once thought that she was the only love of my life... I was played... and it hurts... I know that feeling very well... I'm just so sorry for doing the same to others... Its not about revenge... I just don't know why...

Ever done something for no reason???

I just want to find someone and commit myself to her.... and I choose one... and whats left is just an answer from her...

Ted's the one that picked her... thanks Ted... your my bff for life...

A Guy, A Girl & A Little Bear (3)

That night was the first night I slept with Ted... both of us fell asleep in each others arms... many would read this and think that its like a romantic night... Ted is just so comfortable to sleep with... I hug him until sunrise... well that is before I discover the true nature of Ted sleeping... but that story is in another episode...

The next day... I woke up and Ted is still sleeping... so i jump off my bed and let him sleep... it was weird that i woke up early on a Sunday morning... so i came down the stairs for breakfast... Mum and Dad was reading the newspaper and was surprise that i woke up early... "You're early today.. going anywhere?". Dad asked me... He always expect me to go somewhere if I woke up early... "Nope. Just woke up for breakfast". I replied. I eat my breakfast and watch television... what else is on that's interesting beside cartoons in the morning???

As I was watching television... my mind was thinking of Ted... at the time Ted hasn't had any name yet... I just called him little bear... so i was thinking of a name to called him... I watch the cartoon characters on television hoping to get some ideas on what to name him... after I had think of some... I went back to my room...

"Hey there little bear, wake up already!!". I went beside ted and try to woke him up... he turn and look at me... "Erm... Hug me please... just a little while before i woke up". Ted requested me to hug him.. He made a cute face... how could i resist... so I lay down beside him and hug him... Ted hug me back and we both fall back asleep until late in the evening...

I was trick by Ted... he asked me to hug him... that's just a trick for him to asked me to come back and sleep with him... I always fall for his trick over and over again... Ted has a deadly cute face and smile that could force anyone to surrender into his every need... So we both woke up late in the evening that day... we both was wide awake... but still in bed... "Hey little bear, do you have a name?" Ted just shake his head and says no. "I've been thinking of names to call you since this morning, but I can't seem to remember any of them after i woke up". Ted looked at me excitedly and said "You've been thinking all morning??? Hurm... hope that you've found a good one".

"I'm blur right now, can't think of a name to name you right now, why don't you think of one and tell me what you want me to call you". Ted sat up straight and start thinking of names he wanted me to call him... we spent that hole evening together thinking of names for him. Ted come up with ridicules names for himself and we lough together at the names we had thought of... and all of a sudden... it came to me... "Teddy bear... yup, that's what i will call you... Teddy bear... Ted for short". Ted smile and said "Ted it is then". He hug me and said thank you for bringing him home... That's how Ted got his name...

To be continue...

A Guy... A Girl... and A Bear.... (2)

That day.... was a special day.... just so badly that i forget the date... I didn't record that historical day... but what the heck... it's still fresh in my mind.. just like it just happened...

Ted feels just like at home in my bed... the first thing that he did when i put him on my bed is roll over and over... and then he said.. " Is this my bed??? so comfortable... i like it very much... erm... where do you sleep???". He was so clueless and adorable at the time... I lough and said... "Little bear... this is my bed... but I'm happy to share it with you". "Ooh good... I hate sleeping in a large bed alone... will you hug me when we sleep?". Ted said afterwords...

He keep on rolling as we keep on talking... "Yeah of course I'll hug you... I have a feeling that this is a start of something great". as i said that... ted had already stop rolling on my bed... he was laying still... "Little bear?!".... He was already asleep... probably tired from the journey back home... I cover him up with a blanket and let him sleep...


To be Continue....

A Guy, A Girl and A little Bear

This is just another typical story.... a story of a guy and his little bear and a not so little girl...

I still remember how i first meet with Ted... it was 7 years ago... In a shopping mall...
that day... Mum wanted to go shopping and i end up waking early on a Saturday morning to accompany her... since I'm the only one home i have to accompany her... so that dismiss the fact that I'm the last and the youngest of my siblings... I was 14th at the time... so what??? is it wrong to go out with your mum??? I'm glad because i don't spent much time with my mum since she's busy all the time...

Mum was looking around... as usual at her favorite two things that could be in a mall shoe's and handbags... It was a routine for me to accompany my mum... at first i was board... then as i get older i love to wonder around searching for anything that could keep me busy while waiting for mum...

I was wondering around... looking and searching for something that would keep my mind occupy for the moment while i was waiting for my mum... and then... its like fate has guide me to him... and there he was... the only bear sitting in a pile of other stuffed animal... that was the first time we lade eyes on each other... i walked to him and say " hey there little bear... what are you doing here all alone???" he didn't answer... so i pick him up... at that moment... i saw him smiling... i swear to God he was smiling when i pick him up... then and there i decided... " You're coming home with me".

I quickly find my mum and introduce my new friend... i was like a boy who had just struck gold... then i felt like being hit by a car when my mum says " No!!! your to big for anything like that, put him back where he belongs...".

Then i look at the little bear... along the way to put him back where he belongs... I heal him in my arms... it feels so right... and leaving him there was wrong... He was so cute and innocent... after seeing him smile when i pick him up... i know that we were destine to meet... " I know what mum said... but i don't know why... I did say that I'm bringing you back home with me... let's just hope that this work okay???".

Mum was shopping for lots of stuff... she bought me new t-shirts... everything was in the trolley... then not long after its time to go back home... i push the trolley to the cash register as mum was walking in front... as we reach the counter... i begin to take out all the stuff in the trolley... mum was in front of the cash register... she was looking inside her purse... trying to find her discount card... then I'm done putting all the stuff... i stand beside my mum and pray... the cash register lady was scanning all the stuff that we bought one by one... all was done except the t-shirt that mum bought me... there was two shirts and they were mixed up with each other like they were wrapping something... then suddenly.... she pick up Ted and say "Ma'am... this too???"... i was saying to myself.. damn it lady just scan it already... why do you have to ask... stupid Bi**h... The lady heal up Ted and show him to my mum... i was disappointed... all hope of bringing him back was lost...

But mum saw what i saw... Ted was smiling at my mum and making a cute face... mum smile and look at me... then she said... " yes, that too..." I was shock... in this believe... but was extremely happy and over exaggerated... thanks mum...

And that is how it begin between me and Ted... without ever realizing that it has been 7 years since that historical day...

To Be Continue....

its been two weeks now since the start of the semester... things are all moving fast... damn fast... well its always been like this... since i first arrive here few years back... just need time to adjust after a long break...

Today i was ask to give an idea on what topic to write... i was trying my best to think... but today... its pretty much been very hazy... i don't know whats going on with me... i think i still left myself back in JB...

Someone told me today that when she read my blog... she thought that i was someone who is serious all the time... but I'm exactly just the opposite...

Lots about me that people often misjudge... and i wish i could told them off.. and stop them from making assumption about me... but... its now my style... i believe in freedom of thinking... and something is just better left unsaid...

I'm happier this semester... but still the sense of emptiness is still there.... but not when i'm with Ted... He's been there for me... a good friend... he makes me smile each and every time... you'd be surprise to know who Ted is... well currently he's not with me.. his status is away... on a week vacation... that's just the thing... we never been a part for 7 years... and this is first time... but he's doing well... just chought a slight fever... but i know he is in good hands...

this is just getting weird and weirder for me... and i love it...

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It's all in the book!!!

I guess that being surrounded by many friends doesn’t quite like I picture it would be…I always thought that when I have many friends they would know each other and becomes friends too… caring about one another and no enemies among them… boy how wrong was I…

I have many set of friends… and even to the naked eye they all may be evenly the same… God has created them with different personality that differ them from one another…
I hate to be in a situation to choose between friends… sometimes two of my friends have a misunderstanding with each other any they ask me to choose sides… but for me… my friends will always be my friends… well friends do fight once a while right??? So I don’t choose sides with anyone…

Sometimes my friends told me that I’m knave to think that I could unite all the people that I’m friends with because each individual are different… different background, lifestyle, surrounding, thinking, personalities… and so on… yeah I know that… I just don’t know why we can’t all be friends??? I always treated my friends like my family… like brothers and sisters…

Well from all these years… all I had is just heart ache… its true what an old friend of mine said… when you get close to people… they are the one that that would hurt you the most… and your most hated enemy could become your greatest friend… I experience it myself to discover the truth in his words…

It’s funny though… you always learn the truth in something when it’s over… Fred Dust said “life is a lesson; you learn it when you’re thru” indeed life is a lesson… and all advises about life is already being told… in a book… just that people would read the book when their thru with their life…

(Book= Al- Quran)

Please Note...

This blog that i create i for me... yup... not for you... its my site to say what ever i want... to express whatever i feel... your comments are welcome... but pretty much not needed... you may say what ever you think... because you have the right to do so... and every mocking comment you made to me has no meaning to me... but i still do bite back... always will and always have... not that i dont welcome comment... i do... even bad ones to... but i dont except mocking comments... F*** you....

You may judge me anyway that you wish... but u don't know me... so your views is NOT NEEDED... i pretty much enjoy what ever is going on in my life...

The answer is X

Put an (x) by all the things you've done.

(X) crashed a friend's car( it was just a little bum)
(_) stolen a car (my moms and ran into a garage)
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(_) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of your parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
(_) been arrested( I was raided once)
(_) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) skipped school
(x) seen someone die
(x) had a crush on one of your internet friends
(_) been to Canada
(_) been to Mexico
(_) been on a plane
(x) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(x) eaten Sushi
(_) been skiing
(x) met someone in person from the internet
(_) been moshing at a concert
(_) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(_) made a snow angel
(_) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up( it was a crazy nite... who the hell left girls clothes lying around)
(_) jumped into a pile of leaves
(_) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at school
(_) used a fake id
(x) watched the sun set
(_) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) slept beneath the stars
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed
(x) been misunderstood
(_) petted a reindeer/goat
(x) won a contest
(x) run a red light
(_)been suspended from school(almost)
(x) been in a car
(_) had braces
(x) felt like an outcast
(_) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had déjà vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
(x) liked the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(x) questioned your heart
(_) been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(?) recently colored with crayons ( i use paint does it count?)
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(_) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(_) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) danced in the rain
(_) written a letter to Santa Claus
(_) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach
(x) crashed a party
(x) gone rollerskating
(x) had a wish come true
(_) worn pearls
(x) jumped off a bridge
(_) ate dog/cat food(what was i thinking)
(_) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) kissed a mirror
(x) sang in the shower
(x) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something
(x) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
(_) kissed a fish
(x) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
(x) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x)talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night
(_) didn't take a shower for a week
(_) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house/club house
(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts
(_) have more then 30 pairs of shoes. (i wish)
(x) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
(_) gone streaking
(_) gone doorbell ditching
(x) played chicken
(x) pushed into a pool/hot tub with all your clothes on
(x) told you're hot by a complete stranger
(x) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
(_) caught a fish then ate it (after it was cooked)
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) cheated on a test
(_) have a Britney Spears CD
(x) forgotten someones name
(_) French braided someones hair
(x) gone skinny dippin in a pool
(_) been threatened to be kicked out of your house
(_)been kicked out your house