Hah? ape die?....

Kadang kale macam nak pecah kepale... memikirkan kenape??? ape die lagi? ape yang kau xpuas hati? kan kau dah kate benci.... so ape lagi?? sile lah pergi... xpayah lagi berhajat nak datang kembali... pade aku kau dah mati... beratus kad jemputan kau bagi.. xmungkin kau boleh harap aku akan pergi... kau x ingat dulu ape yg jadi? kau nak nanti jadi lagi? owh.. sorry... this is not for me.... biar kau pergi jauh... for sure aku xkan follow... ape yang sudah tu sudah... jangan kata sekarng baru kau nak ragu... tinggal lagi berapa minggu... sebelom kau jadi pengantin baru... tolong la and please lupekan aku... ape yg jadi antara kite tu dulu... aku memang buntu bile first time dapat tahu... tapi lepas tu... aku terima sebab semua ni Tuhan dah tentu... Rasional dalam pemikiran... ingat pesan aku... ingat ape semua yg pernah aku ajar pada kau dulu... InsyAllah... kau akan dapat ape yang kau perlu...

1st Day of 2weeks without her

Have you ever woke up one day and felt like your life is empty???
That is what i felt when i woke up today... I can't contact with her for 2 weeks...
it's a game in which the motive isn't very clear to me... it's not even a day yet...but i felt this much misery and suffering... but i respect her decision...

Woke up today and seems like my life is on a pause for two weeks... i kept thinking either what had been agreed last night was a dream or did it really happen...

A long the way to class... i kept thinking of her... more then i did on a regular basis... and even now I'm still wondering..
has she eaten...
did she woke up early to go to class...
did she sleep well last night...
is everything okey with her today...

I know its had just been a few hours since i heard from her last... and its quite pathetic to think of all of those things...

but my heart is missing something...
it's missing it's reason to bit...
wish that i could close my eye's now... and when i open it.. it would already be 2weeks...