Monday

Kisah 6 tahun dulu

Suatu hari dari 7 hari di Langkawi...

Aku: Mr. Mark... how do you end up here in Malaysia?

Mr. Mark: Well I've been travelling the world with my yard since I first bought it when I was 24...

Aku: How old are you now?

Mr. Mark: 26

Aku: So you spent 2 years travelling the world... wow... I'm sure you've been to a lot of cool places... but it must be lonely travelling alone...

Mr. Mark: Nope... not alone... I sat sail from Perth with my Girlfriend... Yeah... we've been around... Dubai, Egypt, Vanice, and all over Europe...

Aku: Wow... you must be a rich guy to be able to go places... it must be wonderful to travel around... and its more meaningfull to travel with someone you love...

Mr. Mark: Yeah... and No... I'm not a rich guy... I bought the yard from a friend... I fix it up good and decide to travel the seven seas...

Aku: What do you do for money? don't mind me asking...

Mr.Mark: Owh.. no.. not at all... I work... took any job that I could find... just like right now... and when we have enough money.. we travel to some place else...

Aku: I adore and envy you... you get to go places where I could only look at in pictures... one day... I want to be just like you...

Mr.Mark: hoho... you can my boy... but first you need to know your place...

Aku: My place? what do you mean?

Mr. Mark: To travel somewhere... you need to bring something from home... it doesn't mean a 'thing' but knowledge of your home... so that when you travel around and learn about other places, people and their culture.. you need to trade some or yours also... if not.. it would be embarrassing.. wouldn't it?

perbualan itu berakhir dengan Mark melukis peta Australia di permukaan pantai di salah sebuah pulau di Langkawi... die menceritakan tempat2 di Australia... dari malam tu aku berangan2 nak jadi macam die.... mengembara melihat dunia... antara kenangan 7 hari yang aku ingat sampai mati...

mungkin suatu haari nanti aku mampu buat semua tu... tapi mungkin bukan berlayar... aku nak terbang....

Saturday

BMX... HONDA EX5???

Just that day...
Before you went away…
I still remember what you say…
But now I can't even say hey...

I don't really believe in destiny
Because I think it was fate that brought you to me…
It may sounds like destiny…
Or it’s just something that is meant to be…

I don’t how or what I feel…
But deep inside it’s telling me that this is real…
I’m sorry to call you a third wheel…
The truth is you made me go heads over heels…

I don’t really know what you mean to me…
My fears made me blind that I can’t see…
I just don’t want to loose what you have with me…
I don’t want to be the enemy…

It’s been a while since I’ve heard from you…
I think it’s fair to say that I miss you…
Right now I just don’t know what to do…
Wish that everything would pull through…

A friend in need is a friend indeed…
You’re a friend that I really need
I’m sorry for all my wrong deeds…

Sunday

how can I NOT be emotionally disturb when...

I keep on loosing everything that i hold dear in my heart...

I had a bestfriend since i was 3... he was my first friend in this world... but I lost him when I was 18... the worst part is... he called me before he died... and we've made a promise.... I never did get the chance to finish that promise to him... I didn't had the chance to go to his funeral.... May Allah bless your soul Inn...

Then I've found another... she was great... the best I ever had... we shared everything... she could solve all of my problems without even saying a word... just being there for mw is comforting enough... then we become lovers... but it ends when she got married to another guy... what are the odds huh? I lost another bestfriend...

over the years.. I've gotten close to people... and create a special bond... but then they just somehow had to move away... because of family... because of work.. studies... and everything else to that matter...

so I thought that I should be friends with someone far away.. who knows maybe we could become closer and closer together.... U know... trying the reverse effect on my theory... but guest what... just as we become close... we drove even far apart....

the looser I am.... enough said