I've found what I'm looking for and I'm Happy.......

2010 is going to end soon… and it’s going to mark another chapter in my life… A year in KL… what a year it has been…

It started out slow… very slow… I had to accouter various hardships to get where I am now… well no successful yet… but stable… and Alhamdulillah it’s faster then I anticipated…

I’ve change to a better house… better housemates… better environment… and most of all… I can cook there… I spent my time reading books and learning to play the Guitar…

As of now… no one knows where I live… and that’s fine by me…

I’m not as lonely and bored as I was before… I got Ted… and friends to hangout on the weekends and weekdays… not that I don’t have them before… but it’s complicated enough to explain… just let it be…

Hurm… what I’ve discover lot’s of time this year… is that people can still find me via my phone number… well… I’ve been using the number for 8 years now… and from time to time… I still got calls from old friends… the good… and even the bad…

But soon… I’ll disappear… after one last thing that I have to do…

This is probably my last entry that most of you could read for this blog… soon after… maybe I change it… or even delete it… Thanks for those who had read all the crap that I’ve post…

Karangan Terbaik UPSR 2007

Karangan budak darjah 4







Pagi itu pagi minggu. Cuaca cukup sejuk sehingga mencapai takat suhu
beku. Sebab itu saya tidak mandi pagi sebab air kolah jadi air batu dan air
paip tidak mahu keluar sebab beku di dalam batang paip. Pagi itu saya
bersarapan dengan keluarga di dalam unggun api kerana tidak tahan sejuk.
Selepas itu emak saya mengajak saya menemaninya ke pasar. Tetapi saya tidak
mahu.

Selepas emak menikam perut saya berkali-kali dengan garfu barulah saya
bersetuju untuk mengikutnya. Kami berjalan sejauh 120 kilometer kerana
pasar itu letaknya 128 kilometer dari rumah. Lagi 8 kilometer nak sampai
pasar saya ternampak sebuah lori kontena meluru dengan laju dari arah
belakang.

Dia melanggar emak saya. Emak saya tercampak ke dalam gaung. Dia
menjerit “Adoi!”. Lepas itu emak saya naik semula dan mengejar lori
tersebut. Saya pun turut berlari di belakang emak saya kerana takut emak
saya melanggar lori itu pula. Pemandu lori itu nampak kami mengejarnya. Dia
pun memecut lebih laju iaitu sama dengan kelajuan cahaya. Kami pula
terpaksa mengejar dengan lebih laju iaitu sama dengan dua kali ganda
kelajuan cahaya. Emak saya dapat menerajang tayar depan lori itu. Lori itu
terbabas dan melanggar pembahagi jalan lalu bertembung dengan sebuah feri.
Feri itu terbelah dua.

Penumpang feri itu yang seramai 100 orang semuanya mati. Pemandu feri
itu sangat marah. Dia pun bertukar menjadi Ultraman dan memfire pemandu
lori. Pemandu lori menekan butang khas di dalam lori dia..lori itu bertukar
menjadi robot Transformer. Mereka bergaduh di udara. Emak saya tidak puas
hati. Dia pun terus menyewa sebuah helikopter di Genting Highlands dan terus ke
tempat kemalangan. Dia melanggar pemandu feri yang telah bertukar menjadi Ultraman itu.

Pemandu feri itu terkejut dan terus bertukar menjadi pemandu feri
semula lalu terhempas ke jalanraya. Pemandu feri itu pecah. Pemandu lori
sangat takut melihat kejadian itu. Dia meminta maaf dari emak saya. Dia
menghulurkan tangan ingin bersalam. Tetapi emak saya masih marah. Dia
menyendengkan helikopternya dan mengerat tangan pemandu lori itu dengan
kipas helikopter. Pemandu lori itu menjerit “Adoi..!” dan jatuh ke bumi.
Emak say menghantar helikopter itu ke Genting Highlands. Bila dia balik ke
tempat kejadian, dia terus memukul pemandu lori itu dengan beg tangannya
Sambil memarahi pemandu lori itu di dalam bahasa Inggeris.

Pemandu lori itu tidak dapat menjawab sebab emak saya cakap orang
putih. Lalu pemandu lori itu mati. Tidak lama kemudian kereta polis pun
sampai. Dia membuat lapuran ke ibu pejabatnya tentang kemalangan ngeri itu.
Semua anggota polis di pejabat polis itu terperanjat lalu mati. Orang ramai
mengerumuni tempat kejadian kerana ingin mengetahui apa yang telah terjadi.
Polis yang bertugas cuba menyuraikan orang ramai lalu dia menjerit
menggunakan pembesar suara. Orang ramai terperanjat dan semuanya mati.

Selepas itu emak saya mengajak saya ke pasar untuk mengelak lebih ramai
lagi yang akan mati. Di pasar, emak saya menceritakan kejadian itu kepada
penjual daging. Penjual daging dan peniaga-peniaga berhampiran yang
mendengar cerita itu semuanya terkejut dan mati. Saya dan emak saya terus
berlari balik ke rumah. Kerana terlalu penat sebaik saja sampai di rumah
kami pun mati. Itulah kemalangan yang paling ngeri yang pernah saya lihat
sebelum saya mati.

Few days left...

"Dont ask about my past... if you ever want to be in my future

Back then I was an outcast... I don't even know what I'm after..." CHZ...

I don't like discussing abount my past... I know what was there... what had happen along the way... I know it very well... no need to be reminded because I'm leaving each day in the shadow of my past... I'm a Cancer... we Cancerians have a melancholic emotions which fluctuate according to the positions of the stars... that's what makes us unpredictable...

Just after this year... I'll be reborn again... this time... it's not going to be like usual... I'm taking different and drastic approach to completely escape the dark shadow that keeps on following me each day...

You got Mail!!!

HI SHAHRILNIZAM


STILL WAITING FOR SCB LONDON AND
SCB HK TO STOP PAYMENTS.


Swarnalatha Kalathurai
Cash Management Services
Wholesale Bank Operations

Standard Chartered Bank Malaysia Berhad
Tel:
Fonenet
+(603) 2781 7077
+ 6001 7077
Email:
Swarnalatha.Kalathurai@sc.com
Address:
Level 13A, Menara Standard Chartered, 30 Jalan Sultan Ismail, 50250 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
Website:http://www.standardchartered.com.my



I like this email that I receive while doing my CAB for Bank Negara Reporting...
She use my real name... =)

Mencari Kesempurnaan Hidup

Kadang2 diri terlalu inginkan perubahan

lalu sentimen "mencari kebenaran dilaungkan"..

setelah puas segala kejahatan yang dilakukan...

Namun tak fahami apa sebenarnya yang diertikan kebenaran...

yang nyata didepan mata

tak selalunya boleh dipercaya...

ada saja isi tersirat disebaliknya...

sedarkan diri...

kita semua milik Ilahi...

dengan kuasaNya kita berada dibumi...

Dengan kehendakNya kita kembali...

tiada apa didunia yang benar2 pasti...

cuma yang kita ketahui...

yang pasti itu mati...

maka persiapkanlah diri...

sebelum waktu itu menghampiri...

mane tahu.. mungkin sekejap lagi...

My crap of the day...

I really need to filter my reading material these days...
Since my mind nowadays ealisy wonder... I always mix up saying something that's out of topic...
Here's what happen today...


I arrived at the office around 8.55 am... early then expacted... then Malar (my assistance manager) inform me that we're going to have a lunch meeting at 12pm with one of the team manager... and the vanue was in TGI Friday's... I hate going to these type of restaurant because the food there is hard to pronounce...


We went there a bit late around 12.45pm... and then we all start ordering... everyone's was ordering stake and stuff... I was looking for lasagna... but they don't serve that there... so I was thinking of taking pasta...
There's this one malay waitress that keep on looking since we all arrive... she was the one that serve us... and so.. while everyone was ordering.. I ordered my lunch:

Lady: "What do you wish to order sir ? "

Me: "I would like to order pasta"

Lady: "Which pasta sir?"

Me: (with a confident voice i said) " Shirmps and Dildo!" 

then I was like (what the F did I just said???) 

Me: "Err...er... "

Lady: (with a smile she corrected me) "Shrimp and diablo rite?" 

I just node my head and look away... luckly no one at the table listens  what i've said... it's between me and her... she left the table and I was relief...

When mu order arrive... she bring it to me and said "Here's your shrip and diablo pasta" with a naughty smile at me... I just smile back and let her be...

Note to self : Never again will I step my foot in Pavillion's TGI Fridays.....

Rahsia hati yang pasrah

 

Sukar terasa apabila…

Mulut dikunci dari berbicara…

Sedangkan hati penuh dengan cerita…
Ingin sekali meluahkannya…

Namun pasrah…

Masa silam…
Buat aku terdiam…
Tak mampu berkokok seperti ayam…
Lalu aku simpan dalam-dalam…

Hampir ku kecundang…

Mereka tak mungkin mengerti…
Walau diterangkan berkali-kali…
Tak mampu mengawal emosi…
Jika diketahui… perang pasti terjadi…

Biarkan semuanya…
Biarkan terpendam…
Biar sangsi walau nahtujahnya mati…

Let it be...

Malam tiba…

Mencari rasa yang sepatutnya aku rasa…

Tapi tiada…

Hilang… lenyap kesemuanya…

Cuba aku terkenang…

Cuba untuk aku bayang…

Menyeru rasa itu datang…

Namun kecundang…

Kesimpulan kepada semua erti…

Kau pergi…

Kau telah mati…

Tapi aku??? Releks & steady…

Cuba memberontak…

Tetapi Kecelaruan emosi…

Cuba buat-buat pekak…

Tetapi suara-suara sumbang didengari…

Hanya berharap pada waktu….

Bukan pada sesuatu yang bakal berlaku…

Tak mungkin lagi kau ku seru…

Kau sesuatu yang aku tak perlu…



Cartoons for you =)




(Untuk seseorang itu =p )



My December

Hurm... Last night I dream that i jump off a really high cliff with a parachute... can I cross No. 1 on my list?
does it count?

Wow... this year's December is the best December I had in years... the last I could remember... I had this kind of feeling in me is when i was just a little boy... (please anyone.. dont fuck up my December)

I was thinking about my future... wather to stay or to go... but God showed me to stay... and there's a really good reason for it...

I went to watch Malaysia beat Vietnam in the AFC Suzuki Cup formally known as Tiger Cup by 2 - 0... it was the best feeling to hang out with them... there's lots of activities to join... Paintball, snoker, dart, bowling... they got everything.. and my passion... hockey... I'm trying to get in the team now... hope by next year I could get in the field again... owh how I miss the Game...

I got my target set for next year.. but before that.. I want to accomplish as much as I can for this year...
may God Bless us all... amin...

The before 30's list

Lets reflect back on the list of things that I want to do before I'm 30...
I give myself  7 years to complete the below list... but I think I can accomplish half of the list by next year...
maybe you guys have a suggestion on what could I do... But, I'm adding another one on my list...

Status so far:
1. Sky Diving  (unknown)


2. Travel to a foreign country (next year to Brunei)

3. Bungee jumping ( later this month in Sunway )

4. Mountain climbing ( Unknown )

5. Fly a plane (Unknown... maybe never???  )

6. Learn to play the guitar ( in progress )

7. Scuba Diving (March or April next year maybe... looking for a good spot to dive)

I got one addition to do so far...
and no 8 is...

               

Owning this new CBR 250RR....

6 sen pun boleh gaduh...

Bile bercerita kat orang... memang kelakar la bunyi... tapi hakikatnya.. memang macam tu pun hari-hari yang aku lalui kat office nie... (6sen tu kire banyak tau.. yang gaduh pasal 1sen aku xcerita lagi...)

Hurm… Kesian si Kumar…. Bukan niat pun nak susahkan die… tapi dah tugas aku detect strange figure ngan outstanding figure dalam aku punya General Ledger… terpakse la plak… so berjawab lah ko ngan Encik Syed… tapi die ok what… xde pun pernah marah aku tgk…

Department aku nie Payment Centre… ade plak 6 team dalam department nie… Posting, CMS, ICP, STS, RETAS & Payments… masalah diorang nie… kalau ade hal kecik.. start la nak blame each other… bile dah jumpe root cause die… (siape punya masalah tu) haaa… mulelah nak email semua orang… xperlu kowt… tapi x semua yang macam tu… ade sorang je AO yg macam tu… tu pun satu kaler ngan kumar… what to do…

Aku kekadang rase bersalah ngan semua orang… sebab semua benda yg detectnya aku… dah aku Pegang GL hari2… tau lah semua benda yg orang wat… erm… Aku cepat belajar semua kerje… aku pun dah boleh cover 3 team… tapi aku rase nak chow dah dari sini… mgkn transfer tempat laen…

Sebab aku hilang semangat dah… semua sebab makhluk tu… if xde die… by now… 6 team dalam payment aku dah boleh cover… sebabkan aku lemau je nak g kerje or stay utk belajar aku Cuma dapat cover 3…

Tengok lah nanti rezeki macamane…

ONCE IN A WHILE... I DO NEED A TIME OFF FROM THE WORLD...

JUST TO SIT AT ONE CORNER... AND READ OR REMINSICE ON PAST AND CURRENT EVENT THAT HAD HAPPEN... 

IT'S MY WAY TO REDEEM MYSELF.... (WHAT'S LEFT OF MY SOUL AT LEAST) 

JUST SIMPLY BECAUSE I DESERVE IT... AFTER ALL THIS WHILE I DEDICATED MYSELF TO OTHERS...  

Morrison White Acoustic Guitar

Cooler Rite??

only got the chance to play with it for a limited time only... 

Ingat xkene tagg.. kene jugak - Happy ~ =)

Tengah sibuk stalk blog mereka2 nie.. tetibe jerk dapat tagg... yeay... thanks for tagging me...

THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
Friends kan bukan family... fuh~ selamat...
erm... lebih.. sangat lebih dari 3... pilih yg terbaik je la ye..

1.Aril ( homes and Friends in Uitm)
2.Farel ( needed a new charecter.. started from my final year in University)
3.Shahril ( Common name I was known back then in JB )



THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:

As if now... dateline for my work... each day... but hey isn't that timeline? (does it count???)
Mom & Dad's birthday
23/08/2008


THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:

Hangin out with ted
Learning to play the guitar
Able to sleep without and interfearance


THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS AS FOR NOW:

Just the Way you are - Bruno Mars
Pheonix - Fynn Jamal (introduced by a friend of mine... love the lyrics)
Better Man - Robbie Williams

THREE PERSONS (group) YOU MISS FROM THE PAST:

Arwah Nazril
Arwah Nana
Arwah Atuk & Nyayi

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE

Never really got any give that I could remember...
A gift from the heart will surpass any gifts...
A brand New shoe =)


THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:

Reading
Facebook-ing
Blogging

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATIONS:

Europe - want to imitate the film Euro trip =)
Beirut - The Girls there are hot
Dubai - To see the tallest building in the world

THREE MALLS YOU USUALLY GO TO:

Sungai Wang Plaza
Pavillion
The Curve


THREE FAVORITE DRINKS:

Air Suam
Teh O panas/Suam/ais
Apple / Manggo


THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:

good luck in knowing... I haven't bought a beg yet...

THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

Hot Pink
Brown
baby blue


THREE HANGOUTS:

Room
By the lake
anywhere with my buddies


TOP THREE FOODS YOU LOVE SO MUCH:

Lasagna
Double Special Chicken Burger with Cheese
My Mom and Grandma's cooking and my Dad's asam pedas... hurm.... hungry oledy...



TOP THREE FACES YOU LIKE:

Marion Caunter - She's the face i can't stop staring at...
Tedious Bear - you guys know who he is right...




THREE THINGS YOU'LL BE DOING TOMORROW:

Eh??? esk cuti lah.. awal muharam...
no 3 things... just 1... hurm... take that back... only 2...

1.hug ted
2.sleep ZzzZZZzzzZZZZ...



TOP THREE WHY YOU ARE BUSY AT THIS TIME

Doing this Tag
Replying quiry email from annoying chennai people
to many internal calls...

No 6 on the list is in progress...

After looking at the list… I was thinking of what that I could accomplish in the near future… I got 7 years to complete everything on the list before I’m 30… so I chose to learn and play the guitar since I got time to do that…

I was thinking of entering a class on the weekends… but after some advice from some friends… I change my mind… I could learn basic codes from the internet… but to be good I need a ‘sifu’…

I’ll get one next year after I move to my new house… just 1 month left… so why waste money on classes where I could get it for free…

Hope that by next year… I could join the boys for a ‘jamming session’……

What mumu would have said...

Mumu, I'm sorry about your friend. Hope you be strong and stop being gay...
please sctrach sherna when ever you can... thank you.

My Job and me...

In my line of work… I have to lease with people all over the region… most are from Chennai India, some from Hong Kong, some from Singapore… just few cases where I have to get in contact with people in the US and UK…


The methods of communication would be via mail or telephone…

Before this I only listen to Indra’s conversation… but nowadays since everything had been outsourced to me… I’m taking over 2/3 of the daily work… Even that I’m new here… I always manage to get things resolve quickly… or faster then she ever did…

At first I thought that it’s because I have good communication skills… don’t get me wrong… I got excellent communication skills…

The main reason is because the people I interact with are women… I got to flirt to get my job done… nice right… =)

Acoustic Pink Guitar =)

Cool rite?