So what if I'm single...

Just because I'm surrounded by beauty but chose not to acknowledge them doesn't mean that I'm Gay...

Your perspective and my perspective of beauty is different...

'Beauty is in the eye of the beholder..."

what matters to me is the beauty inside... that would last through an entire life... instead off beauty from the outside that would only last for a short period of time...

So i choose not to get involve just yet... I'm not ready... I'm not the type of person that would jump on to the next girl after a relationship ends... I respect my former paramour and of what we had...

so just back off from me.... I don't need you're advise to put me out of my misery...

Friends of the heart

Its nice to know that there are people that worried about my well being.... but worrying about my love life is another thing....

Whats wrong in being single??? there are just so many advantages there... I can go where ever I want... with who ever I want without worrying that I might hurt someone's feelings... Its nice for you to care... but really I'm okey... and yes I do sometimes get lonely... sad and depress... but you're there... to get me through all that dispare...

There are lots of reason why I stay this way.... just please don't say that i hate women and I gay... well.. it may look like it since I'm in a relationship on face book with a guy... but can't you really see... that's just sign of depression... frustration with all the fail relation I had previously before... I just don't trust people with my heart that's all...

Thanks for saying I'm a kind and nice guy... that's what they all said... but truly... I'm not... maybe i do deserve better.. or maybe I don't... what ever happen... I still got you as a friend... and that whats more important that me in a relationship...

ade soalan?? sile la tanya...

Hari ni orang tanya soalan yg same lagi....

well actually bile pikir2 balik.. aku pun x pasti... tapi sherna cakap aku terbaik sebagai kawan... tapi bukan sebagai teman.. mungkin betul kowt ape yg die katekan... sebab aku memang lebihkan kawan2... hahahaha... dan ye.. kawan aku lebih banyak perempuan... ape nak heran... sebab aku ikhlas berkawan...

lelaki pun ramai jugak... same banyak.. cume korang je yang xnampak... aku x heran dan aku dah masak... bile orang cakap belakang... yang aku nie lelaki hidung belang... biase la manusia... xpuas hati bile tgk orng lain ade lebih dari die... kalau die xde... orang laen pun xboleh ade same... bile orang kenal aku siape... dan tahu aku nie sebenarnya macamane... semua kata2 tu hilang dengan sendirinye...

yanadey pernah kate kalau aku jadi bf die... dah lame aku makan kaki die... sebab aku nie susah nak ramal. susah nak percaya... ramai perempuan keliling pingang... sorang pergi... tetibe lagi sorang datang... gf mane yang x bengang??? tapi orang slalu tersilap pandang.... suke sangat nak cakap belakang... orang cakap x kenal maka x cinta... ... tapi korang suke sangat nak tuduh membabi buta... macamlah korang tu sempurna... xde cacat... xde cela... sebelum nak mengata... pandang la cermin... and tgk la muke... pastu cuba korang tanya...

"Adekah aku nie sempurna... langsung xde cacat cela... dari peangai sampai paras rupe..?"...

kalau Ya... maka korang boleh la nak mengata... tapi nanti pandailah korang nak tanggung dosa...

its been two weeks now since the start of the semester... things are all moving fast... damn fast... well its always been like this... since i first arrive here few years back... just need time to adjust after a long break...

Today i was ask to give an idea on what topic to write... i was trying my best to think... but today... its pretty much been very hazy... i don't know whats going on with me... i think i still left myself back in JB...

Someone told me today that when she read my blog... she thought that i was someone who is serious all the time... but I'm exactly just the opposite...

Lots about me that people often misjudge... and i wish i could told them off.. and stop them from making assumption about me... but... its now my style... i believe in freedom of thinking... and something is just better left unsaid...

I'm happier this semester... but still the sense of emptiness is still there.... but not when i'm with Ted... He's been there for me... a good friend... he makes me smile each and every time... you'd be surprise to know who Ted is... well currently he's not with me.. his status is away... on a week vacation... that's just the thing... we never been a part for 7 years... and this is first time... but he's doing well... just chought a slight fever... but i know he is in good hands...

this is just getting weird and weirder for me... and i love it...