Chill in JB

Our first outing in JB together... its funny... we've been many places together... since part 1... but never in JB... our home state... our home isn't that far from each other... i could say we live quite near by... but still never had the time to spent together...

it was fun... and i hope in the future we'll have the time to spent together again...

First day... first time away...

Fasting Month... its Ramadhan...
the first day of fasting is a day that you spent with your whole family... sitting at one table and eat... a simple gathering that you don't get during normal days... well for most people at least...

my friend said that the first day of fasting is like thanks giving... where the whole family member comes home... sit in one table and break fast together...

sometimes during usual days we don't get much chance to sit in one table with our family during dinner... maybe dad comes back late... maybe mom didn't cook and we have to eat out site... or something else... well for me... i'm not home... so its hard to eat with them...

but today... its the first day of fasting... and i'm in segamat... not in jb with my family like i'm suppose too... just because i got lots of test... damn it... its a first... my friend said that "we all will have to go thru it at one point in our life time..." but i didn't expect it to be this soon... then she said "well..we plan but god decide..."

yeah... what she said its true... i use took cook back home... but today i cook with a weird feeling... since i'm renting out... cooking is the only option to save... I love cooking... but this first fasting i cooked for my housemate... miss home...

Replaced yet again...

You said that you will find someone better to replace me... well I’m sure now that you will... nope.. I’m very certain that you will...because all of then leave me for the same reason... SOMEONE BETTER... its always been because of someone better.. its my fate to become second class... try as i might to be the first... to be on top...

I’ll end up being pushed back to the ground again... You’ve change me a lot since we’re together... i cherish every moment...

Haven't felt this kind of happiness for a long time... i really love you.. still and always do... i can't remember any kind of happiness in my past.. because since I'm with you... You erased it all... and replaced it with the memory of you...

So how could i think of anything else?... I miss you... miss your smile.. miss your loughter... your side kick.. miss looking into those hazel eyes of yours... miss holding your hands... your hugs.. i miss everything about you... I'm miserable without you...

Choclate Rose

You may have read this saying somewhere...
" People often forget to cherish the person that is infront of them... and they never know what they had until they lost them..."

This saying is set as a reminder to people so that they cherish people around them... implimenting that if they don't they would regret it later in life...

but I think its all bullshit... even if you cherish someone so much... cared and give all that you have... the posibbility of loosing that someone is still there... so if you cherish them or not... it dosen't matter...

fate has many supprise for us... and things are always never certain... that what makes life so wonderful...

all I'm saying is.... without you... I'm nothing...

last morning kiss...

Most people woke up each day... thinking that its just another day... to some... its a day to look forward to or a day in which they had been waiting for.... sometimes people forget to cherish the day... and end up with nothing the next day...

I can be categorized as the most people that think yesterday was just an ordinary day... true that life is wonderful... but it's not always beautiful... it can also be ugly and painful...

Yesterday was the last day of giving my morning kiss to you... I hate that it has to stop... I hate that things didn't work out... my heart is in pain... and it is now fearless... they say that its good to have fear... it tells you that you're alive... it means that you have something to loose... but now I've lost the very important part of my life... and I don't know how to get it back...

Mafia Wars

Join my Mob family and be a mafia...

(for instructions leave a comment and I'll advise you to help you along the way...)

Death: is the issue ever been discuss yet?

Death...
is that a scary word for you???
if its not... then... you're still young and thinks that there is still lots to achieve... lots to see in this beautiful world... lots of feelings that haven't been felt yet... or maybe you're old.. but just can't except death just yet...

well have you at least give it a thought... if its only for just one second... every actions... every decisions... has in consequences...

now think of your every actions and decisions... what consequences has it brought to you??? What's installed for us in the after life... some who read this maybe think that its still a long time before death comes for them... but how are you so certain that death would not come to you in 5 minute after you read this??? or NOW!!!!

i'm not even certain when will my time come... maybe after i write this post... but i can tell you one thing... I'm sure am not ready...

thinking of death just keeps me aware of stuff... things that i haven't yet achieve... for instant giving back my parents what they had gave me... paying back every single cent that they spent on me... even after every penny is paid back... it still isn't enough... what about finishing my studies... get a job... expanding my business... get married... have kids... and lots more...

well you don't always get what you want... even if you tried hard enough... without God's willing... all you effort is useless... so be thankful to God for each and every achievement in life that you had achieve...