i think i lost it...

I'm i just playin' it dumb.... or being modest???

to let it all just happened in front of my eyes and do nothing about it...
even that i have the power to do so....

whats wrong with me???

has affection took control of me or is it fear of losing whats precious and being alone?
my mind is on a trance...

i think i lost it...

I'm so proud of her...

should i be or shouldn't i be mad...
when the one you love text you and call you to tell about someone else... telling you that she's concern about him... can't bare to see him that way...
even that i woke up this morning... the first text message that i receive was from her... not a morning kiss... but her concern about her friend...

isn't she so nice... and kind heart ed...
she's a true friend... willing to go a million miles to help a friend....

I'm so proud of her... really I am

A picture that i like to remember Sara by...

Maturity is in the state of mind...

mature and immature...

What characteristics defines it???...How could a person be define as matured...
Maturity has always been link with responsibility... if someone is responsible and knows his responsibility... does it mean that the person is already matured?... or does maturity has somethhing to do with age???

The older your get the.. the waiser you'll be... I guest that there is some logic to the statement that maturity comes with age... because age goes with time... over a particular period of time... many situations had been faced in life.. many decisions, many actions, had been taken to overcome a problem.. or to achive certain goal in life.... it doesn't matter is the decisions or actions taken is wrong...

but I wouldn't agree a 100% on the statement... because i've seen and mingle with people older then me... much older... and i can see that they can be childish at times... and for some... they are childish all the time... even so.. they still know their responsibility to themselves and their families... so does being childish considered as immature???

what exactly defined us as being mature and immature? I don't know about you... but to me... people will reach their maturity state... when the time comes... it doesn;t need someone to be older... life experiance can make someone mature faster then their age... and older people are matured.. but they sometimes chose to be childish and immature just to run away from the hustle and tustle of responsibility...

When the time comes... and they are strong enough to take on the responsibility... they'll get back to be matured individuals....

So my conclusion would be maturity is in the state of mind...

Tagged by her...

1. What are you wearing?
orange tshirt and short..

2. What did you do last night?
online n ym-ing with my boyfriend??.. huhuhu...

3. Favorite Memory with significant other?
Being hug in Danga Bay

4. Last gift received?
A converse shoe

5. Describe the last picture you were in?
picture of me and friends celebrating a friend's birthday...

6. Last thing you ate?
Mc D shaker fries...

7. Last thing you drank?
Coke

8. What kind of underwear are you wearing?
what pervert question ( miang)

9. What was your best vacation?
Melaka

10. What are you most looking forward to in the next vacation?
Hur,... if there is a next time...

11. What is happening around you?
People screaming while playing on9 games... crazy fuckers

12. What is your shoe size?
8 1/2

13. Last event you dressed up for?
Graduation Night Dinner... Baju melayu and songket

14. What is the most cheap thing you bought?
pocket knife

15. What is the most expensive thing you have on right now?
my glasses ( sherna gave it to me)

16. What is your favorite smell?
Ted...

17. Is there something you really want to buy right now?
hurm.... don'y think so...

18. What are your nicknames?
Shah, Rilril, Nizam, Zouk, Zoukriman, Zoukrudin and mostly i can't remember....

19. What are your plans for today?
Studying finance and account... and hopping for Miss Cokelat to cool down...

20. Describe your friendster picture.
picture of myself...

21. Describe your myspace picture.
me and my boyfriend?... (Girlfriend la.. )

22. Describe your facebook picture.
i dont have one..

23. What did you do last weekend?
last week?? hurm... either sleeping or studying...

24. Favorite brand of clothes?
Sports- Adidas, Nike
Casual- Converse, Seed,

25. What is your ringtone?
Silly Lilly- Bunk Face

Got it from Fharina....

JUN
* Berfikiran jauh & berwawasan.
* Mudah ditawan kerana sikap baik.
* Berperangai lemah lembut.
* Mudah berubah sikap, perangai, idea dan mood.
* Idea yang terlalu banyak di kepala.
* Bersikap sensitif.
* Mempunyai pemikiran yang aktif (sentiasa berfikir).
* Sukar melakukan sesuatu dengan segera.
* Bersikap suka menangguh-nangguh.
* Bersikap terlalu memilih & mahukan yang terbaik.
* Cepat marah & cepat sejuk.
* Suka bercakap & berdebat.
* Suka buat lawak & bergurau.
* Otaknya cerdas berangan-angan.
* Mudah berkawan & pandai berkawan.
* Orang yang sangat tertib.
* Pandai mempamerkan sikap.
* Mudah kecil hati.
* Mudah kena selsema.
* Suka berkemas.
* Cepat rasa bosan.
* Sikap terlalu memilih & cerewet.
* Kurang mempamerkan perasaan.
* Lambat untuk sembuh apabila terluka hati.
* Suka pada barang yang berjenama.
* Mudah menjadi eksekutif.
* Kedegilan yang tidak terkawal.
* Sesiapa yang memuji, dianggap musuh. Siapa yang menegur dianggap kawan.


*Green means YES
*Red means NO

It's not the end.. it's a start of something new...

few days back... I had dreamed of weird situations... I dreamt about my three best friends... most of it are about recent events that we've been thru together... maybe i kept thinking about all the things we've done together since the beginning of our friendship... a lot had changed this past three years... i even lost one of them... I'm sad that it had to end up this way... and keep thinking where did I go wrong...

maybe its fate... since fate brought us together in the first place... i guest it took us a part too... I'm going to miss you guys... a lot then words could ever been said or written... thanks for every smile, every loughter,every tears, every single thing... that make this three years of us here an unforgatble memory...

from the bottom of my heart... I would like to state my spology for every single thing i did wrong... I love you guys.. you're family to me.. my only hope is that this isn't the end of our friendship... but a start of a newchapter in our lives...

I pray for your success and happiness in life... best of luck in persuing your dreams... and always remember that I'll support you in anything that you do... I'm always here as a friend if you ever need anything...