Wednesday

A place I can call home


"A place where there are people who remember and think of you.... There is the place you can call home" Naruto said that... on my eleven hour studying for my last paper.... I'm not emotionally stable... in my mind at the time was mix feelings.... I don't quite understand it myself... I was feeling glad that it was finally over... but at the same time I feel sad... Leaving friends?? leaving the place?? Its just that, over the years... this place had been my home... friendship was born... memories were created.... I felt like I'm leaving a part of me... I just couldn't study... and so I went to sleep... hoping to get up in the middle of the night to continue... hopefully by then.. it will be okay... Then... the guys called... They were asking when will I be back... and everything that seems so blur before.. becomes clear... I'm not heading towards the end.. but a start of something new... A new chapter In my life now... but as i turn on the other pages... I would still remember what was the story about on the previous chapters...

Friday

Do I look Like I care???


Seriously.. get over yourself...
I don't like to live my life a fucking lie...
so... if I'm not happy.. why should I lie about it...

Get your head out of your ass will you...

Saturday

So what if I'm single...


Just because I'm surrounded by beauty but chose not to acknowledge them doesn't mean that I'm Gay...

Your perspective and my perspective of beauty is different...

'Beauty is in the eye of the beholder..."


what matters to me is the beauty inside... that would last through an entire life...
instead off beauty from the outside that would only last for a short period of time...

So i choose not to get involve just yet... I'm not ready... I'm not the type of person that would jump on to the next girl after a relationship ends... I respect my former paramour and of what we had...

so just back off from me.... I don't need you're advise to put me out of my misery...

You will dearly be miss

Grandpa past away...

I was shock and I don't know what to say... I got my final today.... but I went back last night anyway...

To see him for one last time... to give my last hugs and kiss....
to tell him that he would be dearly miss...

and old Chinese saying said:
" You wouldn't cry until you see the coffin"

I felt so much that I want to cry.... but tears just can't came out of my eye...
He look so peaceful... and as if he was just sleeping.... and it had me wonder was i dreaming...

But soon I saw grandma...

She was surprise that I came back... I held he hand and kissed it.. and give her a hug...
then is when I started crying... but just... just for a little while...

I spent 3 hours in JB... but the highway is the only part of JB that I could see...

Sometimes in life.... you've lost the one you love... but God has always a plan for all of us...

My only advice....

"appreciate the one you love while you still can... you never know that today might be your last time seeing them.... "

In loving memory of my Late Grandpa whom had just passed away
30 October 2009...

~Al-Fatihah~

Monday

Living or Leaving the past???


I've always live in my past.
Hoping that everything would last..
But everything just change so fast...
Without me knowing... I've become an outcast...

I guest I should just forget...
and continue living life without regret...
Since you only live once before you're dead...
I should take what ever chance I get...

But could i really say goodbye
and except that everything had gone to die...
to continue on living a lie...
so that my heart will no longer cry?

Sunday

I bother to stand the rush


Why should i consider... Why did I even bother?
What was done is something that I can't alter...
The decision is made and you still wonder...
Which is good and which is better....

I know where I stand....
I'm just a helping hand...
someone you could depend...
When all else comes to an end...

Shut up and hush....
What's up with all the rush??
Its just a bruise... a little gush...
I'll clean it up with a brush...

Kau sangat x patut...

F*** Malaysia? kau cari makan kat mane?




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