there's this one thing that i've been wanting to write about.. but haven't had the time to... well i did.. just that the last time i've spent half and hour infront of the computer skrin just wondering what to say... how to tell this story... its actually simple...
in the early days of me blogging... almost all of my blog entries is related to her... back then blogging is just the place that i needed so express what i've been feeling all this years since she left me... this story is about a girl name FARAH IZZATY... i wanted to put a picture of her... but i remember i've delete all the picture and burn everything 2 years ago...
but as i was going thru my files in my laptop... i discover there is another picture left of us... and looking at it... it had manage to took me back in my past and start thinking of her again... ( i've been trying hard not to think of her after the break up... it took me almost 3 years) suddently in an instand i reach for my phone and try to find out if i still have her number... well i did... and i call her up... she was supprise.... so we talk....
I was wondering why on that particular time i stumbel upon our old picture... and why i called her after almost a year and a half... what she had to say to me on our conversation had leave me.... well... i can't seem to find the right words to discribe it... davistated... dissapointed... shock.. indisbelive... speechless... try to take all those words and make it into one... that is what i felt...
She GETTING MARRIED.... yup... she is... This JUNE.... i find out 2 months before her wedding... when first i heard from her i lough... well i thought i lough... but instead... a part in me cried... the reason that i lought was not that i didn't believe her... it was because i had remember those days when we were we and together.... its true... first love is the hardest to forget....
I remember everything.... from our first date.... the place we use to go... our vacation... i was stupid enough to believe that we would last.. that we're different from anyone else... that what we had back then was pure and untouchable.... well we were young... and dumb... the one thing that i rememeber most was the wishing well... we both took a coin... and wish that we will forever be together and drop it in a wishing well...
i've been trying to see her.. asking that when could we meet... i don't know why.. maybe i wanted to meetup with her before she become someone's wife... but from all my tries... it never works out... its not that she don't want to... just that we're in different places thats all...
telling all this... you guys would ask the same thing as my girlfriend... do i still love her.... i told her (my gf) that if i'm with someone else rather then with her... i would say Yes i still love her... but I'm with her... and I love her so much... not just to say this because i want to win her... its the truth... after farah.. there's a bunch of girls.. but all fail the test.... and this one... doesn't even took the test and had already pass....
she lead me to love and trust again... and thank you Shareena Selamat....
I'm not going to the wedding... that's so ovious... Just a prayer that she lives happly ever after....
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