how can I NOT be emotionally disturb when...

I keep on loosing everything that i hold dear in my heart...

I had a bestfriend since i was 3... he was my first friend in this world... but I lost him when I was 18... the worst part is... he called me before he died... and we've made a promise.... I never did get the chance to finish that promise to him... I didn't had the chance to go to his funeral.... May Allah bless your soul Inn...

Then I've found another... she was great... the best I ever had... we shared everything... she could solve all of my problems without even saying a word... just being there for mw is comforting enough... then we become lovers... but it ends when she got married to another guy... what are the odds huh? I lost another bestfriend...

over the years.. I've gotten close to people... and create a special bond... but then they just somehow had to move away... because of family... because of work.. studies... and everything else to that matter...

so I thought that I should be friends with someone far away.. who knows maybe we could become closer and closer together.... U know... trying the reverse effect on my theory... but guest what... just as we become close... we drove even far apart....

the looser I am.... enough said