Miss Orange Specks

This is for you... u deserve this...

I can't remember wather I've said this before or not... but I think I didn't... I'm sorry...
truly... deeply sorry... for what had happen between us in the past... Please don't think that I left you because you're not good enough... The truth is... you are... a very wonderful person... kind and soft hearted... with a nice beautiful smile... your characteristics are the main reason why I fall for you in the first place...

Please be ensure that I didn't leave you for someone better... I just thought that you deserve better... much-much better then someone like me at the time... because I was a bad person. I'm not as smart as you... not well organize like you do... I was a total looser... and I know you deserve better... what we had was not a fake feeling... it was only because of my lack and poor judgement.

I'm sorry to have put you in such a place... I have no excuse for what I've done... leaving you for her is not the thing that I'm proud off. It only lasted for a while... my life at the time was not exactly the time I'm living now... I had people depending on me... and relationship was something for fun instead of commitment.

But I've change...

I know you know of my current situation... to hide it seems pointless... and u of all people should know...
I don't stole her from you... she's still your best friend... because she put's u first before me... I know u love her and don't want her to get hurt... especially by someone like me... but I'm not "me" like i was few years back...

She would be at ease if you let us be... because she care's bout you more... if anyone is to blame... it's me...
I charish friendship like family... she does too... you are part of her family... and I respect that very well...
hope that you'll find it in your heart to let us be us...