sudden bla... bla...

I can't seem to write anything for now.... my mind seems to be on a lot of things...
so my contents would be worthless for anyone's reading...

Mix feelings.... love,confius,miss,adored,bless... far away from ever feeling hate... I think that's a good sign... for its been a while since I felt hate... but still... what is this displeasure I'm feeling... why isn't there any satisfaction for what I'm doing.... why do I feel like I'm missing something...

The new year offers me a new start... I've took that opportunity.... and change what ever that is around me... including my personality.... I'm not changing into someone I'm not... I'm just bringing out the evil in me that people don't often see... and things started to suprise me...

Being silent and doing something is a lot better then being loud without getting anything done... I'm pleased in my current life as I found many that acknowledge my capability... and recognized me as somebody... not that previously I was a nobody.... it's just that in the past... people often mistaken my true personality...

well its my fault actually... I was the one that put my image of me in their minds that leads them to think of me with certain quality... when I acted differently... they freakout occasionally...


"people... don't be quick to drop your judgement on people"

Identity that defines me

I try to find that Identity
The identity that defines me
Who I am, not who I want to be
But it seems so impossible for me

I want so much to be good
That should be my attitude
But I always end up being bad
Because I often made people sad

What goes around comes around
But my Identity is yet to be found
It has left me feeling down
So far on the ground

I wish I'm not like this
I wish I could stop being psst...
I need to see a specialist...

Mimpi si pari-pari

Duhai si pari-pari...

Andainya tidur malam mu di hiasi mimpi...

Doaku ia mimpi yang terindah pernah kau alami...

Dan pabila tibanya waktu pagi...

Wajahmu tersenyum melihat mentari...

Agar duka semalam hilang...

Menjadikan kau lebih matang...

Bangkit dari perasaan kecundang...

Lalu semakin tabah menghadapi hari-hari mendatang...

Duhai si pari-pari...

Aku ada bila kau perlukan ku disisi...

Terus setia untuk menemani...

Hingga suatu hari nanti...

Aku tidak kau perlukan lagi...

♫♪♫ ♫♪♫ ♫♪♫

It starts with a magical night... thats was before all the fight... before we become so uptight...

Do you still remember that magical night?... Where the moon and the stars shines so bright... it's like being circled by a magical light....
When I held your hand as you stayed close by my side... I was walking blind and you were my guide....

As we were walking... and you keep on talking... My mind just block itself from thinking... because it could only understand one thing... you're the most beautiful thing...

You hug me close.. and rest your head on my chest... I was suprise ... my heart was beating fast... After a while.. I felt that this is something that would last....

Boy was I wrong... it ain't nothing like those love songs... we were together... but it was not meant to be forever... you said that it would be for the better... and in an istant... everything is over...

I guest that I'm to blame... as I'm the one that brings you shame...
I was from the wild and not easy to tame...

It's not that i dont love you no more... I love you enough to let you go...
I could never love another as I love you... because that type of love is only when I was with you...

I treatend to be in regret.. but the truth is I can never forget...
you wipeout my past and created a future.. made me believe we had a life together... But it didn't happen as planned... and now I'm nothing but just a man... you've erase me like I was some mistake on paper... where you could rub it off later...
and so now I except my fate... that I'm the one you hate... for me to be dead to you would be great...

When you look around... and I'm no where to be found... you know you're on your own.. because I'm already gone...

From the news in Yahoo...

After watching the anti-Christ documentation.... I watch another documentation... called 7 sign of apocalypse.... not to scare people... just for you to realize there's something more powerful out there... The world will come to an end as been foreseen in the Holly Quran, The bibble, and any other religious books....

MOSCOW – Russia's space agency chief said Wednesday a spacecraft may be dispatched to knock a large asteroid off course and reduce the chances of earth impact, even though U.S. scientists say such a scenario is unlikely.

Anatoly Perminov told Golos Rossii radio the space agency would hold a meeting soon to assess a mission to Apophis. He said his agency might eventually invite NASA, the European Space Agency, the Chinese space agency and others to join the project.

When the 270-meter (885-foot) asteroid was first discovered in 2004, astronomers estimated its chances of smashing into Earth in its first flyby, in 2029, at 1-in-37.

Further studies have ruled out the possibility of an impact in 2029, when the asteroid is expected to come no closer than 18,300 miles (29,450 kilometers) from Earth's surface, but they indicated a small possibility of a hit on subsequent encounters.

NASA had put the chances that Apophis could hit Earth in 2036 as 1-in-45,000. In October, after researchers recalculated the asteroid's path, the agency changed its estimate to 1-in-250,000.

NASA said another close encounter in 2068 will involve a 1-in-330,000 chance of impact.

Don Yeomans, who heads NASA's Near-Earth Object Program, said better calculations of Apophis' path in several years "will almost certainly remove any possibility of an Earth collision" in 2036.

"While Apophis is almost certainly not a problem, I am encouraged that the Russian science community is willing to study the various deflection options that would be available in the event of a future Earth threatening encounter by an asteroid," Yeomans said in an e-mail Wednesday.

Without mentioning NASA's conclusions, Perminov said that he heard from a scientist that Apophis is getting closer and may hit the planet. "I don't remember exactly, but it seems to me it could hit the Earth by 2032," Perminov said.

"People's lives are at stake. We should pay several hundred million dollars and build a system that would allow us to prevent a collision, rather than sit and wait for it to happen and kill hundreds of thousands of people," Perminov said.

Scientists have long theorized about asteroid deflection strategies. Some have proposed sending a probe to circle around a dangerous asteroid to gradually change its trajectory. Others suggested sending a spacecraft to collide with the asteroid and alter its momentum, or hitting it with nuclear weapons.

Perminov wouldn't disclose any details of the project, saying they still need to be worked out. But he said the mission wouldn't require any nuclear explosions.

Hollywood action films "Deep Impact" and "Armageddon," have featured space missions scrambling to avoid catastrophic collisions. In both movies, space crews use nuclear bombs in an attempt to prevent collisions.

"Calculations show that it's possible to create a special purpose spacecraft within the time we have, which would help avoid the collision," Perminov said. "The threat of collision can be averted."

Boris Shustov, the director of the Institute of Astronomy under the Russian Academy of Sciences, hailed Perminov's statement as a signal that officials had come to recognize the danger posed by asteroids.

"Apophis is just a symbolic example, there are many other dangerous objects we know little about," he said, according to RIA Novosti news agency.

Life right now seems so harsh...
I keep on telling myself to look on the bright side....

But after awhile.... I can't seem to see the light..everything seems so dark....

I can't even make myself happy...

Wajah cerianya

Dalam hatinya terbitlah resah
Kerana itu perasaannya sentiasa gundah
Mempelajari bahawa hidup ini bukanlah mudah
Namun kehidupan merupakan anugerah yang indah

Hari berganti hari
Namun tiada apa yang mampu dinikmati
Seolah-olah hatinya telah mati
Kerana itu die memilih untuk menyendiri

Aku cuba untuk dekat padanya
Cuba untuk menghidupkan hatinya semula
Mengukir senyuman diwajahnya
Agar die mampu kembali gembira

Apakan daya aku manusia biasa
Walau dengan pelbagai cara
Tiada apa yang dapat menawan hatinya
Seakan tiada yang mampu mengubat dukanya

Namun tidak ku merasa kecewa
Tetap juga aku meneruskan usaha
Mengembalikan keceriaan bukan saja diwajahnya
Tetapi menyembuhkan luka dihati sepenuhnya