Identity that defines me

I try to find that Identity
The identity that defines me
Who I am, not who I want to be
But it seems so impossible for me

I want so much to be good
That should be my attitude
But I always end up being bad
Because I often made people sad

What goes around comes around
But my Identity is yet to be found
It has left me feeling down
So far on the ground

I wish I'm not like this
I wish I could stop being psst...
I need to see a specialist...