Monolog in my head...

I got lots to think about... but it seems like I don't have the time to think about it... don't have any real mood to think... seem to have lost my apatite to think really... I felt demotivate to think... just live on everything that happens each day as it goes...

I hate to be this way... this would be the time that I would do lots of stupid things...  and end up saying "what the fuck did it do that for?" or "what just happen... is this me?"

At this time I can't think much and would say just about anything wather it makes sense or not...
let's just do it now...  let it all out.. its better out then in right??...

First- Why is everybody hustling me to go for the Gov job... it's not certain that i could get the job or not... it's easy.. yeah... but fuck... I don't like to work with the Gov.. Been there.. done that.... BORING!!!!~

Second- maybe I should take the Gov post... then I'll be posted anywhere... be further away... someone might just got what they wish for... I'm gone...

Third- KD.. what's wrong with you??? how many time do i need to come and see you regarding my acceptance of resignation letter? let me leave in peace will you... you got your cost saving when I'm gone... and i leave you with a pet (indra)

Fourth- Indra... i think it's a bit to late to be nice to me now... you're actually scaring me... and I know u talk behind my back and tells bad stuff about me... but guest what... people know how i work and what type of quality i bring with it... so fuck yourself on that...

Fifth- cokelat... don't be mad if you're being call a bitch... think back... and reflect on your actions... maybe you are one... if you're wondering why i hate you... it's simple... because you are you... glad you're gone... hope to never see you ever again...

Sixth: ASShira- i prefer to call you by your name... i don't fucking care... just to tell the world you're a fucking whore... don't ever tried to call... hope you've lost my number... remember why you call and cry when that horrible thing happen to you.. you ask me why people do things to you and you don't have any friends??? a damn whore like could never learn why... maybe you'd change one day... but don't came and tell me that... i don't care a fuck... even your name start with an ASS...

Seventh: FUCK!!! FUCK!!! FUCK!!!!

now that surely felt good... letting it out...
feels better already...

Anyone please....

I love when you said that you don't think I belong to your world because you don't think I'm the type of person like you... you think that I wouldn't fit into that community... seriously I love it... That's a challenge to me... It's been awhile since I've been challenge... been look down at... i feel great...

Thanks for putting some excitement in my life... well since I'm with you... everytime is a new excitement... for that seriously I thank you... but I hate ur xperia... you neglected me and everybody around because of it... but it's ok... later on when ur bored with it... you'll be back to normal i hope... 

We have the funniest couple fight ever... seriously... I never had that experiance before... I dunno if you do... but I love it...  coz we end up laughing or hugging in the end... 

I'm a better person because of you... because you never tried to change me... I change willingly... for that I thank you. Anyone.. please kill me if I ever hurt her...  

Harta Pusaka Nenek

Setelah sekian lama di perantauan akhirnya Rahmat pulang ke kampung untuk berjumpa dengan neneknya.

Nenek : "Rahmat, nenek sudah tidak kuat lagi, nenek minta kamu sambung mengusahakan kebun nenek..."

Rahmat : "Jangan cakap macam tu, nek..." (dalam hati, tak sia-sia aku balik kampung... dapat pulak harta pusaka nenek).

Nenek : "Segala isi perkebunan, ternakan, villa, traktor untuk kamu. Tolong jaga baik-baik, jangan lupa disiram tiap hari tanaman nenek."

Rahmat : "Baik nek, nenek jangan bimbang tentang hal itu... Tapi dimana kebun nenek? Rahmat tidak pernah tahu?"

Nenek : "Di Facebook nenek, FARMVILLE, nanti nenek bagi tau passwordnya."

Rahmat : "?????"

Hikayat seorang pria...

Suatu masa dulu... pada waktu itu... pabila siang bagaikan malam... lagu berirama gurindam... mengalir darah luka dimana tidak terlihat oleh mata... hanya pada yang merasa...   mengetahui perit sengsara ditinggalkan cinta... tersembunyi ia didalam dada...


Hanya yang ada... cuma sepi... Sepi sendiri mengenangkan nasib sendiri... menyalahkan takdir, menyekat akal dari berfikir... hikmah itu ada disebalik setiap kejadian... hilang sebentar segala pedoman... yang datang cuma kiasan cebisan kenangan sewaktu bersendirian...


Datang rasa benci sebentar pada berlawanan jantina... setiap dari mereka semuanya salah... disangkal oleh akal berbeza namun tetap berjuang menentang... tidak mahu kalah... kerana hatinya masih lagi berdarah... masih pekat berwarna merah... mana mungkin dia akan menyerah...


Hari beganti minggu... namum masih lagi begitu... masih berpegang pada ideologi yang satu... kesemua mereka adalah jahat-jahat berlaka... mahu sahaja kesemua mereka dihantarnya ke neraka... agar mereka ketahui bagaimana perit dan sengsara yang berkubu didalam hatinya...


Dari minggu kepada bulan hinggakan tahun... kemarahan itu reda setelah hampir 36 purnama... semuanya berubah apabila............  

Tidak kita ketahui
Apa mungkin yang akan terjadi
Apa yang akan ditempuhi
Bagaimana kita akan diuji

Seperti kita yang tidak dirancang
Ia datang tanpa diundang
Diawalnya kita bimbang
Namun bersama, kita tenang...

Kau risau dengan caramu
Risau dirimu membuatkan ku buntu
Sedangkan risau itu tak perlu...
Apa Sahaja Dirimu... itulah aku...

This will expire on the 22nd of April 2011.

If I live up to 100 years...

I would do the same on my 100 birthday =)