Monolog in my head...

I got lots to think about... but it seems like I don't have the time to think about it... don't have any real mood to think... seem to have lost my apatite to think really... I felt demotivate to think... just live on everything that happens each day as it goes...

I hate to be this way... this would be the time that I would do lots of stupid things...  and end up saying "what the fuck did it do that for?" or "what just happen... is this me?"

At this time I can't think much and would say just about anything wather it makes sense or not...
let's just do it now...  let it all out.. its better out then in right??...

First- Why is everybody hustling me to go for the Gov job... it's not certain that i could get the job or not... it's easy.. yeah... but fuck... I don't like to work with the Gov.. Been there.. done that.... BORING!!!!~

Second- maybe I should take the Gov post... then I'll be posted anywhere... be further away... someone might just got what they wish for... I'm gone...

Third- KD.. what's wrong with you??? how many time do i need to come and see you regarding my acceptance of resignation letter? let me leave in peace will you... you got your cost saving when I'm gone... and i leave you with a pet (indra)

Fourth- Indra... i think it's a bit to late to be nice to me now... you're actually scaring me... and I know u talk behind my back and tells bad stuff about me... but guest what... people know how i work and what type of quality i bring with it... so fuck yourself on that...

Fifth- cokelat... don't be mad if you're being call a bitch... think back... and reflect on your actions... maybe you are one... if you're wondering why i hate you... it's simple... because you are you... glad you're gone... hope to never see you ever again...

Sixth: ASShira- i prefer to call you by your name... i don't fucking care... just to tell the world you're a fucking whore... don't ever tried to call... hope you've lost my number... remember why you call and cry when that horrible thing happen to you.. you ask me why people do things to you and you don't have any friends??? a damn whore like could never learn why... maybe you'd change one day... but don't came and tell me that... i don't care a fuck... even your name start with an ASS...

Seventh: FUCK!!! FUCK!!! FUCK!!!!

now that surely felt good... letting it out...
feels better already...