Third Reason for lying

When ever my friends has a problem that is associated with their feelings… I always know what words to say to comfort them… to make them feel better… to make them feel someone still cares… I am sincere with my words… but I can’t say in each and every word… sometimes you need to say what people want to hear… that’s the only way to make them feel better… and yes… sometimes… it involve lies… lying for a good cause… is that a crime??? If you don’t like somebody but you pretend to in front of them… that’s a lie to right??? That could be categorizes as hypocrite… as I say, everyone is a hypocrite… even if they don’t admit it… I this story I could say that I sometimes am a hypocrite…

What goes around comes around… as the saying goes… I lie to comfort people and end up being lie to… just to comfort me… but I realize that… it doesn’t comfort me when I found out the truth… nobody likes to be lie too… they feel dumb when being lie upon… and now I know that all these while trying to comfort people is just adding to their misery by telling lies…

Kiki told me that talk is cheap… at first I go against her point of view… saying that is it a crime to help someone feel better??? Can you blame someone for trying to help you feel better??? But then I discover… a little lie can lead to a big thing… and Kiki, I’m sorry for my comment on your blog post…

Mr. Lova Lova wrote about lying… he said everyday people lie… but he never said the reason why… why people lie… from my point of view… people lie for two reasons… for a good cause and for their own selfish greed… then again… maybe there is a third reason… in which I haven’t discover… well who knows… maybe someone reading this has the third reason…

Colours That Define... Life and Death

You come again… after so many years…
You finally appear…
But this time… you come to me with a different colour…
Are you the one that I desire???
Or are you just here to make my life better???

Today I look again at your picture…
It’s not the same… but I beg to differ…
How could I put up with this any longer???
I thought that I’ve become stronger…

To lose you was devastating…
I had kept me wondering…
After we have shared everything…
Suddenly you went missing…

When I knew that you were gone forever…
And leave me to a place here after…
I was very shock to discover…
That it’s all over…

I’ll pray that you’ll be in a better place…
A place where you’ll receive grace…

Rest in peace my beloved friend,
Our friendship will never ever end…

P/s: In the memory of my best friend and cousin…
-Al-fatihah-

Sorry Mr Dog

Since I didn’t bring my broadband to Segamat… I have to walk to the nearest cyber café to post my blog and to check some mails… after about two hours of surfing the net I decided to went home…

After I walked out of the cyber café, I decided to smoke… but I didn’t bring my cigarette pack… I went to a stall near the cyber café… and bought a pack of Dunhill 14’s… after I light up my cigarette… I continue walking home… I was walking and smoking and text messaging at the same time… but still my eyes were focusing on the road… just before I start replying my text message… I saw a black dog in front of where I was going to walk… but I didn’t pay any attention to it… I kept on walking and past the black dog…

Just after I past the black dog… all of a sudden… a big brown dog was behind me… it was barking at me… I turn around and see its sharp teeth… it was growling and barking and was about to attack me… but I was not afraid… had some experience with dogs like that… so I just mind my own business and keep on walking… suddenly that dog took a bite of my left leg… most probably because it was piss off because I didn’t pay any attention to it… after it bite me… I turn around and give it a David Beckham “free kick” special… I kick the dog right on its face and half of its body…

The poor dog was flying in the air… this I don’t shit you… it really happened… after that it ran away… I was mad at the dog for biting my leg… but at the same time I felt sorry for kicking it… Sorry Mr. Dog… I didn’t mean to kick you that hard… well at least you know that you wouldn’t dare to mess with me again…

I think I should see a doctor about this bite… its not that serious… just a scratch… but my friend suggested that I go… maybe tomorrow… lets just hope that I don’t turn into a werewolf tonight…

Boys night out !!!

I just got back for the semester break... i wanted to relax at home... but the boys ask me out... its been a long time since i went out in JB... it was fun... lots of things change... i was glad that i went out that night... the new flyover had finally finish... the road now is all twisted and twirling... anyway... we had fun that night... here are the pictures that we took...

Once... when we were we..

I've shared lots of stuff in my blog, so why shouldn’t I tell my story of you??? This is probably the last picture I have of us… since I burn all the others… remember this picture??? It’s the first time we go on a date outside of JB…

Why I choose to tell the story now??? The reason is simple… I never did get over you… 10 years we were together… we grew up together… from friends then you’ve become my number one enemy… remember all the fights we had when we were kids??? I still remember the time you chase me in school just because I pull your hair… you were the track and field star back then… but try to catch me now… I’m much faster now… hahaha… remember the time when you push me down the stairs??? I fell and sprain my ankle… but you were the one that was crying… we had many fights since I confess that I like you when we were in primary 4…

Later when we get older… we chose to forgive each other… and become friends… without us knowing… we’ve become closer to each other… and we become bestfriends to each other… a year past and we finally become lovers… well at least one of my dreams in life came true… and that dream was you… I thought that you had the same dream too… I guest those 4 years that we were together had made you see other dreams in your life… Can I blame you for having a dream??? No I can’t… as much as it was painful to except that you are leaving… I let you leave me… someone said that “if you love somebody you learn to let go, if she comes back to you then she’s yours…” I think that, that phrase is not finish… I would say that “if you let go and she comes back… she’s yours… that is if you want her back…” I love you… had always love you… but never could I except you back… why??? The answer lies within you… its not as simple as just forgive and forget… you and I know that…

And now you have been replace… maybe she’s not as perfect as you… and you think that too… but to me she’s perfect… more that you could ever be… love to me is abstract… its never to be understood but to be felt… so don’t think that I can’t make it without you… even thought that I haven’t gotten over you… I’m still trying to… so far she’s helping me to forget you… but hey… no worries… could anyone truly forget their first love??? I’m still here as a friend… and that is all we’re ever going to be to each other…

Reverse suiside

how can u say u love me... but in your heart u don't... how could u say u miss me... but in your mind is someone else... each time we spent together... dosen't ever seem to matter... and you call yourself my lover??? what is all this fucking bullshit???



do you know how i feel when i miss you... when i need you... but u don't care... its always about u.. when will it be about me??? when will i finnaly see that you never love me... why am i keeping myself blind... its all because of a stupid feeling i have for you called LOVE...

I fucking hate your stupid lame excuse... " its not you.. its me.. " yes it is you... from the fact that i know that... its still a FUCKING excuse just so that u dont feel bad... i still feel that pain... for years... and years to come...

How do you manage to sleep at night... after doing the things you do... ????

21 questions

1) Single, Taken, or Crushing?
- No longer available

2) Are you happy with where you are?
-i'm home... hell yeah i happy

3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast?
-Nope... hard to fall... i keep my stand

4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
-the spelling of heart broken doesn't match the no of times

5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where if they cheated on you and you are planning to dump them then
- i'm the one that always being dump... and always gets cheated... so... i got no idea how to answer this question...



6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
-they all comes back... i'm the type that looks to the future... whats in the past is just a reminder of things to come... so i'll say a big NO!!!


7) Have you talked about marriage with another person?
-its a scary question to ask about... i just turn 5...


8) Do you want children?
-Duhh... yeah...

9) How many?
-A whole football team.. hahaha..

11) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think is a cool way to let you know?
-flirty at ten thirty????

12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get?
-obviously :))

13) Do you want someone you cant have?
- ya, she's married to dato' K .... bummer... : P


14)Do you believe love at first sight exists?
-i'm short sided.. so can't see it until it hits me on the head... hahah

15) Do you believe in celebrating anniverseries?
-definately :)

16) Do you think you can change someone?
- i can but i just adore u the way u are. no need to change u.



17) If you could get married anywhere, where would it be?
-in space... that would be cool.. hahaha


18) Do you have feelings for someone right now?
-yeah...


19) Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you couldnt?
-never :))


20) Have you ever broken a heart?
-refer to question no.4 & 5


21) Would you ever fight over a guy/girl?
=of course not.

let them fight over you ! hahaha