Once i was told that everybody got something that they had to leave behind... but what ever that i leave in my past... always has a way of coming back into my life... just when i least expected...
as a kid i was trouble... got involve with so much trouble just because i was lonely.. trying to get attention so that people would acknowledge my exsistance... things i did that i was never proud of... that i thought has become my scars... now it seems that my old scars are starting to bleed again....
i saw in a medical show once... the doctor said to the patient that when you hear voices in your head... you can be diagnose with skyizsofreania... in other words you could go insane... i have a multi character inside of me... i could be just about any type of person i want to be... base on my surrounding, situation and type of people im with.... i keep changing constantly... just in a split second... some come up to me and say that i have an innocent face... but i know its all nonsense...
that all change when i meet her... for once in how long i cant remember... i become just a person... i've become normal... because i was loved... she made me realize who my true self is... when ever im mad, sad, or going to be bad... just the tought of her calms me down in an instant...
there's a saying... what goes up must eventually comes down... so does for every good thing must come to an end... why is it there is always a saying in everything..
4 years it lasted... and that is what forever meant to her... well i was too ambitious thinking it would last forever... if NOTHING last forever... then i just want NOTHING....
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