Bahagi bahasa sama rata...

Masalah... aku mmg masalah... bile kerje dengan foreign company... dah tentu english is the prime method of communication... aku tak kesah... suke sebenarnya... sebab kat sini je aku tak nampak pelik bile cakap english...

Orang yang rapat ngan aku... tahu... bile aku nervous... tak puas hati... aku akan banyak cakap dalam english dengan orang tu... walaupun dalam msg... aku rasa macam lebih senang nak luahkan sesuatu dalam hati ngan fikiran aku... bukan nak belagak 'mat salleh' aku JAWA je wey... cuma dari terbiase dari kecik...

erm... malas aku nak cerita pepanjang... report banyak lagi nak wat nie... reason entry nie sebenarnya nak cerita pasal PA meeting dengan big boss tadi... punya la terang and panjang explanation aku pasal reporting tadi... sekali die cakap melayu ngan aku... memula mix lah melayu ngan english... bile dah fully melayu... aku tergagap lak tadi...

ayat yang betul " Report yang saya buat hari-hari akan ada tanda tangan saya sebelom saya hantar kepada Jesvinder"

ayat aku " Report yang hehari saya... err... yang ade singnature saye... erm... I make sure I've sign each report before passing on to Jes"

gile tak boleh cari ayat... kamus melayu dalam kepala off kejap... huhuhu...

Sepatah dua kata

bila bersama aku seakan lupa...

sepertinya terhenti waktu dan masa

bukan bahagia yang dirasa...

tapi selesa bersama...

tak pernah terwujud

dalam angan

tak pernah terlintas

dalam fikiran

ada dia

yang datang

tanpa tau asal tujuan

mungkin suratan...

mungkin jua telah tertulis dalam perjalanan kehidupan...

tiap satu persoalan pastikan ada jawapan...

cuma kebijaksanaan diri yang mampu menguraikan...

telah sepuas daya

menolak

menafikan

menjauh

tapi tetap

ia masih tetap

mendekat

datang

dan sepertinya

menetap

Bagaimana bisa aku menjauh...

dengan pandangan dan semyuman yang kau berikan..

membuat aku rapuh...

lenyap mentaliti yang sebentar tadi inginkan kau pergi

dengan semua aku menidakkan engkau

kerana apa yang aku kenal

engkau seorang yang sukar

tapi setelah bersama

aku sendiri bingung

apakah perlu aku terus cuba melenyapkan kewujudan engkau

atau perlu aku berterus terang

pada dunia

yang bahawa

engkau terlalu payah untuk di tidakkan

apa yang ku tertarik bukanlah rupa... tidak pula pada kata-kata...

tapi pada sekeping jiwa

jiwa yg punya persamaan...

yang mengerti erti keperitan...

pembelotan... harapan... kepayahan dan kepenatan...

yang lesu dipermainkan kalian...

dan kiri berharapn pada perubahan...

tapi kau juga bingung

kita sendiri

bingung

yang aku harap

pemberi lindung aku itu

bukan engkau

bukan engkau yang aku kenal dari dulu dulu

dan bila keberadaan engkau

disisi

aku hilang dari dunia realiti

Freedom for bloggers....

Blogging is something that is more and more popular these days...

Some treat it as a weapon to spread propaganda… some use it to spread the truth… but… for most of us… we use our blog as a diary to express our feelings… This is actually a gift from Tun Dr Mahathir for Malaysian when he came up with an idea to launch MSC in Cyberjaya on 10th November 1997…
I treat my blog as my personal space to express any of my thoughts and feelings… but what will happen if one day… you can’t write what you want to write… can’t express what you want to express... because what ever you write is actually being monitored by secret eyes… and every wrong word or statement even that it’s the truth... will get you in trouble…
Those secret eyes already exist… weather you are aware of it or not… but no worries… you’re safe if you only talk about people who don’t matter much or at all to others…
There’s no actual freedom in anything actually…
What I hate the most is to be deleting my blog post… note this… for the people that had made me delete my post out of respect… or what ever the reason is… I hate you… just because… no other reason is needed

"THE SIMPLE THING TO FORGET IS TO REALLY LET GO AND MOVE ON.... 


BUT TO REALLY FORGET... YOU MUST FIRST LEARN TO FORGIVE... 


ONLY THEN CAN YOU MOVE ON.... LIFE IS TO SHORT TO KEEP THINGS HOLDING YOU BACK FROM ACHIEVING YOUR FULL POTENTIAL..."


thank you stranger for that advice... I'm a bit pig headed when it comes to hearing advices... but yours are just perfect... 

Dear God...

Please spare my Grandma's life... give her health, provide her safety, and prolong her life...
heal her diesis... get her back to her pink health...

You've taken Grandpa last year... and we miss him so dearly... 

Please God... I haven't done loving her... 

Amin...

just undecided...

Is it possible... to do the unbelievable...

There's always a chance... If you don't look at things in a glance...
Now I wonder... what is it exactly that i'm after... Life, love, career???
for now I don't really have an answer...


You left me... and he was laughing at me... because you're with him...
after all that I'd suffer... what's left is only grim....
on my face.. in my heart... the pain of being apart...

Then after 4 months... you said you never went away...
it's me who was far... are you seriously sain?
your tears... they're only lies...


I have choices in my life now... not that I don't when I was with you...


it's simply because... I've decided... and I turn off those options I have...

Now... its a new book... I'm off the hook... feeling fresh and revive...
after you put me thru hell... I manage to survive...

I except the pain with you as my karma...
for what I've done in the past to others...

but possimpabble is nothing and everything...


just undecided...

It's not the same...
Not like the first time you came..
Have you no shame?
After what you've said and what you've claim?

You may cry...
But I know that it's a lie...

Looking back...
Would only get me of track...
You have been sack...
Accept that as a fact...

You fail to appreciate...
You've build up hate...
When you fail to dictate...
You start to hesitate...

You will always be you...
Someone who always gets screw...
Because you don't know how to be true...
I'm sorry... but I can't no longer help you...