At some point in life...
everybody gets into trouble... it's how the individual takes it... either to take it as a challenge or freak out...
but believe me... eveyone does freak out when it comes into certain types of problem...

I've encounter countless problems before... and I only freakout on serious issues... once I freakout about it... my mind would be in a irrational state of mind... and inproper actions are made...
Just like my current situation...

What have I done... its something that I can't be proud off... but it had to be done for the sake of my survival... of only I could share some of it here... but it would offend many people here... for now I've recognize my enemies and so call friend... no one is that true to a person since its something that is very much complicated in its origen.

I feel like going away for a while.... somewhere that is far from all this... but that is how it started... leaving is easy... but it does make things go away... it just become worst... I wonder if facing it would be easier or just avoid it...

I'm moving on in March... come April... I

Scratch what I've said earlier... the opportunity comes to me earlier... Thank you God...
as of Next week... I'm gone baby... Gone...

Is your birthday day 22 of the month?

Your Life

You have the boss character, but not a leader. Most people look up to you

for your capability and confidence although they find you quite stubborn.

You should listen more to others. You are a unique and charming individual.

Your Love

You hardly take the moderate track. You either love or hate someone. Whom

you call friends are the chosen ones. If any of them betray you, you won't

let them get away without having hard time.

living life well balance...

Do you have your definition of happy?

My definition of happy is to see the smile one someone's face.. and know that their smile was cause by me...
something I did or samothing I said... it doesn't matter... for as long as it anable people to smile... that's happiness to me...

Once I've neglected them all... and be in my own world with just another person to care about... but when she left... I was in a very dark place... darker then I even been before... but friends... true friends... light the way out of the darkness and bring me to light... after that... for a while... friends plays an inportant role in shaping my characteristics...

I put them first before my personal needs... I listen to their problem... cheer them up when their down... lift them up like I was once lifted by them... but it got out of control... I took them all as my brother and sister... and what happen was... I was taken advantage off... I don't mind at first... I just let them be and be sincere in what I do... I felt at the time was... "Why bothered being loved by only one? when you can be love by many?" and so I live my life being loved by many... but that had an impact when I found someone that I wanted to spent all my attention at... and because of that.. she felt neglected and left... 

Now I've learn a lot since then... you need to keep it all balance... not too much and not to less... as to much of everything can make you sick...  

Caugh in the middle...

I never been thought to differentiate between diamond and glass... nor to say so about a pigeon and an eagle... to me they are the same... "a Bird"...

I don't chose to whom i'm friends with... I'm friendly to everyone who's friendly to me.... I treat everyone the same without every dividing them to categories... Yes I've been miss treated by people who call themselves my friend... being lied to and stab on the back is all been my experience in this friendship world.... friends come and goes... but a true friend stays... that is what I can say about it....

I'm friends with you... I'm friends with him and her... even you and them don't see eye to eye on every matter...
I don't even bother and only say whatever... but NEVER.... i say it again NEVER teach me to chose sides between the two.... because if you do... you just lost the right to call yourself my friend...

Each of my friends I treat like a brother.... care for them like a sister... because friends are my own chosen brother and sister that add color in life... arguments are natural... i treat them like siblings rivalry... but don't temp me especially when I don't know what's going on and being cough  in the middle....

Masih lagi Disini

Dan sepertinya ku memiliki dua hati… Satu disini…

satu lagi dimana tangisan pertamaku didengari…

Hairan… disini yang selama ini aku benci…

Disini yang begitu sukar untuk aku menyesuaikan diri…

Menjadi tempat bermastautin ku untuk beberapa ketika lagi…

Suatu yang ganjil muncul seraca tiba-tiba sewaktu ku disana…

Perasaan yang kurang selesa….

Seakan akan terasing dari khayalan dan yang nyata…

Segalanya sudah berubah serta merta…

Aku tak pernah melupakannya…

Namun kota itu yang memilih untuk melupakan aku…

Begitu cepat perubahan disekelilingnya…

Sepertinya aku menumpang ditempat sendiri…

Hurm……..

Adam G.Sevani - Just to prove a point !!!!!

This guy is already popular because he acted in Step up 2 & 3... if you guys are a fan of the famous dance movie.. you know him from there.... I kind of dig his dance move... cool... 

and now... he's gonna make me famous.... how and why? it's between me and somebody.... =) 

in your face baby!!!!

Lelaki semua same je… perempuan pun…

Selalu je kite dengar bile ade perempuan putus cinta… mereka akan keluarkan statement “Lelaki semua same je”… bergantung pada jantina… anda juga pernah dengar lelaki menyatakan benda yang same… “Perempuan semua sama je”…

Aku dengar statement nie dari salah sorang bestfriend perempuan aku… die cakap die dah putus harapan dengan lelaki… dan olahannya… semua lelaki yang berdamping dengan die tak pernah memberi apa yang die mahu dan semuanya sama je.… tiba2… ja aku teringat housemate aku masa aku kat UiTM dulu…. Die pernah putus cinta jugak… pernah menyatakan benda yang sama jugak… Cuma gender yang berbeza… die juga pernah menyatakan perempuan semuanya sama…

Aku tak tahu macammane…mungkin dari banyak bahan bacaan yang aku baca… pengalaman sendiri… dan kebanyakkannya pengalaman orang laen aku perhati dan kaji yang membawa aku kepada satu cetusan idea dimana konklusi ini yang aku dapat simpulkan…

Setiap antara kita… dalam setiap individu ada daya penarik… dan setiap daripada kita hanya akan tertarik dengan orang yang mempunyai ciri-ciri yang kita mahukan… banyak contoh dan kesimpulan yang boleh diberikan…

Yang pertama, kite merujuk kepada mereka yang gemarkan sesuatu warna… sebagai contoh warna pink… Mereka yang menggemari warna ini akan serba serbi pink… dari baju, beg, wallpaper bilik, sarung bantal, kasut dan macam2 lagi contoh yang anda sendiri boleh fikirkan… begitu juga dengan cara kita memilih pasangan… kalau kita gemarkan perempuan berambut panjang… atau lelaki berkaca mata… kita akan tertumpu kepada mencari pasangan yang mempunyai ciri-ciri yang kita mahukan…

Akan tetapi, tak semua daripada kita yang gemarkan pada satu warna… apabila usia meningkat dewasa, kita akan gemar pada warna yang laen. Begitu juga dalam mencari pasangan… mengikut keadaan semasa… jika pada awal remaja dahulu kita mencari pasangan secara ala kadar… cukup dengan rasa cinta dah memadai… tapi bila dah dewasa dan ingin mendirikan rumah tangga… kita inginkan pasangan yang stabil dan boleh membimbing…

Yang kedua, kita boleh lihat pada majikan memilih pekerje. Ade kritiria tertentu sahaja yang mereka cari demi menjamin kelancaran dan kejayaan organisasi mereka… mereka tentunya tidak akan mencari pekerja secara membabi buta… kerana takut akan memakan diri kelak…

Untuk kesimpulan dari tajuk ini, lelaki atau perempuan yang mengeluarkan statement “lelaki/perempuan sama je semuanya” harus menilai sendiri orang2 yang pernah berdamping dengan mereka… adakah diri mereka sendiri memilih orang2 yang mempunyai ciri2 dan kritiria yang same… atau pun sebaliknya…