I'm emotionally distracted.... seriously I am... my patient and tolerance towards people seems to get thinner and thinner each day... There are countless times I blew off at the office... and what's worst... there was a time where I totally lost it... I almost end up punching my service leader and quiting my job... 


For now I seem to have everything that I've work so hard for... but not the things that I want most... 


without that one thing... I actually don't achieve shit!!! why wouldn't you fucking wait??? what was so bad enough that I did to make u go astray?? why did you when away?? 


You may follow up on my life from time to time.... and you just assume I'm happy... a blog is a blog... it tells story and shit... but what's truly inside the heart...  you can't really know for sure...  truthfully and frankly... I do want you back... but I never ask.... why??? because u said once that you would never come back when you go... thats why I never want to let you go... but u did... 


I admit that I compare others with you... and i confess... that you're the best...