Yes… I think that all I said to who ever you said is true…. I’m fad up with you… seriously I regret leaving my ex for YOU… you put me thru hell… I give everything and at the end you leave me in mockery… you don’t have respect for me… and you will never gain respect from others….
No wonder Andy was looking for scandals behind your back… I understand what he felt when he was with you… He wasn’t happy…
Come on… you said that if I really did regret… why didn’t I leave you??? I think about leaving you everyday… but you know so well why I can’t leave you… and now you did leave me… that is really what I always wanted…. No need to follow you’re friend advice to give me the finger and fuck off…
The worse I ever had is you… you can cry on to one poor bastard that hasn’t known you well yet… its fine by me… I can tell you one thing… you wouldn’t meet with a guy ever so close like me…
Owh I know you’ll read this….
Tuesday
Sunday
That's Harsh
Harsh words had been said… words that to a normal person would definitely hurt…
my principal in life are simple… people do good things to me… I’ll reply them with double goodness… and who ever do bad things to me… I’ll triple the bad things to them… but since with you… I’ve broken almost every principal in my life… and so I’ll break it once more….
I so much want to get even with you… even did a few stuffs that would hurt you the most… and I knew I succeeded in doing that… but no more… I think back on my life… and I’ve hurt people’s feelings before… so I guest I deserve this one…
You were the perfect girlfriend… and I just don’t have the time to fulfill your needs… you’ve asked for a break up about 10 times… but I don’t believe that it was over… but now… after those harsh words of you and your friends… I know that it’s definitely over… I have my pride as a guy… and I’ve shattered it all because of you… and yes… what you said is true… I DESERVE BETTER…
After all the crap you put me thru… I accept that it’s over… and thank you for all the wonderful memories… I’ll pay you back someday…
my principal in life are simple… people do good things to me… I’ll reply them with double goodness… and who ever do bad things to me… I’ll triple the bad things to them… but since with you… I’ve broken almost every principal in my life… and so I’ll break it once more….
I so much want to get even with you… even did a few stuffs that would hurt you the most… and I knew I succeeded in doing that… but no more… I think back on my life… and I’ve hurt people’s feelings before… so I guest I deserve this one…
You were the perfect girlfriend… and I just don’t have the time to fulfill your needs… you’ve asked for a break up about 10 times… but I don’t believe that it was over… but now… after those harsh words of you and your friends… I know that it’s definitely over… I have my pride as a guy… and I’ve shattered it all because of you… and yes… what you said is true… I DESERVE BETTER…
After all the crap you put me thru… I accept that it’s over… and thank you for all the wonderful memories… I’ll pay you back someday…
To my three best friends
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Its been a while since we when out or even sit down to have dinner or just having a drink together… all four of us… well our lives are different now… things are even more complicated just like you said Yana…
I know it’s awkward for you guys…. Having me around when I’m enemies with that bastard… things between me and Syameem seemto be resolving… but still every time I’m with her there’s this awkward silence between us… we seem to have nothing to say to each other… at one point we were surplus with topics to say to each other… each time on the phone would be for hours… but now… it seems like we’re strangers….
You guys said that I’m trying to avoid all of you… no… that’s not it… I’m just trying to keep my distance… you three are close… I’m sure I would only take up space… anyway you can always find me when ever you need help or in trouble… just like you guys always do…
I’m actually living my life just like the way before I meet you guys… our memories together was great… lets just keep it that way…
Wednesday
Spot on Aqie
Yup.. Our lives will always be surrounded by people that is not satisfied with what they have so they bother other people just to feel good about themself...
those people are the loser type....
so the fuck with them.... just live on our awsome life and let the loser be....
don't bother giving them attention....
and soon they'll die on their own...
live life your way...
those people are the loser type....
so the fuck with them.... just live on our awsome life and let the loser be....
don't bother giving them attention....
and soon they'll die on their own...
live life your way...
Tuesday
Insomnia
Its been almost a week now... and i've been getting insomnia... I can't really find the problem for my sleeping disorder... i'm usually like this during big matches... but hockey is long gone for me... I keep on feeling this adraline rush in my head that prevent me from sleeping... owh.. i've tried and i've tried so may thing to get me to sleep... but the final conclusion isi just can't sleep...
I've been watching tv last night... I think its my second time watching tv since i got back for the holidays... and my firstthis month.... suppprise? well i never relly dig television.... I rther watch movies.... that' why all the series that I loveI have them downloaded from the internet... so that I wouldn't miss and episode... and I can watch it when ever I want...
Back to the story.... as I was watching ASTRO PRIMA.. i can't remember the tittle of the story... well its about a guy who disguises as a woman and work at the same office as his girlfriend.... just to see her girlfriend everyday... but the girl couldn't rocogize her boyfriend and up being good friends to each other... The girl friend would often share her problems regarding her boyfriend to her new 'girlfriend'... gosh.. what a dumb bitch... then again...
the girlfriend often wants to meet up with her boyfriend but he's always busy with something... her boyfriend dosen't workat all... so when he said that he's busy... she starts to suspect him to have another woman.... such a typical, simple mindedshort thinkimh and irrational girl... well all girls are like that... to say most is just un fair... no offence ladies... in this story.. the reason why the boyfriend was busy is because their boss got the hearts for his boyfriend nd often ask him to go arround acompanying him to meet with client at night... it was a stupid story... but the issue was related to recentevent ocuring in my life...
women loves attention... they loved to be pampered by the one they love... but sometimes they ae asking too much... and all guys know this for a fact... but they never made time for them.. often busy with other stuff... stuff that mattered... you see... why woman and man are so diffrent is because woman are detailed... they look into every matter as if their livesdepend on them... picking up a colour for their nails can be a frustrating task... but guys... they look for way more serious matters... such as how to put food on the table... clothes and shelter... they are actually trying not just to make the womanhappy but the whole family... that is how unselfish man is... but woman only think of attention.... us man think of serious stuff for the harmonies of living together... so please understand... and be more considerate on what we've done...
one of the reason that the family intitution in this country starts failing is because of working parents... I mean.. if bothare working... who's left to look after the kids??? and all the burden falls under school teachers and nursery... I would say that putting food on the table is a job for the man of the house.... but thats is irrational of me to say... because the salary of just one parent can't coupe with the standart of living in this country... our standard of living is very low
compared to other develope countries....
but we are still developing.... the year 2020 is the vision that Malaysia is a fully develope country... and now is 2009... 11 years left to go.... I can see the mega structures developing... but I can't see and developmet in making our standart of living higher.... the macroeconomics objective is not achieve... the rich becomericher and the poor are just sadly poorer...
gosh... what ever am i babbling about... I'm way out of contacts... I'm thinking to much....
I've been watching tv last night... I think its my second time watching tv since i got back for the holidays... and my firstthis month.... suppprise? well i never relly dig television.... I rther watch movies.... that' why all the series that I loveI have them downloaded from the internet... so that I wouldn't miss and episode... and I can watch it when ever I want...
Back to the story.... as I was watching ASTRO PRIMA.. i can't remember the tittle of the story... well its about a guy who disguises as a woman and work at the same office as his girlfriend.... just to see her girlfriend everyday... but the girl couldn't rocogize her boyfriend and up being good friends to each other... The girl friend would often share her problems regarding her boyfriend to her new 'girlfriend'... gosh.. what a dumb bitch... then again...
the girlfriend often wants to meet up with her boyfriend but he's always busy with something... her boyfriend dosen't workat all... so when he said that he's busy... she starts to suspect him to have another woman.... such a typical, simple mindedshort thinkimh and irrational girl... well all girls are like that... to say most is just un fair... no offence ladies... in this story.. the reason why the boyfriend was busy is because their boss got the hearts for his boyfriend nd often ask him to go arround acompanying him to meet with client at night... it was a stupid story... but the issue was related to recentevent ocuring in my life...
women loves attention... they loved to be pampered by the one they love... but sometimes they ae asking too much... and all guys know this for a fact... but they never made time for them.. often busy with other stuff... stuff that mattered... you see... why woman and man are so diffrent is because woman are detailed... they look into every matter as if their livesdepend on them... picking up a colour for their nails can be a frustrating task... but guys... they look for way more serious matters... such as how to put food on the table... clothes and shelter... they are actually trying not just to make the womanhappy but the whole family... that is how unselfish man is... but woman only think of attention.... us man think of serious stuff for the harmonies of living together... so please understand... and be more considerate on what we've done...
one of the reason that the family intitution in this country starts failing is because of working parents... I mean.. if bothare working... who's left to look after the kids??? and all the burden falls under school teachers and nursery... I would say that putting food on the table is a job for the man of the house.... but thats is irrational of me to say... because the salary of just one parent can't coupe with the standart of living in this country... our standard of living is very low
compared to other develope countries....
but we are still developing.... the year 2020 is the vision that Malaysia is a fully develope country... and now is 2009... 11 years left to go.... I can see the mega structures developing... but I can't see and developmet in making our standart of living higher.... the macroeconomics objective is not achieve... the rich becomericher and the poor are just sadly poorer...
gosh... what ever am i babbling about... I'm way out of contacts... I'm thinking to much....
Parents Wedding
every normal person would grow up thinking about marriage... and they would also think about their parents to come to theirwedding... but what they don't expect is to come for their perents wedding...
i'm sure there's a lot of people that have been to their parents wedding... well our family institution this days isn't very strong due to so many reason... i would say it.. then this post wouldn't be about what i want to post about...
for a normal family you'll have a dad, a mum, and probably a brother or sister or just you alone... not many you've heard that have two mothers... but i do.. yes I got two mum's... but not because my dad got married again...
its like this... my mother and my other mum are best friends... and her son was my best friend... we are closed just like family... but.. later on my best friend whom is her son died of an accident when i was in the national servis... since then on she treated me like her own son.. well she did so before.. but more after my best friend's death... I was sad that my best friend died... cried my eyes out... he was my first friend in this world... we've known each other since both are in our mother's woam... do you know who's your first frend i this world???
May Allah rest his soul and put him in a better place... Amin
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