To Tabel and Ted

I'm so NOt over you

Tell me How... because i have all the answers but still i can't find ways to forget about you...
If only i didnt send you that text message... then i would never find out... how stupid of me to do so... I think its betterfor me to find out about it after you got married... so that the thouht of you getting married doesn't honst me at night... thinking of ways to stop you from gettin married to that guy... but that's just wrong... you from all people deserve to beliving the happy life you always dreamed off... it would be selfish of me to prevent such a thing from happening.... but... the funny thing is... i always thought that i was the one that would make you happy... the one that would take you to the ligtat the end of the tunnel... but it was never meant to be....
but i can say that it wasn't my act... That night... it was my heart that tells me to text you that night... even though thatits been more then a year since i last heard anything from you...
as usual me and my words would melt your heart... and i'm sure thats what made you reply my text message... well you said it so yourself... its always been that way... i've written a hundread poems for you since before we were an item... I don't know whybut i always have this inspiration to write about you... it doesn't matter that i'm happy or sad,,, or when i'm mad... in goodtimes or when times are bad... there would always be something to write about you... and now i wonder.. where did i get all this inspiration from... I think its because of the deep feeling... the campassion of my love for you without affection... you were my first true love... my first and only true love....
suddently i remember what i've wrote in one of my poems for you....

"Cinta suci yang abadi berlaku hanya sekali
walaupun kita tidak pernah pasti
namun cinta suci tetap kekal abadi dihati
walau tidak dapat disatukan di akhirnya nanti"


True love will only happends once in our livesbut we don't know when it happends...
but true love remains true in our heart and lives forever in our mind.... even when we fail to become one...

I never did find a replacement for you.... and i've been with a hundread girls after you left... there was one or two that hadinspired me to write about them... but i could only write one or two.. not a hundread like when i was with you...

why did you come back? why do you have to put me in this situation again.... all i think about now is you... and you getting married.... and no i will not come.... i will not go to you wedding.... i don't want my tears to fload your wedding day...

If i ever go... i would go with a special someone... whom manage to made me forget about you just by being with her... She wasthe perfect replacement.... no... she's not a replacement... she's more then that... she showed me how to love again... but she's gone too... and so this is how my love story ends... I'm trying not to feel sad.. because i don't wan her to feel guiltyshe was a breeze when she come... she swept me right off my feet... but like the breeze... it fade away..